It states on the "fact sheet" given to me by my pediatrician, 6 out of 10,000 Children will seize from their vaccinations.  According to the government this is an acceptable amount. On this page, I would like to introduce them to you.

"Our beautiful son, Ryan, was born on June 1, 1993. He was 20 inches long and weighed 7 lbs., 2 oz. Right from the beginning, Ryan was extremely fussy. He didn't sleep...at all. The hospital Ryan was born in advocated 'rooming in' with your baby, but with Ryan, they made an exception. They knew I needed my rest and insisted that I not have Ryan in the room with me. I tried rooming-in with Ryan one of the two nights I was in the hospital, but he just cried and cried, so they took him away. Even then, I started wondering if something was wrong. He just wouldn't stop crying. I'm Rh-negative...and I'd had one shot of Rho-Gam while Ryan was still in utero and one shot after the birth. I'd also had a minor cat scratch while playing with my pet cat, and a nurse decided that I should 'play it on the safe side' and vaccinated me with a Tetanus booster. Little did I know that these two shots would cost our son dearly.

We brought Ryan home after two nights in the hospital. He wouldn't sleep unless we held him. He also cried horribly during his feedings. I had no breast milk and thus had to use an infant formula. As soon as I would start feeding Ryan, he would cry and arch his back. It was horrible. He was so hungry but yet he seemed so uncomfortable as he fed. After I called my mother and told her what was going on with Ryan, she explained my sister had the same thing happen to her children as well. She found out her children had severe milk allergies and switched their formulas to a soy milk based formula. We switched Ryan to a soy based formula and it worked. No more crying during his feedings...at least we had that problem solved.

Ryan also ran a low-grade fever his first week of life. Our pediatricians could find no reason as to why Ryan was running a fever. Luckily, the fever dissipated after one week, but we always wondered what caused it. I had no way of knowing he was then reacting to his first Hepatitis B vaccine, which was administered to him at 12 hours of age.

Ryan seemed to be progressing well. We took him for his first well-baby check-up. He had his first round of shots. I was horrified to see Ryan immediately fall into a very deep sleep right after his round of shots. He was sleeping before I left the pediatrician's office and proceeded to sleep for the next day and a half. I couldn't awaken him for a feeding, nor for a diaper change. This somnolence bothered me...after all, this was an infant that, by nature, didn't sleep much, and yet I now had an infant that I couldn't awaken for over a day. I was terrified something was really wrong but yet, our pediatrician told me this was a normal reaction to his vaccines and pooh-poohed my motherly instincts.

Ryan went in for his two month checkup. Another round of shots with the same results...complete somnolence, only for a longer length of time. He was also extremely fussy and wouldn't eat much. Finally, he seemed to perk up and all was well, until the fourth month check-up. Another round of shots (the whole cell Pertussis component of the dpt vaccine was still being used at this time), with the same exact results...complete somnolence. Ryan was, again, passed out in my arms before I exited the pediatrician's office.

Within 12 hours of Ryan's vaccines, he awakened from complete somnalence to a high-pitched scream. I will never, ever forget that. Nothing could console him. My husband paced with him, back and forth, nothing comforted Ryan. He took his little fists and banged them into his forehead. He lurched forward in my husband's arms and banged his little head on Jeff's chest...it was apparent to both my husband and I that Ryan had one terrific headache. I called our pediatrician's office in an absolute state of panic. He asked that I hold out the phone so that he could listen to Ryan. I did so...and when I got back on the phone, the pediatrician was extremely quiet. He asked that I give Ryan more Tylenol and if Ryan didn't stop screaming in 15 minutes, to bring him into the office. Thankfully, Ryan quieted down.

I knew as a mother that SOMETHING was wrong with our son...and something was dreadfully wrong with him every time we had him vaccinated. He would seem to recover after each episode, but then the next round of shots, the somnolence would start all over again, only now he was experiencing something far worse.

We started digging...we researched material at the medical library and at my husband's law firm. We read and read anything we could get our hands on. Then, by chance, I heard about Barbara Loe Fisher's book, "DPT - A Shot In The Dark." When I sat down and started reading this book, I cried. Ryan was in that book! All of his reactions...everything. The milk allergies, the somnolence, the high-pitched screaming. It was all in there. My God, I thought...what have we done to our son? I'd been 35 years old when I had Ryan. I wanted this baby more than anything else in the world. I was SO CAREFUL before I even became pregnant. I'd had a complete physical, I was in great shape. I started taking prenatal tablets before I conceived...I did everything I was supposed to do. I wanted to have a healthy baby.

After our son was born, I did everything my pediatricians told me to do. But yet, our son seemed so sickly. He was always sick after he had his round of vaccines. I had already been warned about vaccines from a friend of mine. But this was when I was still single. By the time I'd met my husband and became pregnant, I was too swayed by the medical establishment that vaccines were THE best way to prevent disease...little did I know what they would do to our son.

We decided to quit vaccinating Ryan at the age of six months. The pediatrician fully acknowledged that Ryan's last reaction was a severe reaction to a vaccine. He determined that Ryan's reaction was to the pertussis component of the dpt vaccine and wouldn't allow Ryan to have any more dpt shots. When I asked him how he KNEW that it was the pertussis that Ryan had reacted to, he replied that this was the more 'reactive' of the components in any of the vaccines Ryan had had. But I was still uneasy...and I STILL allowed this pediatrician to give Ryan one more shot...a DT shot. Ryan didn't experience the high-pitched screaming, but the somnolence reared its ugly head all over again.

After I read "DPT - A Shot In The Dark," I knew in my heart that Ryan was reacting to each and every vaccine he'd been given. In fact, the more I researched, the more I realized, with absolute dread and horror, that Ryan had already been exposed to vaccines while in utero and was subjected to more vaccines before he was even 24 hours old. My poor baby was reacting to the vaccines he'd been bombarded with and for some reason, he wasn't able to tolerate them. I felt terrible, terrible guilt over what had happened to our son. I struggled with this guilt for many years to come.

Ryan is now, thankfully, a healthy, happy 11 year old boy. He has severe learning disorder issues and is developmentally delayed in some areas, but we are starting to see some improvement. He's under the care of a homeopathic physician as well as a mainstream pediatrician, who, by the way, fully endorses our decision to not vaccinate Ryan any further.

We share Ryan's story in the hopes that this won't happen to anyone else's child. It could have been worse...our son could have died. That may have been the outcome, if I hadn't listened to my instincts.

Sincerely,

Kim Ii
Blackhawk, California

http://www.vaproject.org/personalstories/jonny-sierra.htm.........Don't miss this site.

Hello and thank you for reading my story about my precious son XXXX who was born on 8/11/99, which happened to be very close to the same time Smith Kline Pharma sent a letter to the CDC telling them they were ready to go with mercury free infant vaccines. He was a beautiful baby boy that was very content with life. People would comment about how laid back and happy he was. Even strangers would comment on how alert XXXX was. Everyone thought he was an easy baby to care for because of his sweet nature.

He seemed to always get sick after the shots he received at the well baby visits. The doctor told me that this was normal. I trusted her.

When XXXX was 15 months old his life changed forever. Ten days after getting his Hib (25 mcg of Mercury) and MMR he was never happy after that. Nothing his family did for him would consol him. He cried for several weeks after these shots. The doctor told me that sometimes" it just does that to boys" and noted in his chart “possible reaction to MMR and Hib”.

XXXX ‘s health continued to go down hill day after day. He suffered from stomach aches all the time, ear and sinus infections for two years. He was on antibiotics for two years straight because of sinus infection. We realized that his behavioral symptoms were not normal even for a child who did not feel well. We gradually realized that XXXX was suffering beyond what we understood.

After XXXX’s brother XXX was born we realized that XXXX had to do everything in “twos”. He had to give his brother 2, 4 or 6 kisses…not 1, 3 or 5. He had to have two forks, two drinks, etc for meal time. He was very rigid and often times would get”stuck” in his mind.

With the help of a dear friend, we finally obtain advice of a DAN! Doctor and realized that XXX probably has mercury poisoning.

He will soon begin TD-DMSA treatment for toxic heavy metals. We have failed to get rid of his parasites. Last month there was a claim filed for XXXX in Vaccine Court in Washington, D.C.

XXXX is on the long road to recovery. Our family will stop at nothing to get our son the treatment that he needs no matter the monetary costs.

Last week his pediatrician sent me a certified letter stating that she will no longer treat him because his parents refuse to give him another MMR and seven other vaccines, some of which contain mercury. Her policy is more important than my children’s medical history and health.

God has blessed us with another son and we are protecting him from mercury poisoning. He is in perfect health had has never been sick... He celebrated his 1st birthday on May 16, 2006. We know that what XXXX has been through has helped his brother because we now have awareness on this issue. We pray that XXXX has not suffered in vane and that his suffering will help prevent other children from suffering. Our family strongly feels that God will bring good from XXXX’s Story. We also pray for God’s people to join us in the battle to protect our children from poison.

 

I have a beautiful 3 year old Daughter, She had her Hep b at birth and then developed a fever on the day We took her for Her two month shots so We put them off. Upon our return to the health dept she was injected 4 times, Two shots in each leg, She reacted almost immediately with a high fever, shakes and becoming listless. When We called the health dept. and her pediatrician They told us that she would be fine, We realized that We would never allow Them to do another "double" immunization again. The next round of shots were the "normal" amount of shots but she again reacted with a fever.

We again called the health dept and pediatrician and were told Tylenol The last set of immunizations We gave her were at 12 months, after the shots She again reacted like she had when she had received the huge dose She had a 104 temp screamed through the night and the next two days, We called the pediatrician and scheduled an appointment, She decided that all further immunizations should be delayed until our Daughter was 5 years old, We were relieved....
2 months later at a routine well baby check up our pediatrician warned us that the flu was expected to be deadly that year and that We needed to get our Daughter a flu shot, So We did what We thought all "good" parents do, We held down our Daughter for that last blow.

Within 48 hours our typically developing Daughter who was speaking and engaging and delightful deteriorated in front of our eyes, We knew there was something severely wrong but when We went to the Pediatrician and were frantic and saying She does not talk anymore, She does not
hear us anymore, she stares off into nothingness for hours, They said that toddlers typically temporarily give up skills to gain other skills. We knew this was not what was going on but we took the referral to the audiologist and left.

After a few more frantic trips to this pediatrician along with a normal hearing test, I was told by the pediatrician that she felt that I wanted something to be wrong with My Daughter, that immunizations do not cause the symptoms I was stating...... We have since switched pediatricians and have been on a frantic search for help for our Daughter, We will be seeing Dr. Demio in Cleveland Ohio this coming Wednesday and are hoping that chelation may be the key.
I do not know how the vaccine theory will play out, I obviously have reasons to believe that it will in the end be proven to be a huge factor. I lay awake at night and stare at My Daughter sleeping and wonder "where will she be in 20 years" Will she be happy?, Will she live independently? and I am angry that We live in America and that She was not protected now if I lived in some third world country maybe "probably not" I could excuse the fact that My country did not have the monies to manufacture a vaccine for the greater good without putting a known nuerotoxin into it that might affect a portion of the children, but AMERICA?

But where were My Daughters rights on the day that She received all of those shots at once? The nurse acted as though it were routine, They said nothing about  mercury. I always related autism to rainman, I had a pretty much perfect life , the "American dream" some might say. Now I have the life of someone who tries to figure out how I can swing the mortgage and groceries as well as mounting medical bills ($80,000) last year alone.

My name is Jennifer and I am the mother of 5 glorious children.

       J.R        Alexander      Sydney        Rebecca

J.R.               9 years
Alexander     7years
Sydney         6 years
Kiera-Anne   5 years
Rebecca       2 years 

JR was born August 9th 1992.  In December 1992 we took JR in for his health check and shots. Within several days of that shot he was deathly ill, vomiting and diarrhea, so bad if he had not gained a pound in one day he would have to be hospitalized. He gained the pound and within 24 hours he was "twitching".  I was at the pediatricians often due to his asthma. And would mention at every visit he is still wheezing and still twitching. At the time I was thinking it might be connected to the medicines for the asthma. The Doctor said he was growing into his nervous system. This went on until Feb 9th,1993.  JR had a series of Complex partials. We were at home with him and had no idea what was happening to him. He would look at me, then his head would crane over to the right. Smile when he heard his name and then cry when he could not move his head. The doctor said  to wait 30 minutes then call back. We waited 3 minutes. Of course when we walked in to the doctors office JR was smiling and fine. So we got the oh, first time parents. However in the doctors office he did it again and the doctor saw it. I remember this day like it was yesterday. I said  "There, there that is it"; and the doctor arm stretched out behind him onto my arm and softly touched it as he turned and said, "He is having a seizure"...Oh my gosh I felt like I was hit by a freight train. How could this be happening to my son. He then went onto explain that in hind sight all of those twitches were seizures. .....sigh......sent us home with Phenobarbital. All I knew is I wanted to do whatever it takes to stop these things. The rest of that week was spent at the neurologist  for an EEG, and then an appt.....he told us he did not have epilepsy he had a seizure disorder and he would be fine and would outgrow it. We did an MRI and CT Scan and all was normal.  He just had a horrendous EEG. During this time everyone said oh he'll be fine, he'll out grow it , they are probably wrong. I felt so invalidated. And so we went, we had second opinions and such all agreeing with this drug therapy. We switched drugs many times throughout his little life.
In late 1993, I found out that I was pregnant with Alexander. We did genetic counseling and we were told that the odds of having another child with epilepsy would be astronomical, so go ahead and have your family (now we were going to have Alex, but I wanted to know as far as future kids and what Alexander's risks were). All was clear. We preceded to have Alex, Sydney and Kiera-Anne. They were all beautiful and healthy. Kiera-Anne was 8 weeks early, but she was fine, we came home the next day..all 5 pounds of her. JR had drug changes, seizure changes and they began to get worse. He was having one day a month where he was totally unconscious the entire day. He was having about 30 seizures a day that we saw, however he was also having absence seizures so I know we missed many. Now we are at February 1997. And I see Jim and Nancy Abraham's talking about &";First Do No Harm&"; I told my entire family to watch it, it was about a child with epilepsy. My husband sat down and watched it the next evening ( he was at work) at the end he said, so are you going to Baltimore? And I said just wait, And our local news did a segment on Dr Sutherling and the Epilepsy and Brain Mapping Program. I looked in our insurance book and there was his name.......so I called the next day. JR started the Ketogenic diet 5 weeks later.  Monday morning we started the diet. I will never forget wheeling my son into the hospital the last week due to a horrible seizure, and now walking into the hospital praying that this was the answer for my son.  Right away the seizures reduced. 5 in the first 5 weeks. Then off all medicines within 5 months, never realized all the 5's. JR's little light was so bright after the diet. That is when he became JR.,we used to call him Jimmie, he chose JR. FAST FORWARD to August 31, 1997.  The whole family was napping and then I felt a nudging on my back, thought one of the kids wanted me, I turned around and SYDNEY not JR ,SYDNEY was in a grand mal seizure. Turned out to be a febrile seizure, his temp was 105.8. He had no temp an hour earlier when I laid him down. So off to the hospital we go cause it hadn't stopped. This was 2 weeks after his 2 year old shots. They sent us home later..no meds......he had one more seizure 2 weeks later. Now it is October 1st 1997 a month later.......I get a call from Jim, he broke his arm at work. And he is going to the hospital ,   While I am waiting for him to get back to work from the hospital........Alexander had a seizure. yes ALEXANDER. I thought he was ignoring me because he was in trouble, I had actually chased him around the table and he went into this corner. He wouldn't look at me or answer me. So I picked him up and as soon as I saw his eyes at my level right in front of me, I recognized that look all too well. He was in the middle of a seizure. I stood him up. One leg was limp one leg was stiff as a board. so I laid him down, then he came out of it. I called and ordered EEG's on both of them.   Alex's was abnormal and Sydney's was normal . Alex had seizures every couple of weeks. In March of 1998 we started him on the diet since the seizures did not go away. He has never had a seizure again. It is now August 29th 1998. We were told if Sydney went a year without seizing we would be out of the woods....so to speak. Well, he seized that day. And continued to seize several times daily.  He was put on the diet September 21, 1998. Kiera's 2nd Birthday. He had seizures only when sick. NOW......it is December 1998.  I find out I am pregnant with Rebecca. I cried for days. What does this mean for this baby. If it is a boy is he doomed to have seizures, since only our sons have been affected to date. . Whew. we found out it is a girl...what??? there is a spot on her heart??? Okay she should be okay and we'll watch it. At 32 weeks I started contracting...so on bed rest I go. after several times to the hospital to stop labor, Rebecca was born at 37 weeks....5 pounds 4 ounces....and beautiful and healthy.  Rebecca was jaundiced after birth, significantly, we were at the pediatricians daily for the first 4 weeks. She developed asthma related symptoms (would not diagnose until she is two) when she was 4 months old.   Now in April 2000 Alexander came off the diet. And is doing beautiful . No seizures. No medicines and No diet and No delays. In June of 2000, Rebecca started having seizures.2 months after her last shots.  2 weeks before her first birthday. We watched her, not ready to treat her. September 2000.....we are now  homeschooling. Felt it was the right thing to do for our family. In November Rebecca was placed on the diet. Her seizures would not stop.   April 2001, Sydney came off the diet. No return of seizures. Not even when sick. And is doing very well..No Delays. Rebecca has done beautifully.  So on Sept 10, 2001, I go into the doctors and say.....My dear dear JR. is still struggling with the diet. Only seizes when he cheats which he unfortunately does often! We have had a status event while on the diet and his seizures continue to change and evolve every time he has a seizure. The doctor has agreed with me after 4 years that JR. probably falls somewhere on the Autistic spectrum. We have not made that official diagnosis, however, I was just hoping there may be some methods of teaching and such that might be used with autistic kids that will help him. Not like I really need a title, I just wanted some validation of what I was seeing and perhaps there might be some answers out there I do not know. He has a lot of struggles, behaviorally and developmentally. We work with him every single day using Brain Gym and regimen. meaning routines and such. That is our story in a nutshell. I must say that without the Ketogenic Diet I would have 4 kids who were zombie out on drugs and seizing all day   (based on Jar's history) and that I think would be too much for me to handle, however, that is not our life. And I am very thankful.
Jen

I weighed my son yesterday, he has finally hit 20 pounds!  This is a big milestone for us, as Noah will turn 3 on Feb 11th, he just turned 33 months Nov 11th.  You see, at one time, Noah was gaining steadily, about 1.5 to 2 pounds a month, until he hit 7.5 months.   He weighed in at 14.5 pounds.  Then he received his 3^rd round of vaccines, the 3rd DTP and the 1st hep B. Does it matter that my oldest son received his first Hep B at the age of 12 years, and that my younger son received his first He B at the age of 4 years?  I don't know.  As you have found, doctors turn a deaf ear when anything negative is said about vaccines. By the 3rd day after getting his shots, (after crying on and off for two days) Noah began a slight whistle sounding wheeze.   I took him to the doctor, they weighed him, and he had lost a few ounces in just the 3 days that had passed.  He didn't gain any more weight for several months, just flat lined on the charts, when previously he was following the curve to the T! He began to refuse all solids, when just a few weeks before, he was trying everything offered, and liking most of it. Now he would only nurse, nothing else.  The pediatrician suggested I skip the morning feeding to try and prompt him to eat.  I suggested I didn't feel the nursing was the issue here, he was refusing ALL food, and none of my other breastfed (3 of them) have ever outright refused food, they always ate IN ADDITION to nursing, eventually replacing the nursing with a regular diet.  So now, 26 months later, my son has only gained 5.5 pounds.  He seems to be fine in every other way, (once the respiratory problems resolved, after about 12months). When I realized that the only change in his environment had been the vaccines, I sickly made the connection.  I filed a report with VAERS, and they continue to follow up to inquire if my son is still suffering adverse events. It is a horrible thing to watch a child never grow out of size 12 months, even as he approaches his 3^rd birthday.  I am thankful that aside from his grossly stunted growth, that he seems to okay, but how do you explain to anyone why your child is not growing? Why do all the doctors refuse to listen when I tell them he was FINE BEFORE THE VACCINES? I told our doctor no more shots until I can find out what caused Noah's problems, since according to our doctor, although he has no idea what happened to my son, he is sure that the vaccines had nothing to do with it.   Interesting. If he doesn't know what caused the problem, how can he possibly rule out vaccines right off the bat?  So, at 33 months, Noah has had no further shots.  In fact, after researching, I made the decision that no vaccines will ever be administered to any of my children ever again.   My 6 yr old didn't get the boosters required for kindergarten, it would be over my dead body.  I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in your struggle against the world when it comes to having a child damaged by the very vaccines they claim are supposed to protect. 

Sincerely,

Christine Ewton
Jax, FL

Katie has a condition called Rett Syndrome. She is considered an atypical case, because she was not afflicted as severely as a classic Rett case. I do question the effects of shots however, just because, up until about her third set of shots, she seemed like she was just going to be delayed. She didn't talk, but she played, and she was trying to catch on to things, like pretend play, babbling, etc. But as time went on, and that third set of shots was given, she went into more of an autistic stage. This is very typical for Rett girls to do, but how many are given the shots at this age? I wonder, does it push some over the edge? My real frustration comes however, from this hep. b shot that I was told she needed two years ago. I was told it was harmless. The first one went ok,  the second one sent her into a grand mal seizure, within a half hour of returning home from the doctor visit and we have never regained control. Katie is doing well for having Rett Syndrome.  Now, every visit we make to the ped, I am asked about that third shot in the series, and I just tell them NO, sorry, second one caused grand mals, next one could do worse, so NO THANKS.... I hate these professionals telling us that things are harmless, and only go by the book, rather than looking at the true stories from families. UGH. She has a lot of skills, and has not been physically afflicted like so many of the classic girls have been. Wendy, I hope this is enough background. Thank you for letting me share.
Take care! Kandy
 

My daughter, Sarah, who is 9, is  epileptic.

My daughter, Sarah, who is 9, is  epileptic.  She started having seizures when she was six months (petit mal, then grand mal at seven months).  I always believed it was from her vaccinations, but the doctors would always say, "Oh, we don't know that."   Jerks. 

I just recently found out she has long-term chronic Mercury poisoning from her vaccinations.  I did not want to vaccinate her any more, but was pushed into it by a new pediatrician when she was five.  Within two weeks she began having seizures twenty four hour per day, a week at a time, recovering for maybe a week, and then starting all over again.  This went on for a year and a half.  She barely made it to school at all that year.  Only in the last two years has she not been having seizures (only when sick for a while, now only when I tapered her seizure medicines too quickly).    I have absolutely refused to allow my children to be vaccinated since then, and I can honestly say that they are only better because of my refusal. 

There is no such thing as a safe vaccine.  Period.

Tracy

            Jonathan

My husband and I live in East Texas in a town about 125 miles NE of Houston. My husband works for the Texas Forest Service and has been there for 23-24 years. I owned my own medical transcription business until my son became sick and I had to shut it down in order to care for my child. When we married we decided that we would wait 2 years before starting our family. When I found out I was pregnant after 2 years of marriage we were so excited and began reading everything about pregnancy. I read everything I could lay my hands on regarding healthy eating, nutrition, and giving the baby the best start in life that I possibly could. I gave up all chemicals in foods, aspartame and saccharin, caffeine, etc. so that the baby would be getting only the best source of nutrition. I read everything I could about each stage of pregnancy and I exercised each day. I felt great and my blood work was the best they had seen in a pregnancy in a long time. I then researched methods of delivery and after participating in several classes and reading a bunch of books, I decided that the best would be for me to go through labor and delivery naturally. My husband and I had a private tutor who instructed us on the Bradley Method of childbirth, which taught you how to breathe and focus. I didn't want the epidural drugs in my son's bloodstream and thought it would probably be uncomfortable for me but it would be better for him. I had absolutely no complications during my pregnancy. When the day finally arrived that my water spontaneously ruptured at 41 weeks, my experience with labor began. I went through 19 hours of labor and the last couple of hours were the most intense since they had to initiate Pitocin. Finally at 8:19 PM on 07/31/97 my little son arrived into this world weighing 9 lbs and 7.6 oz.  He was 21 inches long and let out a robust cry. There were no complications during labor or delivery. He started to breastfeed within 10 minutes of birth and was 9/9 on the APGAR scale.

I researched and read everything I could lay my hands on while I was pregnant so that I could make informed choices. The one thing that I was never told about was the hepatitis B vaccine that my son would be given in the hospital just before going home. If I had the opportunity to research this vaccine prior to him getting it, he would have never received it.

He was given the federally recommended and state mandated hepatitis B vaccine when he was 3 days old just before we left the hospital.  This vaccine was given without our consent or knowledge.  Within 4 hours he began screaming at the top of his lungs and we couldn't get him to stop. We called the hospital nursery and they told us that he was probably just scared not being in the hospital environment that he had become accustomed to in the hospital (with the sound of incubators humming etc.). My little boy never slept and screamed a high pitched blood curdling scream all his waking hours.

He only slept for short periods (10-15 minutes) at a time and never slept for more than 4 hours in a 24 hour period. We took him to the pediatrician and we were told that it was colic and he would out grow this. Since this was our first child, we didn't know what was normal and  what wasn't. We made many calls to the hospital staff during those early hours. Since the pediatrician told us that this was colic and that he would outgrow it by three months of age, we waited.

Jonathan continued screaming and we couldn't take him into public because we couldn't control his screaming and certainly couldn't stop it once it started. His screaming was so intense that his face would become blood red and he had a look of "panic" on his face that I could do nothing to help.  I felt very helpless and felt that I was a bad mom, unable to console my own child. He would wake up screaming even if he only slept for 10 minutes, in fact his screaming would start before his eyes  opened. He lost most of his baby hair, it came out in clumps.  We later found  out that the jerking that he was doing was infantile seizures and not gas pains. This type of seizure is often misdiagnosed as gas.

He got his 2nd hep B shot and three others, one of which was the DTaP when he was 2 months old and the screaming worsened.  We recently found out that his DTaP was a HOT LOT.  A Hot Lot is a batch of vaccine that killed a bunch of kids and injured a bunch of kids. His batch was one the Hottest Lots in US History.  He was horribly constipated too and we ended up in the pediatrician's office several times with this so they could  "stretch his sphincter". He had problems having a BM and was in the pediatrician's office at 8 days of age.  From that point onward he had to have glycerin suppositories and digital manipulation in order to eliminate.

We thought we were going to go nuts with the continual screaming because we spent all our days and nights trying to console him and make him feel better to no avail. We had to hire some help so that we could get some sleep, we were so exhausted. This screaming literally went on for 18-20 hours a day.

When he was 4 months old he woke up after an unusually long sleep and I got him out of bed to breastfeed him at about 9 am. I could not get him to nurse. Every time I tried to nurse him, he started crying and rubbing his little eye with his fist. He had always been a very good nurser and I thought maybe he was teething and I gave him a little orajel on his gums. This did not help his crying. I tried to give him a little taste of Tylenol, sometimes a taste would distract his crying for a moment. This did not do anything. I then called the pediatrician's office and requested that we come in. I called about 9:30 am and said that we needed to come in "this morning". I really thought it was an earache as I heard that most kids seem to get them but I wanted him to be looked at. They told me to be there at 10:40 and the doctor would see Jonathan before lunch. While I was getting Jonathan ready he threw up and was heaving. He had not eaten anything since the night before. He became very pale. Our pediatrician was out of town and we were seen by her partner (who had never laid eyes on my child).  This doctor actually saw Jonathan by 11:00 and did not like the way he looked. He did some labs in his office, which were all negative. He sent us to the local hospital for blood cultures and a chest x-ray which were both negative. He asked us to return at 2:00 and he had a gut instinct that he wanted to do a lumbar puncture. He explained to us that in med school they told him that if he ever thought LP for one second, then DO IT. He said that he wanted to do it. The LP revealed 3 vials of bloody fluid, just like a blood draw and he told us that this should look like water. He sent us immediately to the hospital for a CT scan of the head. The radiologist read the CT as a mass in the brain that had hemorrhaged. (Later determined to be a ruptured aneurysm within the next week). He was rushed off to ICU and air transportation was arranged while he was intubated. My baby was on death's door in a matter of moments.

He was life flighted by helicopter to Shreveport, Louisiana (Schumpert Medical Center) and he died in the helicopter and was resuscitated and began having seizures. Once he got to the PICU he died two more times and they resuscitated him. They worked on him for over an hour and his brain went without oxygen for a total of approximately 30 minutes. He was on total life support in a coma and was given no chance for survival through the night. They did a lot of testing to try and find the source of the bleed. He eventually had an arteriogram which showed the images of the aneurysm.  He survived and 10 days later his aneurysm ruptured a 2nd time. They said that there was 3 times as much blood this time and they didn't know how he survived the first bleed. They gave him less than 24 hours to live this time and said that his brain was already herniating. We were praying all the time and believing for miracles. They had us planning his funeral.

He survived and we found that there was only 1 doctor in the country who could deal with our situation in a child so young and he was in San Francisco. One doctor in Shreveport (pediatric neurosurgeon) told us to just let Jonathan die and that it would be wrong for us to do anything to save his life. He said, "He is damaged goods, nothing but damaged goods and to do anything about it is inappropriate" and then he went on to say "There are things worse than death". We were not going to sit back and let our child die once he had already survived what he had. We then went to California where he was going to have embolization of the aneurysm with interventional radiology. Nine doctors were in there with my son and it was going to take 8 hours (they had to do the procedure through an arteriogram in through a vein at the groin, weaving a catheter up into the brain into a vessel the size of 4 hairs), but after only 2 hours the main doctor doing the procedure came out and said, "Well, we're done. We can't explain it but the aneurysm is gone".  We said that we could explain it because we had been praying so hard. All the other doctors came out scratching their heads saying that they couldn't explain it either.

My son had to have a shunt emergently placed the very next day because his intracranial pressure had become too high. His shunt then worked too good and caused a bleed on the opposite hemisphere of his brain from where the aneurysm had ruptured (subdural hematoma/effusion) which had to be drained externally with a tube. He then had to have surgery to place his G-tube because his stomach was anatomically behind his rib cage and couldn't be placed endoscopically like most.  He was diagnosed with cortical blindness, severe reflux and high risk for aspiration pneumonia.   He has severe global developmental delay, has a mixture of hypotonia and does have some spasticity.  He is 24 hour care for 2 people at any given time.

Jonathan was recently diagnosed with the following as well: spastic quadriparetic cerebral palsy with microcephaly, cortical blindness, and marked dysphasia. He had global developmental delay secondary to hypoxic ischemic encephalopathy as a result of spontaneous rupture of a left MCA aneurysm. Intractable, symptomatic mixed seizure disorder secondary to rupture of left MCA aneurysm. He appears to have infantile spasms, partial seizures, myoclonic seizures, generalized tonic seizures and grand mal. These are improved on the ketogenic diet.

We saw a physician in Houston who specialized in Hepatitis B adverse reactions and he did a battery of tests. His name is Andrew Campbell, MD.  He told us that Jonathan definitely did have an adverse reaction to the hep B vaccine.  We had a SPECT scan by Richard Neubauer, MD in Ft. Lauderdale who also stated that Jonathan had toxic anoxic encephalopathy directly related to the hepatitis B vaccine and this was not the first time he had seen it and unfortunately would not be the last time he would see it. We were also told that Jonathan's intracranial pressure was so intense for such a long period of time from his prolonged horrific screaming that the vessel couldn't handle the pressure and ruptured. I was told that brain vessels are the thinnest vessels and are not built to withstand intense and prolonged pressure.

My son is now 4 years old. He was in the hospital for a total of just over 4 months before we were able to bring him home. Hospital dates were 12/11/97 through 04/08/98. We initially went to Shreveport then we were transferred to San Francisco and then back to Shreveport before coming home. We never returned home during that entire four month hospital course. My husband and I remained at Jonathan's side.

My son requires 24 hour nursing care, which is provided by myself (as I had to quit my career), my husband (who has to work to support us), and a nurse. We have no help on the weekends at all. We have no family close by and our church family has stood behind us for a long time.

Jonathan has a compromised immune system and cannot be around other kids or anyone that is sick. We are basically homebound. He was having 100-200 or more seizures a day, every day. We started the ketogenic diet for seizures and changed his medications and he now is having 30-90 or so a day now. He is g-tube fed every four hours and because of his reflux he must be held upright during feeding (which lasts for one hour) and for 1hour afterward to prevent aspiration. With the ketogenic diet, because it is compromised of 90 percent fat, if even one teaspoon were to get into his lungs, it could be deadly. He has medications that must be given throughout the day and must be crushed and put into a syringe, then into his feeding tube. He cries a lot and requires full attention because  of his gagging. He stays very constipated and the ketogenic diet makes this  worse.  He gets Milk of Magnesia every day, and sometimes this doesn't help  him. We end up having to use BabyLax and Baby Fleets enemas. We must  monitor his ketones, seizures, urine output, and stool to ensure that everything is in balance.  If he has an imbalance in any of these areas, his seizures can increase in frequency and intensity.  He still does not sleep just a whole lot.  Lack of sleep can also increase his seizure frequency and intensity.  He goes to bed around 2 am each "night" and sleeps until 6:30 or 7 am.  He will wake up anywhere between 2-6 times each night. Sometimes he will go back to sleep for a little while.  He will usually take a 1 hour nap during the day and a 30 minute nap in the evening. Someone must be with him, holding him, consoling him, feeding him,caring for him during all his waking hours. That would be myself and his father. He must also sleep in an inclined position in his hospital crib and we must position him and turn him each time he wakes up.

In the past he had been sick with the virus that was around. He needed breathing treatments every 3 hours around the clock. He literally did not shut his eyes for 4 days and 4 nights. He had fever that lasted for 7 days. We were bathing him with a cool cloth, he had no clothes on except his diaper and we were monitoring his temperature to make sure that it didn't continue to rise. My husband ended up sick and I had to be the nurse around the clock.

We do all that we physically can, but when we get sick from getting no sleep, not eating right, and not taking care of ourselves...what will happen to Jonathan? We don't want to get to that point.

My son was injured by the hepatitis B vaccination and it was a federally recommended vaccine which was mandated by the State of Texas. Where is the government now that we need help in dealing with the repercussions of this vaccine injury?  Even Dr. William Reynolds Archer, M.D., the former Commissioner of Health for the State of Texas said that all Texas kids had to have this vaccine, exempted his own children.  When I called him and had a conference call with him and his Assistant he confirmed that he indeed exempted his own children because he was concerned with its safety. He said his children had allergies and asthma and didn't want to give it to them. He could write his own exemption since he is a physician, we couldn't do that.

Tammy

My son was nearly killed then rendered autistic because of this shot; it has  triggered lupus in me.  We both focus on recovery and are doing very well.   Waiting for the government or our physicians to listen was a waste of time  in our cases, time we didn't have.  I had to abandon, jettison our pediatric  care providers to find ways to address my son's injury because indeed, no  doctor would listen or believe that something had gone wrong.  We've used  many aggressive tools since he was just a week old to rescue him, but one  of the key things I did was refuse further shots after he was 4 mos old.  Thank goodness I did.  He is now 5 years old and doing great.  There are many many resources out there for recovery or better quality of life – if  you don't get them from your current providers, look elsewhere.

Even though I think it is a waste of time to pester politicians and physicians with closed minds, I've done my share of that, and have testified before my state legislature and before a Congressional hearing to get the message across.  Gradually it will happen, but many lives will be needlessly lost or shattered before it does happen.

Since this vaccine triggers a cascade of events in many newborns, which culminates in autism, the autism community has created some very effective tools for recovery from vaccine injuries.  The injury systemically injures adults and kids just the same, but when it happens to newborns, they are also robbed of typical development as a side effect.  Though injured adults on this list are developmentally in tact, the recovery tools used for injured children may well apply anyway, and it might be worth a visit to sites, which describe and offer these tools in detail.

Some 250 MDs (physicians) are on board with these tools around the world. They are specific for addressing vaccine injury.  I encourage everyone to check it out. What's important is to have a provider experienced in treating vaccine injury assess what it has done to you before you are treated.  This vaccine has 12.5 micrograms of Hg (mercury) per dose and the usual series for adults is 3-4 shots.  Though the shot is now made Hg free anyone vaccinated up through 2000 probably got a mercury-containing version, since those were not recalled.  Mercury poisoning alone accounts for much of the injury in some people; for others, it's the viral load and issues with autoimmunity. You need to know what has happened to you in order to choose successful treatment.  Even simple diet measures can bring a lot of relief.  There are many many options, and they don't all have to break your bank account or require invasive care.  Check these sites below for treatment tools and research that has pulled hundreds, maybe thousands of kids out of a life sentence of autism, retardation, chronic allergies, or other developmental disability.  Hope this helps.

Read more of Ben’s story at her website.

www.conversedesign.com/SavingBen/index.html

Judy C.

I am Mom to a beautiful daughter, who I almost lost due to vaccines. When my Child was 2 months old, I took her in for a well baby visit. I was wary of vaccines since my pregnancy, having carefully researched the risks and benefits, and I had decided, at first, to vaccinate my child as little as possible. I stood there in the Pediatricians office and told Sophie's doctor that I only wanted to have 1 vaccine for the day. I explained that I was in no rush to flood her body with vaccines and I was concerned for her safety. Her doctor suddenly got very nasty with me. "Well, the state of NJ has very specific recommendations and rules for Vaccinations you know, this is here to help her!"

I calmly told her that I only wanted 1 vaccine for the day or I would leave. "This is mandated by the state", she snipped "If you don't have these shots, I am well within my rights to call DYFS for medical neglect” I was terrified, I was a new Mom with a tiny baby. Here I was being forced into shots and being threatened with Child protective services. I asked what she would be given and the doctor said "Not that much, we give this to all infants at this age." A nurse walked in with 4 needles. Without a word she shot them into my child's legs. "WAIT WAIT WAIT" I yelled as she just injected my daughter "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU GIVE HER? CAN YOU WAIT A SECOND!" "Calm down", said the nurse "She just got her DPT, Prevnar, Hib/HepB" I picked up my daughter, half naked and still screaming and ran out. That afternoon, her health began to decline. She had been refusing to eat, she could not focus her eyes or smile, her cooing stopped. I figured that she was just all screamed out. That night I woke up to the most horrific thing a mother can think of. My baby was choking and gasping for air, she was bluish red, and a thick clear-ish phlegm kept coming up out of her little throat.

I had no idea what to do...I kept patting her back and just praying and crying while I held her. I called the doctor and explained what was happening to her. A nurse practitioner got on the phone and told me "You are just over reacting, she probably just got a cold suddenly and your being hypersensitive".

I fumed and slammed down the phone. For weeks, Sophie lay in this semi-alert stage. She didn't have the strength to feed properly, she wouldn't smile. She couldn't focus her eyes, and did little more than squint her eyes in pain and lay in that state for hours on end. This was not the child I knew. At 2 months, before the shot, my daughter would smile and laugh, she could bring her legs straight and try to stand on my lap when I held her. After the shot, her legs had 2 hard baseball sized black and blue lumps. She could barely move them. She would have these fits of choking for weeks.

I called up the doctor many times to report what was going on, they REFUSED to see her saying that this was just her personality and I was over reacting to "simple coughs". After 3 months of this horrible lifeless state, my daughter would slowly regain more and more movement and consciousness. When she finally smiled again, I promised myself and her that she would NEVER endure that horrible pain again. The doctors’ office was refusing to report her reaction to VAERS, or even to write it down in her chart!!!!! I was furious, so I reported it myself. I showed up at that Pediatricians office for her well baby visit, a few months later with my still recovering daughter, the choking episodes, Thank God, has stopped. I had a mission now. "She is now off her schedule for Vaccinations and needs to be caught up! Do you know how many she's missed?" Said the pediatrician.  "You hold on right there, You almost KILLED my daughter with these shots." I went on to repeat all she had been through and I was once again threatened with everything from rare diseases to having Child Protective services called on me"

The doctor went on to say that she "MAY have been allergic to the Pertussis Vaccine" and she wanted to just "try it again and we'll see what happens, Just one more shot". I told her NEVER Again. I picked up my baby, and walked out. I haven't gone back to that terrible office. I don't live in fear of disease, I don't live in fear of CPS. I do live in fear of having to see my daughter in that horrible state ever again. She is now, Thank God, a healthy bright strong toddler. She does however, have some trouble drinking and eating but she will be fine. Her Motor Skills are back and above normal now, She can talk very well for her age, she can run, jump climb and flush her toys down the toilet, like any normal toddler.

I believe that "Just one more shot" would have killed her.

This is Tyler. His story is unfortunately just beginning.

He was a typical newborn until the day he got the Polio/Hib/HepB/D/P/T all at once and all in one day. Poor Tyler started SCREAMING and SCREAMING, He had a bluish grey color and had blood in his stools, which were now loose and painful for him to pass.  He was too weak to cry for a time and would cry out in pain when you would move his little legs. He is now very small and skinny and not gaining weight very fast.

The worst news came last week at his "well" baby visit. Tyler may have some heart damage and has to see a Pediatric Cardiologist on Feb 14th. We still do not know what will happen to him.  As of now, he continues to be miserable and sick since that horrible day.

Story of Ryan and Stacy Blanco

by Kathy Blanco

My story seems as though I am living this life over and over, like a deja vu'.  I discovered so many things along the way, that maybe I can share with you, some pitfalls, some things to watch, and something to rejoice over.  My son Ryan is now 20 years old and is most medically impacted, with autism and a dual diagnosis of epilepsy.  The first signs of anything being wrong were things so obvious, that I cannot even deny, nor my doctor (s) that there was an excruciating entery into autism for him.  He was a normal baby, normal apgars, a beautiful blend of castillian spanish and irish.  I remember distincfully, a good friend and nursery nurse at the hospital who fought over who was going to take him to mom.  She seriously said there were fights who would.  This reflects upon the theory that many of our children enter with beautiful faces, often a theory of those who have autism.

While carrying my son, I was working full time, and I was very stressed out with a high stress job.  I would come home so tired, and wondered if it was good for me to do this to the baby.  Yet, I persevered, as long as I could.  I was just married only 1 month before I became pregnant, woops.  Before the pregnancy, I lost a lot of weight, you know, the typical I want to look good in my wedding dress sort of thing, and dang, I did look good LOL.  Before we got our marriage license, they took a titre check and noticed I did not seem to have adequate MMR titres.  So they gave me a quick shot and sent me on my way.  Nothing to fear, nothing to even have an inkling about, my life seemed on a new way, a new life.  During the pregnancy, I came down with a mild sore throat, and sort of passed it off.  Then at the same time, I worked near semiconductor industries, and found some rather scary information about the well water in the area....except, after the fact.  I worked in silicon valley, in which there is a possible cluster of autism, right around the time Ryan was born.  Well, anyway, I remember distinct fully closing a small office I was working in at lunch time, and simply feeling so exhausted, I would lock the front door, and go to sleep on the carpet in the back room for lunch time.  I didn't know what to make of it.  The soar throat became worse, and I made an appointment to the GYNO.  He did a swab test and found I have MONO.  That was really scary.  I looked at him and asked him, gee, won't this hurt the baby?  He said, I want you to quit work for a month, and seek bed rest, and get off your feet.  I was so sick for 2 weeks, that I thought I was going to die.  Fevers, trembling in my bed, and when my husband came home, caring for the home and wishing and praying that nothing will harm this baby.  He offered prayers in our church, and we felt the Lord close to us during this time.   About 5 days short of the due date, Ryan James Blanco was born, with no complications, and an apgar of 9.

He was a good eater, and really, as a new mom, I had no complaints.  I did however, notice that every succeeding vaccine that he had, made him react even worse from the previous (this is a hindsight sentence).  The obvious line of give him Tylenol was overheard, and I subjected my child to the worse cruel fate I could have ever know.  I noticed at 6 months a very distinct thought.  Why is he not sitting up?  He did, but then when he did, he would fall to one side?  Years later, I found out this is a distinct sign of mercury poisoning from childhood vaccines.  He began to not sleep at night, even though words were ever-present, like mama, dada, baba, ju ju, dogee, cat, and a couple of cute sighs and coos and eye contact in between.  I had really no suspicions.  Then it was the eating.  I have an 8mm film of him, hanging over his chair, begging him to eat, and in fear, I breast fed him to whazoo and back.   He was plump and happy.  He walked around 13 months, and I did notice a slight hand flap here or there, but just thought, oh, he is being cute and excited.  At around 14 months, I began to notice other slight things, but nothing to worry my head over.  I got pregnant again, another woops, and was concerned, but was also ever-present with the fact, I had another baby on the way.

Around 18 months, when he had a DPT/Polio on his well baby, I again, poured down some Tylenol to assure a better go through this time.  Around that time, 20/20 news programs were airing that P in DPT shots were of worry and interest.  I remember begging for more information on this, and asked my pediatrician if we shouldn't just not give him P, rather a DT because of the information.  He brushed it all off as if it was never ever the case, or for people not like me, and would be fine.  Fine?  11 days after his DPT, he had a sudden rushing temperature, stiff neck, and body, 105 temperature, screaming and pitching for 24 hours, eyes rolling and convulsions and every trick in the book saying, this child is majorally reacting.   We took him to the doctor after hours and he gave him Phenobarbital.  When I couldn't stand the way he looked anymore, even after being sent home, I went into the ER room, and had them do some spinal taps to make sure it was not meningitis.  I have very distinct memories of being in tepid baths with Ryan the whole night.  One of the interns mentioned, I am going to write down this is a vaccine reaction, but if I did that, I would be putting myself in harms way, but this is undeniably a DPT reaction.  I was thankful for his bravery and perseverance.  After we were sent home and under consensus this must be a "viral illness", I held the release paper in my hand and told myself, I need to put this away for safe keeping.  We had no son for a week.  He lay in his bed listless and tired and feverish.     He seemed to pop out of it, but into something else.

His appetite even grew more worse.  I would take him on little walks with my daughter and notice that he would do things over and over.  Then when I took him to church nursery, he would be off in a corner, and not paying attention, and even staring out the window.  I came to my pediatrician again and mentioned how he couldn't even push the peddles on his tricycle and how his speech was stagnant, and even sometimes silent, and sometimes there were no words at all.  He referred me to a speech pathologist, who mentioned to me for the first time AUTISM.  I didn't even know what the word meant.  I went to the library, pouring through books, and pouring plenty of tears.  I put him into the school early intervention programs, and from there on, Ryan was either regressing, getting worse, or had splinter skills here or there.  We went to several neurologists, and had numerous tests done.  Around 4 years of age, I noticed other things such as muscle wasting, even bouts of what I call movement disorders, where he would get up in the morning and have this twitching and writhing in his legs.  The doctors still didn't know what that was.  We then took him to see Bryna Siegal at STanford Autism Research Center.   She diagnosed him with PDD-nos.  At that time, and yes, I was a busy mom, I had my fourth daughter on my lap as we were discussing the diagnosis for Ryan.  By then, I think my heart was a little hardened, and or, I was in shock that this became my life.  Four children under the age of 61/2! 

We got the written report back for Ryan and noticed one line that shocked me.  "Stacy seems to have some movements that I recognize as the beginnings of autism".  Back then, we didn't have a whole lot to go on, a little Lovaas here or there, a little first inklings of milk being bad for your autistic child, and that was about it.  No mention of vaccine connection.  You see, the next few kids, there were NO problems with the vaccines, and so, I thought, gee, must have been a fluke?  I did however, take out PERTUSSIS for every child succeeding Ryan.  I thought I had my bases covered...NOT.  Sure enough, the signs of autism surely and slowly crepped in, and on one occassion, I remember my daughter stacy being quite ill after her MMR, and within 2 weeks, was throwing up and or diarrheas from hell.  I remember going into the doctor and mentioning there was something strange about this.  She also had funny rashes all over her bottom, and welts at that.  She also had tell tale signs of not sleeping, and losing her language, and even bouts of extreme anger, as I remember on one report, that "mother was tolerant during our interview while the baby was pulling her hair".

So, with all this knowledge I had gathered for Ryan, even me, a suave mom, could not even recognize that once again, another child was following the patterns.  I put her into EARLY intervention at 11 months of age based upon Dr Siegals report.  The early intervention was such a life saver, and so many referrals to good doctors, and interventions were afforded not only for Stacy, but for Ryan.  We worked on GF CF diets extensively, as well as were probably the first parents that figured out they had candida to whazoo, and seeked the advice of an immunologist to put them on Nystantin.  This was a big breakthrough for both of them, particularly Stacy.  We also put them on the FEINGOLD diet, in which we avoided colored foods, or dyes, and even phenolic foods.  This was another step into progression.  During this time, Ryan began to have facial seizures.  We took him to the neuro, and he put him on a KETOGENIC DIET.  This really helped things, FOR A TIME.  He also put him on a mitochondrial cocktail, because we did some extensive tests, that showed he built up too much pyruvate and lactic acid, which are waste products of the kreb cycle.  Later I found out, this was also a sign of mercury poisoning.  

As the years went by, the seizures either kindled or smoldered into something I call, pubescent HELOOO.   Around 13 years of age, Ryan began to have Grand mals.  We put him on everything we could think of, pharmacology speaking.  Some improvements here or there, and breakthrough, but nothing that went, a ha.  I then put him on glycomannans and sterolins, as well as various things such as good fatty acids, homeopathic hgh, zinc sulphate, B-complex vitamins to whazoo.  This really seemed to stave off the seizures.  This along with other ideas of "healing the gut" which would in turn "heal the seizures".  Don't get me wrong, there are things left to be done, and some breakthroughs here or then, but for the most part, better than they were, when they were numbering 1-2 grand mals a week. 

As for Stacy, during this time, she really started making gains, in which we put the same protocol on.  We did, with added things here or there that were her deficiencies, as well as recognizing how PST deficient she was.  She just had her 3 year evaluation, and can no longer be classified autistic, but aspergers.  She has a keen sense of humor, and can joke and laugh, make friends, but has some "issues" with social pieces.  She reads around the 2-3 grade level and requires no aide in her modified classroom of LD children. 

The journey doesn't end here, for we found new information that made all of this come home.  As I have expressed, "I was tired" all the time as a mom, and had signs of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.  I unfortunately learned bad news of my mother last year having Multiple Myeloma.  That was devastating and sad.  The prognosis is pretty good, compared to someone who has lesions or tumors when they come into it.  She is also on the protocol I have outlined for my autoimmune kids.  But for what it is worth, I discovered not only is her cancer connected to autism, but also my Chronic Fatigue.   I fell upon a website, while researching for treatments for her, and was taken back.  I was sure I was on this web site before in regards to autism!  I clicked on the appropriate searches for autism and then multiple myeloma.  It was there, that I read a report by a Dr Brian Durie, that he saw often complex neurological conditions within the family, even MENTIONING A MOM WITH TWO KIDS WITH AUTISM.  I nearly fell off my chair.  I called the laboratory web page in question and asked if they wanted to test our family?  Would they, they said.  I sent in our entire families blood sample, my mother, my father,  my sister, her children, my family in total, four kids, and husband and I.  ALL OF US TESTED POSITIVE for THE STEALTH VIRUS.  Those with obvious neuro conditions were strong positive, those with moderate signs or hardly noticeable to the naked eye were moderate!  This was an answer I was seeking.  So, your probably asking, so what your saying is, is the STEALTH VIRUS THE CAUSE OF AUTISM?  I KNOW NOT.  But one thing I do know, the standard PCR and western Blot were used, and you cannot deny what you see.  This virus is from POLIO VACCINES, instituted to all back in the fifties and early sixties    (the good ole sugar cube).   It is also implicated in frank cancers.  SV-40 is what they call it, a contaminated simian monkey virus or CMV.   This along with mercury poisoning was indeed clues to our family, and I must say, a very interesting explanation not only for the Multiple Myeloma, but also the autism, CFS, Fibro, tics, Bi-polar, Schizo/drug/alcohol problems, dyslexia, ADD, depression.  I am sure I am probably describing many families that have autism in them (www.ccid.org ).  We are also about to enter the world of chelation therapy, as soon as we get mineral stores up.   The tell tale marks of poisoning thus far are low minerals, such as selenium and even lithium and manganese, all signatures of a mercury component. 

Since we have 2 with autism, I also have been in many many genetic tests, and or studies.  One of the most interesting was the c4b anulle, an allele on the Major Histocompatibility Complex.   This gene is responsible for handling VIRUSES, TOXINS and FUNGALS.  Those three are implicated in vaccinations.  HAD I KNOWN, that they had this immunoincompetance, along with the STEALTH VIRUS, I WOULD HAVE NEVER VACCINATED MY CHILDREN.  WE are working closely with CCID, and are about to go on anti virals, such as valtrex, biaxin, acyclovier, or gancylovier.  I am currently on Biaxin, said to lower chemokine and cytokine production.  We also have done dark field microscopy, and found invasive STILL fungas and candida, so something to work on.  As well, it looks as though I may also have mycoplasma infections, which could also be STEALTHY.   Ryan's blood work almost made the technician lose her cool, and disseminated what she thought was the oddest form of cells she had ever seen, and filling the whole screen, it screamed STEALTH to me. 

So you see, I do have some success here or there, but have a lot more to think about.  We just had tests done, and found they have antibodies to almost all their brain proteins, and neurotransmitters.   They have antibodies to myelin, seratonin and receptor sites, as well as catecholimines and neural axon filament proteins.  YOU CANNOT TELL ME THAT THESE CHILDREN ARE JUST PSYCHOLOGICALLY INVOLVED, they are SYSTEMICALLY ILL.  They have many gut issues that I keep in check with probiotics, enzymes, fatty acids, glycomannans and everything I can get my hands on that heals the gut.  Typically we put out around 1,000 dollars out of pocket for nutraceuticals and supplements.  Yes, it is so unfair, but it has made me strong.

I await more news on whether I should have endoscopy's done on my children, as well as other tests, that will further clue to us, what we must do to heal our children.  This I can tell you.  I am absolutely resolved that if we pre screen our newborns, there may be more than a major few that cannot handle vaccines.  I am currently working on a project to have such done, as a simple needle stick or PKU test is done, and will offer these insights in the time coming.  I hope this can be put forth to DAN doctors, and thereby a consensus on what alleles of the immunogenetic system will stamp a child "DO NOT DISTURB".   My hope and my prayers are that I will squelch this epidemic, and possibly save another child from the life my children have had to endure.  Biomedically these kids are so challenged that one inkling of twisting or turning, or changing their diets can set them off, or regress them.  This evident when I found out they were more allergic to CORN then GLUTEN in Wheat.  Doing Elisa tests and other targeted treatment tests are advisable in my opinion. 

My motto as a parent "knowledge is power"

Kathy

I'm Ellen, currently burning the candle at both ends while my husband has been unemployed since Sept. So we're in limbo, ready and willing to move wherever he gets a job, but meanwhile, we're in Texas, where we both grew up. I have 2 kids: Hannah (10) and George (8). Hannah had a viral encephalitis at 7 mo of age, shortly after her DPT and HibV boosters. Never making the connection, she continued to get all her vaccines on schedule with no problems, until she got the Hepatitis B vaccine as a 7 yr old (this one wasn't out when she was a baby). When she had a severe reaction (more about that later)  

After the encephalitis at 7 mo, she was on Phenobarbital for about a year and a half. I can't say whether weaning pheno gave her bad reactions because her seizures were already increasing in frequency. At the time I really didn't know about withdrawal seizures. So we tried a variety of drugs unsuccessfully until, when she was 3 1/2 I pushed for the keto diet. We weaned all drugs one month later (tegretol and diamox). I saw no increase in seizures, but I did see horrible behavior, pacing at night, the shakes. This all lasted about 2 weeks and was clearly a result of weaning the drugs. Never knew until that point how heavily medicated she was. Hannah did very well on the diet initially, over a period of 4 yrs, the diet gradually lost its efficacy. The seizures were already increasing a bit in frequency when she had the Hep B vaccine which altered her metabolism, gave her Parkinson's syndrome (slowed speech, severe tremors, masked facial expression), gave her chronic stomach pain, and tonic clonic seizure every 3 days or so. It also completely wiped out her short term memory. 

Its been 3 yrs since then. We've seen tremendous improvement in Hannah's condition, especially from hyperbaric oxygen and I would recommend that to you before you try any other therapies. We've tried many, some helped a little while she continued the therapy but she would regress as soon as that therapy was discontinued. Hannah has not lost anything that she gained as a result of hyperbaric oxygen. 

All three of my children have been suffering from seizures and it all started 3.5 weeks after they had the shots and within two weeks all three of my children had the seizures .This is not a coincidence!!!! Who will pay the medical bills for all the EEGS and Drs. apts??? Not the ones lining they're pockets at the cost of our babies. It should be a crime to threaten a parent with fines and imprisonment if they do not give they're children the immunizations. I have learned a lot about vaccines in the past two weeks. Things I was not aware of...all the children who had the same reactions my children have had. The scary part is my children are just starting to get sick from them. I have read story after story of other children having seizures and some have died from the same reactions or left permanently disabled. What is ahead for my babies futures??? I am a mom of 21-month-old twins and a 6 month old baby. If I had to do all over, The Drs. never would of put anything into they're little bodies. I am sorry to sound so mean but I am worried and scared and I know it is the immunizations they all received on the same day, same lot #. The DPT shot expired the same month as the shot was given.........I will request my children be tested for mercury. We have spent so much time at Drs. testing by EEGs, blood taken from they're little arms. My babies are so scared of Drs. and I know this is a nightmare for them. They should not have to go through all this because of the required immunizations. If I knew all the facts and if I had a choice I would of done things differently. But my ignorance has caused this and now it is too late to turn back what has been done. I wish I knew what I knew now about immunizations. All three of my babies had reactions to the shots before the seizures began. Both of the twins ended up in the ER with a fever of over 105 and a rash all over they're bodies....but our caring and loving Dr. said it had nothing to do with the shots. (mind you Claire was 2months old and Andrew 4 months old when they had the identical reactions). Would you believe they actually checked them for meningitis.  Mitchell screamed for 3.5 hrs straight a non stop hurting scream with his first set of shoots, this last set of shots made Mitchell fall asleep and I could not wake him at all. I got so scared I called the 800 # that comes with the patient info. They said this was normal for a baby to sleep and not be awaken for 24 hrs. He also had chronic diarrhea for a month. This last set also turned Claire and Andrew into zombies for a whole day after the shots. This is a normal reaction? I only wish I knew then what I know now. April 5th they had they're immunizations

May 1st. Mitchell had a spell in his bouncy chair. My husband heard him make a strange sound and he checked on him and he seemed out of it. His eyes were in a semi conscious state. I took him in on the changing table and he slowly came around. He was not blue but pale after this he was quiet for a while. May 2nd. As I was holding Mitchell he began to shake, his arms, torso and head.

May 3rd. Mitchell was shaking again and I called the Drs, he looked Mitchell over and thought it was seizure activity. They checked him for his sugar level and it was fine. His blood work came back fine also. He has shaken at least 6 times since this incident. (as of today May 23rd)

May 12th.Andrew hit the back of his head in the Pm

May 13th .Andrew woke up very lethargic. He just kept starring and acting like he was going to pass out. He could not hold his head steady and he did not respond to me at all. His lips were tense and whitish blue. I called my husband at work to tell him something was wrong with Andrew, I had gotten scarred and called the ambulance. He would not lay on the cot and by time the ambulance got there he started to act like himself. We took him to the ER ourselves thinking he had a head injury. The Dr. said it was not a head injury but an ear infection.

We got his medication and he took it all week and he seemed fine, he was not even fussy.

May 16th. Andrew was just about done his dinner. I went to him to wash some sauce off of his face and he gave me the usual fuss about it .I turned around to wash out the wash cloth and turned to sit it on the table Ii looked at Andrew and he was starring downward with his eyes drooping and he acted like he was going to pass out. I went to him and pulled up his chin and I got no response from him at all. I picked him up from the high chair and leaned him over and patted his back, nothing , no choking or coughing. We sat him on the table and he started to come around a bit. My husband held him in his arms for a while then he returned to normal.

May 17th I took Andrew to the Drs. And the nurse Practitioner saw him and felt he too had seizure activity.

May 18th As I was changing Claire's diaper she had a seizure. Her head was held back and her arms were straight out and she had both hands in a fist. Her eyes were tight and rolled back in her head. Her lips and mouth were also tight. After this lasted about 4 minutes then she went limp. I carried her to the phone and she stayed limp until I called my Aunt to hurry and come over, I was very upset. By time she got there Claire was returning to normal. I believe she had a headache after this happened because she was fussy for the rest of the day.

She did not see a Dr. I made a lot of phone calls to see if I could get a Dr. to see her but no one could. The ER said there was no point in bringing her in there as they did not have the equipment to help her.

 

MITCHELL: I can tell when Mitchell is going to have shaking, He is usually tired before it happens and the way I see it what ever is happening to him is what is making him tired...not the other way around. He sometimes puts his fist right up to his eyes and holds them there tight, as if he has pain or sees something. Then he puts his arms down and he starts to jerk, his legs arms and body then he starts to shake. He then falls asleep sometimes for over an hour and sometimes for just 10 minutes. Sometimes he acts like he is going to start shaking but he starts then stops suddenly and he will start crying and I cannot comfort him. The shaking was tremor like at the beginning and now have turned into convulsion type shaking. Harder and longer then when they first started...they are getting worse. He has an average of one a day and sometimes two a day.  I have also noticed lately his eyes are not focusing like they used to and they wander when he tries to look at something. Almost as if one eye goes one way and the other the other way. I see this bothers him and he closes his eyes and puts his head down. I have also noticed he does not grab and play with toys as well as he did before (mostly his right hand)

CLAIRE: prior to Claire having her seizure she acted as if she could see things that were not there. She would actually talk to what ever she was seeing. Claire's first seizure consisted of her throwing her fist's up into her eyes then her arm flared straight out and her head jerked back and her body tightened right up. Both of her hands were in fists, her teeth clenched tight and her eyes were tight and rolled back in her head. After about 4 minutes of this she went limp. I laid her on the couch and she started to become aware of me. She fussed all day after that, I think she had a headache. I had Claire to Drs. thinking it was an earache (she fussed when she had her earache) But she did not. He told me to give her Tylenol. I told him I have been giving her Tylenol since this all started. He said keep giving it to her until she see the neurologist. This cannot be good for her little body. Why does she act as if she is in constant pain????? She does not sleep well. She will wake up at night crying. Ever since Claire had the seizure, she has been fussy, cries a lot and keeps pointing to her arms, legs and head saying hurt, hurt. She wakes up every night crying.

ANDREW: Andrew first stare seizure lasted for an hour. His face was pale his eyes were open but he was not there, his eyes were blood shot. He was limp and could not move his body, he could not hear me or see me. His lips were pursed real tight and bluish almost white. I called my husband and seeing Andrew was not getting better I called the ambulance. He has hit his head the night before like he had a few dozen times and he seemed ok after. I did not feel he hit it hard enough to cause any problems, there was not bump, he continued to play and be happy after. When he awoke that morning I thought his reaction was due to his head. When we got him to the ER the Dr. said he showed no signs of a head injury (by this time Andrew returned to normal) but that Andrew had an ear infection. That was Monday morn. Thursday eve. Andrew had the same type of episode in his high chair but lasting only about 4 minutes total.

And so it continues....testing..blood EEGs and lets just wait and see if they have more or how bad it gets. So much for safe immunizations. And so much for the Drs. admitting it is from the immunizations. This has been costly, emotionally and financially. Its been hard on the babies as we have to travel to see the neurologist...
WILL THIS EVER END?

My name is Amy I am the mom of 4 beautiful children.  This is my story into the vaccination world.  I first questioned vaccines out of accident I was 6 mo pregnant with #4 and my 3 and 4 yr old were in headstart. I got notice that they were due for there shots I instantly got sick to my stomach. I went directly to my hubby’s work and told him kids were due for shots he said, well you better take them. I then began to cry him thinking it was pregnancy hormones I said I am afraid I can’t explain this to you cause to this day I don’t understand it. Well we held off and Dec 22 my #4 baby was born and my own Pediatrician happened to be out off town so I had a Dr my midwife recommended. He comes in the room after checking her and says she is beautiful nice big 9 lbs 15 oz apgars perfect then he says We aren’t giving the hep B shot now I said Ok Why. You have to understand at this point I didn’t know a thing about vaccines. The Dr proceeded to tell me they were worried about the Mercury in the shots and until this was cleared up he wouldn’t give it. My husband and my self said WHAT mercury. My husband says did you know of this Amy I said NO way but I will find out. So that started my crusade 18 mo ago.

 I will say that my 10 yr old Chelsea has had all her shots except her 4 yr old shots. She has suffered with severe allergies, eczema, and asthma and was hospitalized over and over for unexplained fevers.

Carrigian my 5 yr old is one that we now feel is damaged she has learning problems she started crying at 2 mo old and cried non stop for 8 months I swear. She has eczema also and holds her breath and passes out and did this for the first time directly after a vaccine. She has chronic constipation.

Michael my 4 yr old we thought was fine. Although did develop a severe respiratory infection after a vaccine but we didn’t know this then only know it now looking back. And the most troubling thing is he was diagnosed with Epstein Barr virus at 3 yrs old  this virus causes MONO. Some research shows that this virus may also be linked to the Rubella vaccine.

Chaela my 18 mo old has not had any vaccines. She is also extended breastfeed I say this cause I think it is important when you don’t vaccinate. She has hardly been sick. She did however have whooping cough at 5 months old which was the worst thing. We treated her with homeopathy and vit C. she recovered nicely from it. She had croup, which lasted 3 days with the use also of homeopathy and a few sniffles here and there. I must say that this journey has been the hardest choice I have had to make for my kids. I make this choice on a daily basis.  I worry every day IS this the right choice for her.  But I then ask myself how could I willingly inject all that poison in her. I am furious at the medical community the government for not having to inform us of the deadly ingredients in these vaccines they claim are safe. Why as parents cant we be given the info and allowed to make the choice on our own.  And to bet that most DRs don’t know what is in these shots all the preservatives and fillers and known cancer causing agents. 

Everyone asks “don’t you worry about the diseases?” and YES I do every day. I worry how she will handle measles, mumps, chicken pox and God forbid she get tetanus. I now am reading and learning these diseases trying to make myself more comfortable with treating them. But I truly feel God led me to this choice. I don’t feel that my youngest would have been damaged I feel it would have been my 5 yr old who shows signs of all kinds of damage. I may one day selectively vaccinate but one this I can say is I am a better mom for learning all this and investigating this. I feel it makes us better parents and it is up to us to inform other parents. At least allow them to make a educated choice in the matter of vaccines.

The story of The Frennung Family

Dagmar

by Judith Frennung

My name is Judith Frennung. I am 43 years old. I am the mother of Dagmar, born the 27. April 1981, 11.44 PM. Dagmar’s birth was as normal as a birth in a hospital can be. She was healthy up until the day where near the age of two months got her shot of pertussis vaccine. After three-four weeks with severe convulsions her brain was damaged. Today she is diagnosed a spastic of average intelligence with hemiplegia of the right extremities, epilepsy, dyspracsy and aphasia. Dagmar’s aphasia is so severe that she cannot talk with her mouth, read, write or reckon. And it is difficult for her to understand spoken language. The last 20 years of my life I spent clearing a path in the human society for Dagmar so she would be able to create a life for herself on this planet.  

Thinking back, I see that I have always been different compared to others. I have always tried to do things my own way. And not always with the best of results I must admit. My decent and normal parents have only had worries because of me. The reason for that is that I have always been driven to existential experiments by an ever-burning urge stemming from the great invisible dreamworld of within the soul. The result of my behaviour is that my parents and I have lost contact. It is the only way that my severely tried parents can maintain the necessary peace and safety in their honourable life, I guess.

 A very young woman I escaped home and moved to Christania in Copenhagen. Christiania is a town-in-town made in 1973 by young people, who wanted to create an alternative way of living every day life. Christiania was in its own primitive way one of the first eco-villages in the world. Later after some experiments with drugs, I changed my life, converted to the Tibetan Buddhism and moved into a Buddhist shared house. In 1977 I travelled to the Far East where I did some voluntary work among Tibetan refugees. I also received education in meditation and Buddhist philosophy from different lamas. Dalai Lama was one of my teachers.

 My parents worried a lot because of my strange life. Therefore I returned to Denmark determined to create a lifestyle which could please my parents. I met a man, whom I did not love. And an unplanned pregnancy became an excuse to turn the back to my untameable values and myself. In the pipeline to an existence - an empty vessel with a neat surface - I brought my newborn baby to the doctor to get her shots. This proved to be beginning of the greatest change of my life - so far.  

Break down

Before the pertussis immunization my Dagmar was a normal baby. Afterwards she was sad. During the next few days she weakened. She cried a lot. She caught an enormous cold, and appeared to change in subtle ways. The doctor told me that it was normal. I had a strong feeling that something was not quite right.  

After a few weeks of crying, illness and strange rashes, Dagmar developed a fluid-filled blister on her right hand. Shocked I went to two different hospitals. Neither could offer me an explanation. Finally I decided that all she needed was fresh air. In great haste I packed a few things and moved to some friends who lived in a shared house in the countryside. But it did not help. Her strength declined.  

Suddenly on a warm day while I was breastfeeding her sitting under an old tree in the garden, Dagmar emptied her bladder and intestine. We were both smeared all over. And there the convulsions started. We called the doctor. He immediately admitted her. In ambulance with sirens on we drove across Denmark.  

At the hospital the doctors found out that the blister was caused by an herpes infection. But nobody could explain how she got it. I am not infected with herpes. Years later I read in some scientific article from Germany on the subject that herpes or herpes zoster is often seen as a side-effect in cases of allergic reactions to pertussis immunization.  

I began to ask all the doctors about the reason of this disaster. I asked if the vaccination could have caused this. All but one flew into a rage. Filled with fear of these outbursts of authoritative anger I stopped asking more questions. I felt as if I had said something horrible about Jesus in a fanatical religious church. Years later a neurologist unofficially made a remark that the braindamage of my daughter was nontypical of infantile herpes infection.  

The convulsions went on for almost four weeks. Day and night. Unstoppable. My Dagmar lost consciousness. And several of her life functions were monitored and assumed by machines. I stayed by her side all the time. I lit candles and incense and filled the room with flowers. And I sent for Tibetan herbal medicine given to people in life threatening situations. Through friends I smuggled this herbal medicine into the hospital and gave it to my daughter through the probe in her nose. Within a few hours she began breathing on her own. After a few more hours the convulsions declined and after 24 hours it was clear that she would survive. Doctors gathered in the room. One doctor burst out, ” She survived! Damned! Who would have thought that! Oh …the mother is present.” He caught an eye on me.

 All the doctors were very careful to point out that immunizations were unable to cause brain damage. I do not remember that anyone took time to talk the accident over with me. But one of the doctors said something that I shall never forget. He told me that it was best that I never let my daughter receive another vaccination shot again. Those words told me, that maybe the health system had been less than honest with me. 

After returning home Dagmar was completely exhausted. For weeks she slept as much as 17 hours at a time. Then she woke up for half an hour to feed before going back to sleep. She had become almost totally paralyzed in her face and mouth, so she could not breastfeed. I rented a milking machine, so she could take my milk from a bottle. Her right arm was paralyzed. The general prognosis was extremely bad. I was told that she probably had become mentally deficient to a severe extent. And I should not expect a natural development of the right side of her body.  

Impossible from pain and confusion I managed to ruin the relationship to Dagmar’s father. My parents left, too. This I forgive them with all my heart. I was completely unbearable to relate to in the first years after the accident. I forgive myself.

 Breakthrough

Alone. With no family. No peace of mind and therefore very few friends. No place to live. No officially acknowledged education. No money. There I was - 23 years old - with my destroyed child looking out on the ruin of my life. Of course I felt sorry for myself. Of course I was terrified. Of course the loneliness threatened to drive me crazy. And of course my heart struggled with myriads of conflicting emotions concerning my child. It was especially a chock to me that I suffered from the same prejudices against disabled people as everybody else.  

At the same time Dagmar and I was surrounded by experts and specialists all knowing better than I. They all wanted to help, but they used a technical language I did not comprehend. I was a very young woman entering an alien and unknown world. The world of the disabled people. A world originated in a scary past where physical and mental defects brought along loss of basic human rights. And in spite of modernizations, Dagmar’s and my New World was unmistakably marked by it’s unloving and harsh past.

 My small, destroyed daughter and I lived in a whirlpool of unfortunate, incomprehensible and intimidating circumstances. And being a human being and a mother I did what billions of mothers since the beginning of time have done. I decided to fight for the dignity of my child. I chose to view the unfortunate fate as a kind of spiritual weightlifting. And I promised myself to learn whatever it took to transform terror into strength and blessing for the benefit of my daughter, myself and every living being everywhere. Slowly a strategy formed. Years later I named that strategy ”Project Disabled with Fun, Joy and Dignity”.

 The strategy implied daily training of Dagmar’s body. I learned how to give her massage. I investigated the principles of holistic medicine and many methods from the body-mind medicine became part of our family’s culture. I taught myself how to cook healthy, safe and poisonless food from ecological or biodynamic raw materials. Our home was transformed into Dagmar’s training room and my workplace.

 When Dagmar was two years old I felt an urge to become a better mother. Therefore I got educated as a Rudolf Steiner teacher. Through that education I was able to understand her nature better. I read lots of books. Some by Soren Kierkegaard, Goethe and Alice Miller. Others about brain damage and the story of disabled people and their social conditions through history, just to mention a few subjects.

 I investigated all I could find on the vaccine-subject. Later I became involved in the work of Danish Vaccineforum. It was soon clear to me that the smaller breakdown of my daughter was but an expression of the greater breakdown in all nature’s systems everywhere in consequence of the lack of skill in human societies concerning the creation of human abundance without at the same time destroying the abundance of the natural basis of the very same societies. Realizing that, I got educated as an environmental planner at the university. Later I joined the environmental movement, Permaculture, and became a Permaculture Designer teaching hundreds of people the skills and principles of ecological viable human production and dwelling. And I got a course in win-win conflict resolution and negotiation from the CRN in Australia.  

All these new skills helped me to better negotiate with authorities and specialists. I was now able to convince these people to have the diagnosis of my daughter reevaluated and changed. She was now seen as a spastic child of average intelligence.  

I also made progress in creating a space for us in society. After eight years without a proper place to live we finally found a wonderful flat. My economical situation improved and I was able to escape social security. I managed to take care of my daughter, take care of my business and make relative good results in my university studies. All in all, I succeeded to turn large parts of our breakdowns to breakthroughs. Sometimes I took a deep breath and saw that the Spirit held it’s loving hand over our lives. It felt like the angels were always there supporting us.

 In spite of that I was never satisfied. I was always worried for my daughter’s future because she was unable to talk. And her aphasia made it difficult for her to understand mouth language. We were both miserable from not being able to communicate.

 When Dagmar was three years old I accidentally discovered that it was easy for her to comprehend Danish sign language. I decided then that her natural language consequently had to be the language of the deaf. It took 12 years of desperate and fatiguing effort to convince authorities and specialists about this simple fact. During this period we cried a lot. Everyday in fact. The pain of not being able to communicate is intense. We could feel the bodies of each other so we became an extremely close unit communicating through feelings and body language. Bur my bright daughter needed more than that. For long periods I feared that she would withdraw into insanity.  

Finally I won the battle. Dagmar was 12 years old and accepted at a school for the deaf. In a few years she changed from an angry and violent girl into a rational and articulated young woman.  

Now

Today Dagmar has her own apartment in a suburb. She has the cultural centre for the deaf as a neighbour. Across the street, the church holds services in Danish sign language. Many people with different disabilities live in the area so Dagmar is no longer different from others. She is planning her everyday life together with her helpers. She bought a small Shetlands Sheepdog. His name is translated into English, NewWolf. He is being trained in sign language as a service dog for the disabled. Dagmar works everyday in a protected workshop. She has friends in the deaf world. When I left her in the new flat I had a strong feeling, that she finally had come home.  

She has the home I never was able to create for her. We never met a man who was able to be a father and a husband. To be a part of our lives he would have to engage himself in ”Project Disabled with Fun, Joy and Dignity”. That was too big a task and I forgive that. So the price I had to pay to help my daughter was husband, children, family and career. Often I asked myself if this project was worth this high price. And every time, I choose my daughter.

 Maybe Dagmar was not a wanted child from the beginning. But during the years I wanted her more and more. Holding her life in my hands I have received learning  about the deeper meaning of life. That education I could not have received anywhere else. I have learned to understand a deeper meaning of love, ethics, morality, diligence, helpfulness, generosity, patience, loyalty, discriminating awareness and wisdom. I did not bring up my daughter. It was she who brought up me. She is deeply wanted and beloved.  

I have gained insight in the conditions of life of disabled people. I have become bilingual and feel like a part of the culture of the deaf. And when I see young spastic women in the street I recognize their movements and facial expressions in my heart. In a way I see them as my daughters. According to WHO, between 15 and 20 % of world population are disabled. On this planet lives about 6 million deaf people. And about 15 million have brain damage. Instead of having my own children I sometimes feel that all these people have become my family. Wishes for their prosperity fills my heart. May this story of my daughter stream out like a blessing to all these people and their families. May the understanding that every person is a valuable resource no matter how this person is built become common knowledge on this planet. Thank you for letting me tell you our story.

I would like to introduce myself. My son, XXXXXXX, now 16 months suffered a reaction to his first round of vaccinations. He screamed pretty much all night the night of his shots, developed a rash, and then severe reflux, eczema, severe food allergies, and eventually autistic symptoms. Through much research I have made some incredible changes to our diet (we now eat only 11 foods) and his autistic symptoms are almost completely gone. I know in my heart (and our new DO confirms) that all of this is a direct result of his first vaccinations.  He dropped from the 95th percentile to below the 5th percentile (off the charts)  in less than 6 months. He went from a happy, healthy baby that slept through the night and was growing well, and was already saying mama, dada, baba to a baby that slept only 2 hours/24, screamed frequently, had only 3 BMs in 3 months, and stopped verbalizing completely for 8 months. XXXXXX'X reflux became so bad he would aspirate and stopped breathing on several occasions. I spent months with him "sleeping" on me sitting up all night long. We slept two hours a night for months on end. All of last year is a big blur to me. Before our wheat, gluten, casein, soy, and lots of other food free diet, he would not engage people, and would bang his head repeatedly on anything he could, among other things.

 Eight weeks into our elimination diet he became a very happy baby, says one word (hi), smiles a lot, engages people, is very huggable and lovey, has gained 4 pounds - back up to the 10th%, and is doing great! We still have some residual head banging and must eat the restricted diet (we because I am still nursing him) and if we have an exposure to a 'bad' food it is bad.

 My daughter, now 5, developed the measles after her MMR and has some pretty intense sensory integration issues, I now believe also a result of her shots.  And lastly, the same thing that happened to XXXXXX and my daughter, happened to me... when I was in college, I had to be revaccinated with the MMR (1989) and I developed the measles and the mumps. I then became allergic to everything, all makeup, hairspray, environmental, cats, dogs, many, many foods. I also have had chronic health issues, fatigue, etc. ever since.  I only now made the connection to the vaccine after it happened to my son.   My son's first doctor refused to believe any of XXXXX's problems were connected to the vaccines and tried to coerce us into giving XXXXXX further shots. I knew in my heart all of XXXXXX's problems came from the vaccines since he was such a healthy, happy baby beforehand. In addition, since my brother also lost his hearing as a child from the MMR, I made the decision to not give my children any further vaccines. We found a new doctor who supports us in our decision. Boy am I glad I did. Since then I have spent hundreds of hours researching and know my husband and I have made the right decision. I am also now learning more about how my daughter's sensory integration dysfunction may also be a result of her vaccines.  So in any event, that's my long, long story. I am hoping to find some information and make some connections to other parents that have children with similar issues due to vaccines as my son in the hope that we can find some further answers and maybe eliminate some of his food allergies, and arrest further autistic symptoms. XXXXXX is still on Pepcid for his severe reflux and I would like to try a homeopathic doctor to see if we can't make further progress.  I am so looking forward to learning from everyone, reviewing the archives, and making connections.

 

Please allow me a few moments of your time to tell you about my daughter Bailey. She is such a beautiful, bright and special little girl. She is also so very frustrated at not being able to do the things she used to do. Bailey is a victim of vaccine related autism. She could once eat everything she wanted to and played with her cousins at the playground. She walked around the farm and helped me feed the animals. She was speaking 14 words and putting two together. She used to call me Mama. I've not witnessed her open beauty in so very long. She keeps it all inside now, tucked away in a little box. Sometimes she let's a little bit of what she keeps inside slip out and when she does her face lights up so bright, so filled with love and laughter and look! look! I did it! I did it!
 
My daughter instead of going to the park everyday after school, goes to a Dr to get treatments for her allergies to nearly everything as well as treatments for her immune system. I've had to stop working because she is not well enough to be in school regularly. No employer will make provisions for a mother who comes and goes more then she comes. My husband, bless him, works day and night, unable to spend those special moments with his sweet "peanut" to make ends meet. So she can go to the Dr, who is kind enough to lower the treatment costs. My daughter is on a slow road to recovery and the road has it's bumps but she is getting there. I noticed symptoms right after Bailey got the first vaccine in the hospital Hepatitis B... she wouldn't nurse. then she turned jaundice and it was said she had "breast-feeding" jaundice. I now know this wasn't breast-feeding jaundice. It was because she was given a vaccine that wasn't necessary at too early an age when her liver wasn't even fully developed yet. Every vaccine thereafter would causes her to regress for a period of about a week or two. After that period she would come back again and was completely normal. I informed the Dr of her reactions. Her reply to me was I am a new mother and am being overly paranoid. My story is not the only story like this. Nearly all the mothers I've spoken to and there are hundreds of them have been through the same ordeal.
Kassandra L Standley
 

We wanted to update everyone on Brendan.  Though his progress, to a casual observer would seem minute, we are very encouraged by the progress we have seen and pray that it will continue.  He has said a few words, random