states on the "fact sheet" given to me by my pediatrician, 6 out of 10,000
Children will seize from their vaccinations. According to the government
this is an acceptable amount. On this page, I would like to introduce them
beautiful son, Ryan, was born on June 1, 1993. He was 20 inches long and
weighed 7 lbs., 2 oz. Right from the beginning, Ryan was extremely fussy.
He didn't sleep...at all. The hospital Ryan was born in advocated
'rooming in' with your baby, but with Ryan, they made an exception. They
knew I needed my rest and insisted that I not have Ryan in the room with
me. I tried rooming-in with Ryan one of the two nights I was in the
hospital, but he just cried and cried, so they took him away. Even then,
I started wondering if something was wrong. He just wouldn't stop crying.
I'm Rh-negative...and I'd had one shot of Rho-Gam while Ryan was still in
utero and one shot after the birth. I'd also had a minor cat scratch
while playing with my pet cat, and a nurse decided that I should 'play it
on the safe side' and vaccinated me with a Tetanus booster. Little did I
know that these two shots would cost our son dearly.
We brought Ryan home after two nights in the hospital. He wouldn't sleep
unless we held him. He also cried horribly during his feedings. I had no
breast milk and thus had to use an infant formula. As soon as I would
start feeding Ryan, he would cry and arch his back. It was horrible. He
was so hungry but yet he seemed so uncomfortable as he fed. After I
called my mother and told her what was going on with Ryan, she explained
my sister had the same thing happen to her children as well. She found
out her children had severe milk allergies and switched their formulas to
a soy milk based formula. We switched Ryan to a soy based formula and it
worked. No more crying during his feedings...at least we had that problem
Ryan also ran a low-grade fever his first week of life. Our pediatricians
could find no reason as to why Ryan was running a fever. Luckily, the
fever dissipated after one week, but we always wondered what caused it. I
had no way of knowing he was then reacting to his first Hepatitis B
vaccine, which was administered to him at 12 hours of age.
Ryan seemed to be progressing well. We took him for his first well-baby
check-up. He had his first round of shots. I was horrified to see Ryan
immediately fall into a very deep sleep right after his round of shots.
He was sleeping before I left the pediatrician's office and proceeded to
sleep for the next day and a half. I couldn't awaken him for a feeding,
nor for a diaper change. This somnolence bothered me...after all, this
was an infant that, by nature, didn't sleep much, and yet I now had an
infant that I couldn't awaken for over a day. I was terrified something
was really wrong but yet, our pediatrician told me this was a normal
reaction to his vaccines and pooh-poohed my motherly instincts.
Ryan went in for his two month checkup. Another round of shots with the
same results...complete somnolence, only for a longer length of time. He
was also extremely fussy and wouldn't eat much. Finally, he seemed to
perk up and all was well, until the fourth month check-up. Another round
of shots (the whole cell Pertussis component of the dpt vaccine was still
being used at this time), with the same exact results...complete
somnolence. Ryan was, again, passed out in my arms before I exited the
Within 12 hours of Ryan's vaccines, he awakened from complete somnalence
to a high-pitched scream. I will never, ever forget that. Nothing could
console him. My husband paced with him, back and forth, nothing comforted
Ryan. He took his little fists and banged them into his forehead. He
lurched forward in my husband's arms and banged his little head on Jeff's
chest...it was apparent to both my husband and I that Ryan had one
terrific headache. I called our pediatrician's office in an absolute
state of panic. He asked that I hold out the phone so that he could
listen to Ryan. I did so...and when I got back on the phone, the
pediatrician was extremely quiet. He asked that I give Ryan more Tylenol
and if Ryan didn't stop screaming in 15 minutes, to bring him into the
office. Thankfully, Ryan quieted down.
I knew as a mother that SOMETHING was wrong with our son...and something
was dreadfully wrong with him every time we had him vaccinated. He would
seem to recover after each episode, but then the next round of shots, the
somnolence would start all over again, only now he was experiencing
something far worse.
We started digging...we researched material at the medical library and at
my husband's law firm. We read and read anything we could get our hands
on. Then, by chance, I heard about Barbara Loe Fisher's book, "DPT - A
Shot In The Dark." When I sat down and started reading this book, I
cried. Ryan was in that book! All of his reactions...everything. The milk
allergies, the somnolence, the high-pitched screaming. It was all in
there. My God, I thought...what have we done to our son? I'd been 35
years old when I had Ryan. I wanted this baby more than anything else in
the world. I was SO CAREFUL before I even became pregnant. I'd had a
complete physical, I was in great shape. I started taking prenatal
tablets before I conceived...I did everything I was supposed to do. I
wanted to have a healthy baby.
After our son was born, I did everything my pediatricians told me to do.
But yet, our son seemed so sickly. He was always sick after he had his
round of vaccines. I had already been warned about vaccines from a friend
of mine. But this was when I was still single. By the time I'd met my
husband and became pregnant, I was too swayed by the medical
establishment that vaccines were THE best way to prevent disease...little
did I know what they would do to our son.
We decided to quit vaccinating Ryan at the age of six months. The
pediatrician fully acknowledged that Ryan's last reaction was a severe
reaction to a vaccine. He determined that Ryan's reaction was to the
pertussis component of the dpt vaccine and wouldn't allow Ryan to have
any more dpt shots. When I asked him how he KNEW that it was the
pertussis that Ryan had reacted to, he replied that this was the more
'reactive' of the components in any of the vaccines Ryan had had. But I
was still uneasy...and I STILL allowed this pediatrician to give Ryan one
more shot...a DT shot. Ryan didn't experience the high-pitched screaming,
but the somnolence reared its ugly head all over again.
After I read "DPT - A Shot In The Dark," I knew in my heart that Ryan was
reacting to each and every vaccine he'd been given. In fact, the more I
researched, the more I realized, with absolute dread and horror, that
Ryan had already been exposed to vaccines while in utero and was
subjected to more vaccines before he was even 24 hours old. My poor baby
was reacting to the vaccines he'd been bombarded with and for some
reason, he wasn't able to tolerate them. I felt terrible, terrible guilt
over what had happened to our son. I struggled with this guilt for many
years to come.
Ryan is now, thankfully, a healthy, happy 11 year old boy. He has severe
learning disorder issues and is developmentally delayed in some areas,
but we are starting to see some improvement. He's under the care of a
homeopathic physician as well as a mainstream pediatrician, who, by the
way, fully endorses our decision to not vaccinate Ryan any further.
We share Ryan's story in the hopes that this won't happen to anyone
else's child. It could have been worse...our son could have died. That
may have been the outcome, if I hadn't listened to my instincts.
miss this site.
|Hello Mrs. Callahan. I just became aware of your
website and I wanted to tell you thank you for putting out the truth and
hidden dangers of vaccines that so many other people seem to be " in
denial " over what is happening with vaccines and our children being
harmed by them. I wanted to tell you about my 8 year old son, Maurice,
who is now permanently disabled from taking the Flu Shot here in San
Antonio, TX. He can't talk anymore, he now has epilepsy, I have to
puree his food in a blender before feeding it to him because he can't
chew anymore, he is now in pull-ups and he has other numerous problems
as well now such as not being able to control his emotions anymore and
how he no longer can blow his nose, whistle, or perform any activities
of daily care for himself. He is walking again and he does understand
everything that you say to him. He was on Life Support 40 days and
nights after the Flu Shot made his brain swell. He had to undergo a
brain biopsy and have a shunt placed in his brain to drain fluid. The
doctors kept telling me he would never survive but I knew it was in Gods
hands. I am a single mom with 4 children and we live with my dad. I just
want to get his story out to as many people as possible so they can make
an informed decision on whether to give their child the Flu Shot or not.
I have a newspaper article that was wrote on his story , pictures of his
rehabilitation and a lot of medical records as well. I wake up every
morning wondering if I will ever hear him talk to me again and I just
cherish every second I have with him and my other children. Thanks for
taking the time to read this.
This picture is Maurice before the
Hello and thank you for reading my story
about my precious son XXXX who was born on 8/11/99, which happened to be
very close to the same time Smith Kline Pharma sent a letter to the CDC
telling them they were ready to go with mercury free infant vaccines.
He was a beautiful baby boy that was very content with life. People would
comment about how laid back and happy he was. Even strangers would comment
on how alert XXXX was. Everyone thought he was an easy baby to care for
because of his sweet nature.
He seemed to always get sick after the shots he received at the well baby
visits. The doctor told me that this was normal. I trusted her.
When XXXX was 15 months old his life changed forever. Ten days after getting
his Hib (25 mcg of Mercury) and MMR he was never happy after that. Nothing
his family did for him would consol him. He cried for several weeks after
these shots. The doctor told me that sometimes" it just does that to boys"
and noted in his chart “possible reaction to MMR and Hib”.
XXXX ‘s health continued to go down hill day after day. He suffered from
stomach aches all the time, ear and sinus infections for two years. He was
on antibiotics for two years straight because of sinus infection. We
realized that his behavioral symptoms were not normal even for a child who
did not feel well. We gradually realized that XXXX was suffering beyond what
After XXXX’s brother XXX was born we realized that XXXX had to do
everything in “twos”. He had to give his brother 2, 4 or 6 kisses…not 1, 3
or 5. He had to have two forks, two drinks, etc for meal time. He was very
rigid and often times would get”stuck” in his mind.
With the help of a dear friend, we finally obtain advice of a DAN! Doctor
and realized that XXX probably has mercury poisoning.
He will soon begin TD-DMSA treatment for toxic heavy metals. We have failed
to get rid of his parasites. Last month there was a claim filed for XXXX in
Vaccine Court in Washington, D.C.
XXXX is on the long road to recovery. Our family will stop at nothing to get
our son the treatment that he needs no matter the monetary costs.
Last week his pediatrician sent me a certified letter stating that she will
no longer treat him because his parents refuse to give him another MMR and
seven other vaccines, some of which contain mercury. Her policy is more
important than my children’s medical history and health.
God has blessed us with another son and we are protecting him from mercury
poisoning. He is in perfect health had has never been sick... He celebrated
his 1st birthday on May 16, 2006. We know that what XXXX has been through
has helped his brother because we now have awareness on this issue. We pray
that XXXX has not suffered in vane and that his suffering will help prevent
other children from suffering. Our family strongly feels that God will bring
good from XXXX’s Story. We also pray for God’s people to join us in the
battle to protect our children from poison.
I have a beautiful 3 year old Daughter, She had her Hep b
at birth and then developed a
fever on the day We took her for Her two month shots so We put them off.
Upon our return to the health dept she was injected 4 times, Two shots in
each leg, She reacted almost immediately with a high fever, shakes and
becoming listless. When We called the health dept. and her pediatrician They
told us that she would be fine, We realized that We would never allow Them
to do another "double" immunization again. The next round of shots were the
"normal" amount of shots but she again reacted with a fever.
We again called the health dept and pediatrician and were told Tylenol The
last set of immunizations We gave her were at 12 months, after the shots She
again reacted like she had when she had received the huge dose She had a 104
temp screamed through the night and the next two days, We called the
pediatrician and scheduled an appointment, She decided that all further
immunizations should be delayed until our Daughter was 5 years old, We were
2 months later at a routine well baby check up our pediatrician warned us
that the flu was expected to be deadly that year and that We needed to get
our Daughter a flu shot, So We did what We thought all "good" parents do, We
held down our Daughter for that last blow.
Within 48 hours our typically developing Daughter who was speaking and
engaging and delightful deteriorated in front of our eyes, We knew there was
something severely wrong but when We went to the Pediatrician and were
frantic and saying She does not talk anymore, She does not
hear us anymore, she stares off into nothingness for hours, They said that
toddlers typically temporarily give up skills to gain other skills. We knew
this was not what was going on but we took the referral to the audiologist
After a few more frantic trips to this pediatrician along with a normal
hearing test, I was told by the pediatrician that she felt that I wanted
something to be wrong with My Daughter, that immunizations do not cause the
symptoms I was stating...... We have since switched pediatricians and have
been on a frantic search for help for our Daughter, We will be seeing Dr.
Demio in Cleveland Ohio this coming Wednesday and are hoping that chelation
may be the key.
I do not know how the vaccine theory will play out, I obviously have reasons
to believe that it will in the end be proven to be a huge factor. I lay
awake at night and stare at My Daughter sleeping and wonder "where will she
be in 20 years" Will she be happy?, Will she live independently? and I am
angry that We live in America and that She was not protected now if I lived
in some third world country maybe "probably not" I could excuse the fact
that My country did not have the monies to manufacture a vaccine for the
greater good without putting a known nuerotoxin into it that might affect a
portion of the children, but AMERICA?
But where were My Daughters rights on the day that She received all of those
shots at once? The nurse acted as though it were routine, They said nothing
about mercury. I always related autism to rainman, I had a pretty much
perfect life , the "American dream" some might say. Now I have the life of
someone who tries to figure out how I can swing the mortgage and groceries
as well as mounting medical bills ($80,000) last year alone.
Last year (2007), I was suffering from severe
preeclampsia and delivered my baby via c-section 6 weeks early. I was
feeling wonderful two days after delivery and was ready to be discharged. A
doctor entered my room and informed me that I needed a rubella vaccine.
Within one hour after receiving it, I began to feel funny. I still left the
hospital with the intention of driving an hour to my home to pack a bag and
return to be with my infant. I never made it back to this same hospital for
another 4 days. I had suffered from a relapse with my severe preeclampsia
and was rushed to the nearest hospital less than 24 hours later with blood
pressure of 182/128 and severely swollen with fluid (to the point that I was
unrecognizable). Deep down I knew that the vaccine was to blame, but I
bought the theory that relapses occur within a few days after delivery due
to hormonal changes when your milk comes in (a few doctors told me this).
It is standard practice now for premature infants to be
screened for any possible delays. My baby was screened just prior to his 2
mo. vaccines (he did not receive the Hep B at birth). Easter Seals was
amazed by how far advanced he was during his screening. While his corrected
age was only 2 weeks, he was holding his bottle on numerous occasions (among
other things). In many areas, he was accomplishing tasks equivalent to that
of a 6 mo. old. Shortly after this screening, my infant suffered from
high-pitched screaming and a low-grade fever from his 2 & 4 mo. vaccines
over the course of 3 days. He also suffered from congestion daily for
several months following his 2 mo. vaccines (it would clear later each
day). He then went on to have convulsions accompanied with a low-grade
fever following his 6 mo. vaccines. I noticed that after he received his 2
mo. vaccines, he no longer held his bottle. Later on he began showing delays
in his motor skills (holding his head, crawling, sitting, etc) and did not
even start babbling until 10 ½ months old. Despite my fears, his
pediatrician was not even concerned. She even went as far as to tell me
that she sees many infants (especially premature ones) “regress” in
milestones! My son still hasn’t held his bottle in over 11 months either.
I still had him reassessed and although he has “caught up” in many areas in
such a short time, the true extent of his neurological injuries (if any)
will not be evident until he is in school. By then, the statue of
limitations will elapse. During this ordeal I also began to notice that I
was having problems with my hearing (partial hearing loss). Some alarming
facts surrounding my personal ordeal are as follows:
1. I never should have received this rubella vaccine
while suffering from severe preeclampsia. Informed consent was not
practiced. I was not advised that the virus may pass to my infant while
breastfeeding (I was encouraged to breastfeed), there is a chance of
catching a blood-born virus through the vaccine itself, and I was also not
told to avoid pregnancy for at least 3 months. The doctor also did not take
into account that I just received a large dose of steroids to boost my
infant’s premature lungs. The vaccine literature also states that it may
not be effective if patient is administered a blood transfusion. What if I
went on to develop HELLP syndrome and needed a blood transfusion? These are
all Warnings, Precautions, and Contraindications with Merck’s Meruvaxx II
vaccine. This vaccine is now given to every new mother. My vaccine
information was never recorded by this medical teaching facility
(Dartmouth-Hitchcock aka Mary Hitchcock Memorial Hospital in Lebanon, NH).
When I called to obtain the lot# and manufacturer, I was simply told that
many patients’ vaccines were never recorded during this time-frame due to
“system changes”. I do have an itemized list of hospital charges showing
the vaccine administration date and a copy of the doctor’s order to
administer it. I have yet to find a government or state agency that will
hold this hospital accountable either. This has been a law since 1986 to
record this information?
2. The day that my son received his 2 mo. vaccines,
his doctor simply told me that many babies tend to tolerate the vaccines
better with age. I now see why – one size fits all dosage for every
vaccine. She went on to say that he may be “a little fussy” – nothing
more. If I do have any concerns, please call her office though. I was also
given a “nice booklet” regarding how important vaccines are (written by the
CDC). Once again, informed consent was not practiced.
3. Despite my panicked phone call after my baby’s 2
mo. vaccines, the call was never recorded by the nurse. I was simply told
over the phone that he must be crying continuously for 3 hours or
more or be suffering from a high fever for there to be cause for concern.
(I did explain that he was screaming, not crying for well over 3 hours off
and on over the course of 3 days). I was also told that his chest must
“sink in” while breathing in order for there to be a concern with his
4. Despite my panicked phone call after my baby’s 4
mo. vaccines, my fears were dismissed again. This call was logged by the
nurse and read “child is very fussy” – nothing more.
5. After his reaction to his 6 mo. vaccines, I
pulled out the CDC’s literature (booklet given to me by my pediatrician).
His convulsions are not considered severe according to the CDC unless there
is a high fever also (febrile seizure). Even then, while it may appear
alarming, the child is hardly ever “harmed” by it.
6. I did file a complaint against the second nurse
with the State of NH Board of Nursing citing that she was placing many
babies in harm’s way with her lack of knowledge regarding adverse
reactions. She never informed the doctor of what transpired either. When
the doctor learned of his reactions, I was simply told that his “risks”
outweigh his benefits at this time. I never could report the first nurse
because she never even recorded the phone call!
7. I did file a complaint with the State of NH Board
of Medicine regarding my rubella vaccine. A complaint was filed against the
doctor who ordered the vaccine and another one against the other doctor who
administered it. I cited that informed consent was not practiced, the
vaccine information was not recorded, and that neither doctor read the
vaccine literature supplied by the maker of the vaccine.
8. I did file a complaint with the Joint Commission
regarding Dartmouth’s blatant disregard for the law by lack of recording
vaccine information. They have acknowledged receipt, but have not returned
9. I did inform the major newspapers in my state
(rubella vaccine incident). I cited the hospital, date that I was there and
the fact that many patients’ vaccines were not recorded. I also stated
that this information should be made public in the event that someone else
has an adverse reaction that cannot be reported due to this hospital’s
negligence. The news agencies refuse to publish this information
10. I did file 3 separate Adverse Reaction Reports
with VAERS for my infant
11. I have contacted a vaccine-injury related
attorney regarding my hearing loss. Unfortunately, I do not have a case if
I did not have a comprehensive hearing exam prior to this vaccine (unless
administration of this vaccine resulted in total deafness). Why would I have
a hearing exam prior to this vaccine if my hearing was perfect?
12. I have also contacted the Governor of NH, my
Congresswoman and the Immunization Program Manager for Health & Human
Services. Nobody can tell me who will hold this hospital responsible for
their actions. Nobody cares.
Now, I will tell you the story of my 14 yr old. I
have referred him 5x for Special Education (IEP) over the years through all
different schools in NC, CA, and NH. He cannot add, subtract, multiply,
divide, calculate simple fractions, or comprehend much of what he reads.
Yet, all five times he tested “average or below” average in the Special
Education screening process? One cannot imagine how hard it is for a child
to qualify for an IEP. I was told repeatedly that he is just lazy and
unmotivated. Within the past year, I have learned that he is suffering from
ADHD-Inattentive type, a Visual Processing Disorder, and a Math Disability.
Despite the fact that he was evaluated by a neuropsychologist last year, the
school dismissed the findings and still found him ineligible. Had I not
hired an Advocate to fight for placement this year, he would not have
qualified (for a 5th time) because of his test results. I have
since learned that Vision Damage/Vision Problems are actually listed as an
adverse reaction to many vaccines. ADHD runs on both sides of the family
too. I have recently been made aware of his “greater” risk factor for ADHD
if vaccinated too. Based on his “within average range” test scores tells me
just how alarming this national problem really is because they were
comparing his scores to others his age. There isn’t a problem? Hello?
Looking back at his baby book, he too, was congested daily for several
months following his 4 mo. vaccines. I now know that both of my babies were
exposed to large quantities of formaldehyde in their vaccines. I have also
read of the CDC’s actions recently regarding formaldehyde in the FEMA
trailers. They demoted their own expert when he concluded that it was
toxic. The EPA is now considering it a possible carcinogen. Every
vaccine on the market today has the following disclaimer:
Carcinogenesis, Mutagenesis, and Impairment of Fertility: No studies have
been done. Yet, we are told that they are quite safe? How do they know
if no studies have been done in these areas?
http://vaers.hhs.gov/pdf/PackageInserts.pdf (to view all vaccines)
http://us.gsk.com/products/assets/us_infanrix.pdf (page 7 to view ex.
of new warning)
1 in 4 children are currently diagnosed with Learning
Disabilities. After speaking with countless families in similar situations
such as mine, I am estimating that as much as 80% of our children are
learning disabled. Private assessment may cost thousands (usually not
covered by insurance), parents may need to hire an advocate (mine charges
$75.00 per hour), and may even need an attorney to fight the school system.
Litigation may cost up to $100,000. I have also learned that the SATs have
repeatedly been “dumbed down” since the 1970’s to accommodate society too.
There were also concerns 14 years ago with developmental delays with my
son. Yet, his different pediatrician at a different practice also dismissed
my fears. In recent studies it was concluded that roughly 80% of
pediatricians do not recognize developmental delays unless they are severe.
The problems are not seen until the child enters school. The school system
then also “fails” our children by their overwhelming desire to further mask
this alarming problem.
(page 6 for common adverse reactions with Ears/Eyes – these can definitely
attribute to many learning disabilities to include the following: Dyslexia,
Visual Processing Disorders, Auditory Processing Disorders, Speech/Language
My brother was vaccinated against meningitis while he
was stationed in the Coast Guard. A few years later (2004), he contracted
viral meningitis. He then developed encephalitis as a secondary complication
(this is what the hospital told my family). He was hospitalized for three
months and wasn’t expected to live. His hospital bill totaled over 1
million dollars. Thankfully, due to alternative treatments administered, he
recovered. He did suffer from brain damage in the area of memory though.
His case was scrutinized by the Center for Infectious Disease Control.
After tracing his steps, there were no other reported cases that they were
aware of. We were simply told that he could have picked it up anywhere. I
now know that after exposure (such as live-virus vaccination), the virus can
lay dormant and later resurface. However, it also doesn’t take 5 spinal
taps to determine such a diagnosis or a brain biopsy either. My family was
lied to. They didn’t know quite what he had. They even called him a
“miracle” and wanted to perform a study on him because they couldn’t quite
figure out how he lived through it. It truly sickens me though that the CDC
and doctors tell patients that despite febrile seizures, there is no
permanent damage though. Many researchers believe that febrile seizures are
a “milder form” of encephalitis. My brother was instructed to return for a
comprehensive neurological exam to assess the damage to his brain after this
illness. Does any pediatrician do the same?
What is even more disturbing is just how ignorant
society can be. I recently spoke with a mother of a 7 year old brain
damaged child. When he was an infant, he contracted bacterial meningitis
from one of his two older vaccinated siblings. Who does this mother
blame? She blames an unvaccinated child who attended the same school as her
children because the doctors told her to. Apparently, this unvaccinated
child’s father was traveling to another country. He was vaccinated against
meningitis, “silently carried” the germ home to his unvaccinated daughter.
She then gave the germ to other classmates (who were vaccinated). They in
turn, “silently carried” it home to their new baby brother. What she
doesn’t realize is that her own children are to blame for this mess.
Furthermore, had this unvaccinated child been vaccinated, they never would
have known the source or even known what they were dealing with, and her
child’s treatment would have probably been delayed even further (possibly
Last month my infant (who is now 13 months old) was
scheduled for surgery for an undescended testicle (not uncommon with
premature infants). The night before his surgery I received a phone call
from the registration nurse while I was en route to the hospital (we were
staying over the night prior due to the long drive). I was asked if he was
exposed to chicken pox within the last 30 days. I did not have access to a
computer to view the vaccine literature, but I did state that he came in
close contact with his aunt 7 days prior who was vaccinated with the live
virus vaccine. She then checked with her nurse manager who told me that I
need not worry and to bring him in anyways. The next day, I was asked the
same question by the anesthesiologist. He too, did not see a problem. You
can imagine my guilt after we returned home and I read the vaccine
literature on the internet. I learned that his aunt is considered a “risk”
to all around her for up to 6 weeks. She is an extreme risk to people
suffering from compromised immune systems. My son was playing with an 18
mo. old suffering from cancer at the hospital. When I called the hospital
to inform them of their “lack of knowledge” amongst the staff, they were
quite upset that I brought him in for his surgery. They were angry with
me? By the way, his aunt works in the fast food industry handling food.
You cannot imagine the amount of customers that she handles on any given
day. Again, informed consent was not practiced.
Believe me, after everything that I have gone through,
this is one person who has done her homework. I have spent days, weeks,
even months researching every vaccine, every disease statistic reported from
the CDC over the years (before/after each vaccine was introduced), viewed
VAERS, etc. I am 100% convinced that vaccines are to blame for the majority
of society’s problems. My entire family is living proof that they do more
harm than good. Come to think of it, I honestly cannot find any true
benefit either when I am told that none of them are 100% guaranteed. Very
rarely were any of these diseases that we are vaccinating against ever
fatal. Vaccines are not responsible for eradication of disease. Yes, our
grandparents witnessed many deaths back in their day, but how often did they
bathe or even wash their hands for that matter? Didn’t many of them place
their infants in unsafe sleeping conditions (SIDS) too? I believe the
majority of SIDS cases are vaccine induced these days. Why did the CDC
only report 1,806 flu deaths in 2005 (the majority in the elderly)?
Yet, they tell the public there are 36,000 deaths annually? Lies, lies, lies
are exactly how every vaccine became mandated. It’s not too hard to find
the truth if you really want to find it. Shame on journalists for not doing
If we truly were at risk for massive outbreaks, we
would have seen it long ago in the adult population. Think of the millions
of adults whose vaccines have worn off long ago, millions of American people
that travel to foreign countries where many vaccines are not required to do
so, millions of unvaccinated illegal immigrants living in this country, and
we also have millions of legal immigrants that are not required to be
vaccinated prior to entering this country (my brother’s new wife informed me
of this because she is from Romania and her vaccines were optional unless
she sought citizenship). I believe that if we were to mandate vaccines
among the adult population, mass hysteria would ensue after countless
individuals realized all of the “risks” by experiencing them personally.
BABIES CANNOT TELL US THIS MUCH NEEDED INFORMATION THOUGH!
Why do Hannah Poling’s court documents remained sealed
despite the family’s request to make them public? WHO THE HECK DOES THE
JUSTICE DEPARTMENT THINK THEY ARE? Who stands to profit from the sale of
vaccines and the chronic diseases they cause? It is not just about
My name is Jennifer and I am the mother of 5 glorious children.
Alexander Sydney Rebecca
J.R. 9 years
Sydney 6 years
Kiera-Anne 5 years
Rebecca 2 years
JR was born August
9th 1992. In December 1992 we took JR in for his health check and shots.
Within several days of that shot he was deathly ill, vomiting and
diarrhea, so bad if he had not gained a pound in one day he would have to
be hospitalized. He gained the pound and within 24 hours he was
"twitching". I was at the pediatricians often due to his asthma. And
would mention at every visit he is still wheezing and still twitching. At
the time I was thinking it might be connected to the medicines for the
asthma. The Doctor said he was growing into his nervous system. This went
on until Feb 9th,1993. JR had a series of Complex partials. We were at
home with him and had no idea what was happening to him. He would look at
me, then his head would crane over to the right. Smile when he heard his
name and then cry when he could not move his head. The doctor said to
wait 30 minutes then call back. We waited 3 minutes. Of course when we
walked in to the doctors office JR was smiling and fine. So we got the oh,
first time parents. However in the doctors office he did it again and the
doctor saw it. I remember this day like it was yesterday. I said "There,
there that is it"; and the doctor arm stretched out behind him onto my arm
and softly touched it as he turned and said, "He is having a seizure"...Oh
my gosh I felt like I was hit by a freight train. How could this be
happening to my son. He then went onto explain that in hind sight all of
those twitches were seizures. .....sigh......sent us home with
Phenobarbital. All I knew is I wanted to do whatever it takes to stop
these things. The rest of that week was spent at the neurologist for an
EEG, and then an appt.....he told us he did not have epilepsy he had a
seizure disorder and he would be fine and would outgrow it. We did an MRI
and CT Scan and all was normal. He just had a horrendous EEG. During this
time everyone said oh he'll be fine, he'll out grow it , they are probably
wrong. I felt so invalidated. And so we went, we had second opinions and
such all agreeing with this drug therapy. We switched drugs many times
throughout his little life.
In late 1993, I found out that I was pregnant with Alexander. We did
genetic counseling and we were told that the odds of having another child
with epilepsy would be astronomical, so go ahead and have your family (now
we were going to have Alex, but I wanted to know as far as future kids and
what Alexander's risks were). All was clear. We preceded to have Alex,
Sydney and Kiera-Anne. They were all beautiful and healthy. Kiera-Anne was
8 weeks early, but she was fine, we came home the next day..all 5 pounds
of her. JR had drug changes, seizure changes and they began to get worse.
He was having one day a month where he was totally unconscious the entire
day. He was having about 30 seizures a day that we saw, however he was
also having absence seizures so I know we missed many. Now we are at
February 1997. And I see Jim and Nancy Abraham's talking about &";First Do
No Harm&"; I told my entire family to watch it, it was about a child with
epilepsy. My husband sat down and watched it the next evening ( he was at
work) at the end he said, so are you going to Baltimore? And I said just
wait, And our local news did a segment on Dr Sutherling and the Epilepsy
and Brain Mapping Program. I looked in our insurance book and there was
his name.......so I called the next day. JR started the Ketogenic diet 5
weeks later. Monday morning we started the diet. I will never forget
wheeling my son into the hospital the last week due to a horrible seizure,
and now walking into the hospital praying that this was the answer for my
son. Right away the seizures reduced. 5 in the first 5 weeks. Then off
all medicines within 5 months, never realized all the 5's. JR's little
light was so bright after the diet. That is when he became JR.,we used to
call him Jimmie, he chose JR. FAST FORWARD to August 31, 1997. The whole
family was napping and then I felt a nudging on my back, thought one of
the kids wanted me, I turned around and SYDNEY not JR ,SYDNEY was in a
grand mal seizure. Turned out to be a febrile seizure, his temp was 105.8.
He had no temp an hour earlier when I laid him down. So off to the
hospital we go cause it hadn't stopped. This was 2 weeks after his 2 year
old shots. They sent us home later..no meds......he had one more seizure 2
weeks later. Now it is October 1st 1997 a month later.......I get a call
from Jim, he broke his arm at work. And he is going to the hospital ,
While I am waiting for him to get back to work from the
hospital........Alexander had a seizure. yes ALEXANDER. I thought he was
ignoring me because he was in trouble, I had actually chased him around
the table and he went into this corner. He wouldn't look at me or answer
me. So I picked him up and as soon as I saw his eyes at my level right in
front of me, I recognized that look all too well. He was in the middle of
a seizure. I stood him up. One leg was limp one leg was stiff as a board.
so I laid him down, then he came out of it. I called and ordered EEG's on
both of them. Alex's was abnormal and Sydney's was normal . Alex had
seizures every couple of weeks. In March of 1998 we started him on the
diet since the seizures did not go away. He has never had a seizure again.
It is now August 29th 1998. We were told if Sydney went a year without
seizing we would be out of the woods....so to speak. Well, he seized that
day. And continued to seize several times daily. He was put on the diet
September 21, 1998. Kiera's 2nd Birthday. He had seizures only when sick.
NOW......it is December 1998. I find out I am pregnant with Rebecca. I
cried for days. What does this mean for this baby. If it is a boy is he
doomed to have seizures, since only our sons have been affected to date. .
Whew. we found out it is a girl...what??? there is a spot on her heart???
Okay she should be okay and we'll watch it. At 32 weeks I started
contracting...so on bed rest I go. after several times to the hospital to
stop labor, Rebecca was born at 37 weeks....5 pounds 4 ounces....and
beautiful and healthy. Rebecca was jaundiced after birth, significantly,
we were at the pediatricians daily for the first 4 weeks. She developed
asthma related symptoms (would not diagnose until she is two) when she was
4 months old. Now in April 2000 Alexander came off the diet. And is
doing beautiful . No seizures. No medicines and No diet and No delays. In
June of 2000, Rebecca started having seizures.2 months after her last
shots. 2 weeks before her first birthday. We watched her, not ready to
treat her. September 2000.....we are now homeschooling. Felt it was the
right thing to do for our family. In November Rebecca was placed on the
diet. Her seizures would not stop. April 2001, Sydney came off the diet.
No return of seizures. Not even when sick. And is doing very well..No
Delays. Rebecca has done beautifully. So on Sept 10, 2001, I go into the
doctors and say.....My dear dear JR. is still struggling with the diet.
Only seizes when he cheats which he unfortunately does often! We have had
a status event while on the diet and his seizures continue to change and
evolve every time he has a seizure. The doctor has agreed with me after 4
years that JR. probably falls somewhere on the Autistic spectrum. We have
not made that official diagnosis, however, I was just hoping there may be
some methods of teaching and such that might be used with autistic kids
that will help him. Not like I really need a title, I just wanted some
validation of what I was seeing and perhaps there might be some answers
out there I do not know. He has a lot of struggles, behaviorally and
developmentally. We work with him every single day using Brain Gym and
regimen. meaning routines and such. That is our story in a nutshell. I
must say that without the Ketogenic Diet I would have 4 kids who were
zombie out on drugs and seizing all day (based on Jar's history) and
that I think would be too much for me to handle, however, that is not our
life. And I am very thankful.
I weighed my son yesterday, he has
finally hit 20 pounds! This is a big milestone for us, as Noah will turn 3
on Feb 11th, he just turned 33 months Nov 11th. You see, at one time, Noah
was gaining steadily, about 1.5 to 2 pounds a month, until he hit 7.5
months. He weighed in at 14.5 pounds. Then he received his 3rd
round of vaccines, the 3rd DTP and the 1st hep B. Does it matter that my
oldest son received his first Hep B at the age of 12 years, and that my
younger son received his first He B at the age of 4 years? I don't know.
As you have found, doctors turn a deaf ear when anything negative is said
about vaccines. By the 3rd day after getting his shots, (after crying on and
off for two days) Noah began a slight whistle sounding wheeze. I took him
to the doctor, they weighed him, and he had lost a few ounces in just the 3
days that had passed. He didn't gain any more weight for several months,
just flat lined on the charts, when previously he was following the curve to
the T! He began to refuse all solids, when just a few weeks before, he was
trying everything offered, and liking most of it. Now he would only nurse,
nothing else. The pediatrician suggested I skip the morning feeding to try
and prompt him to eat. I suggested I didn't feel the nursing was the issue
here, he was refusing ALL food, and none of my other breastfed (3 of them)
have ever outright refused food, they always ate IN ADDITION to nursing,
eventually replacing the nursing with a regular diet. So now, 26 months
later, my son has only gained 5.5 pounds. He seems to be fine in every
other way, (once the respiratory problems resolved, after about
12months). When I realized that the only change in his environment had been
the vaccines, I sickly made the connection. I filed a report with VAERS,
and they continue to follow up to inquire if my son is still suffering
adverse events. It is a horrible thing to watch a child never grow out of
size 12 months, even as he approaches his 3rd birthday. I am
thankful that aside from his grossly stunted growth, that he seems to okay,
but how do you explain to anyone why your child is not growing? Why do all
the doctors refuse to listen when I tell them he was FINE BEFORE THE
VACCINES? I told our doctor no more shots until I can find out what caused
Noah's problems, since according to our doctor, although he has no idea what
happened to my son, he is sure that the vaccines had nothing to do with it.
Interesting. If he doesn't know what caused the problem, how can he
possibly rule out vaccines right off the bat? So, at 33 months, Noah has
had no further shots. In fact, after researching, I made the decision that
no vaccines will ever be administered to any of my children ever again. My
6 yr old didn't get the boosters required for kindergarten, it would be over
my dead body. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in your
struggle against the world when it comes to having a child damaged by the
very vaccines they claim are supposed to protect.
has a condition called Rett Syndrome. She is considered an atypical case,
because she was not afflicted as severely as a classic Rett case. I do
question the effects of shots however, just because, up until about her
third set of shots, she seemed like she was just going to be delayed. She
didn't talk, but she played, and she was trying to catch on to things, like
pretend play, babbling, etc. But as time went on, and that third set of
shots was given, she went into more of an autistic stage. This is very
typical for Rett girls to do, but how many are given the shots at this age?
I wonder, does it push some over the edge? My real frustration comes
however, from this hep. b shot that I was told she needed two years ago. I
was told it was harmless. The first one went ok, the second one sent her
into a grand mal seizure, within a half hour of returning home from the
doctor visit and we have never regained control. Katie is doing well for
having Rett Syndrome. Now, every visit we make to the ped, I am asked about
that third shot in the series, and I just tell them NO, sorry, second one
caused grand mals, next one could do worse, so NO THANKS.... I hate these
professionals telling us that things are harmless, and only go by the book,
rather than looking at the true stories from families. UGH. She has a lot of
skills, and has not been physically afflicted like so many of the classic
girls have been. Wendy, I hope this is enough background. Thank you for
letting me share.
Take care! Kandy
Sarah, who is 9, is epileptic.
daughter, Sarah, who is 9, is epileptic. She started having seizures when
she was six months (petit mal, then grand mal at seven months). I always
believed it was from her vaccinations, but the doctors would always say,
"Oh, we don't know that." Jerks.
I just recently found out she has long-term chronic Mercury poisoning from
her vaccinations. I did not want to vaccinate her any more, but was pushed
into it by a new pediatrician when she was five. Within two weeks she began
having seizures twenty four hour per day, a week at a time, recovering for
maybe a week, and then starting all over again. This went on for a year and
a half. She barely made it to school at all that year. Only in the last
two years has she not been having seizures (only when sick for a while, now
only when I tapered her seizure medicines too quickly). I have absolutely
refused to allow my children to be vaccinated since then, and I can honestly
say that they are only better because of my refusal.
There is no such thing as a safe vaccine. Period.
husband and I live in East Texas in a town about 125 miles NE of Houston. My
husband works for the Texas Forest Service and has been there for 23-24
years. I owned my own medical transcription business until my son became
sick and I had to shut it down in order to care for my child. When we
married we decided that we would wait 2 years before starting our family.
When I found out I was pregnant after 2 years of marriage we were so excited
and began reading everything about pregnancy. I read everything I could lay
my hands on regarding healthy eating, nutrition, and giving the baby the
best start in life that I possibly could. I gave up all chemicals in foods,
aspartame and saccharin, caffeine, etc. so that the baby would be getting
only the best source of nutrition. I read everything I could about each
stage of pregnancy and I exercised each day. I felt great and my blood work
was the best they had seen in a pregnancy in a long time. I then researched
methods of delivery and after participating in several classes and reading a
bunch of books, I decided that the best would be for me to go through labor
and delivery naturally. My husband and I had a private tutor who instructed
us on the Bradley Method of childbirth, which taught you how to breathe and
focus. I didn't want the epidural drugs in my son's bloodstream and thought
it would probably be uncomfortable for me but it would be better for him. I
had absolutely no complications during my pregnancy. When the day finally
arrived that my water spontaneously ruptured at 41 weeks, my experience with
labor began. I went through 19 hours of labor and the last couple of hours
were the most intense since they had to initiate Pitocin. Finally at 8:19 PM
on 07/31/97 my little son arrived into this world weighing 9 lbs and 7.6
oz. He was 21 inches long and let out a robust cry. There were no
complications during labor or delivery. He started to breastfeed within 10
minutes of birth and was 9/9 on the APGAR scale.
I researched and read everything I could lay my hands on while I was
pregnant so that I could make informed choices. The one thing that I was
never told about was the hepatitis B vaccine that my son would be given in
the hospital just before going home. If I had the opportunity to research
this vaccine prior to him getting it, he would have never received it.
He was given the federally recommended and state mandated hepatitis B
vaccine when he was 3 days old just before we left the hospital. This
vaccine was given without our consent or knowledge. Within 4 hours he began
screaming at the top of his lungs and we couldn't get him to stop. We called
the hospital nursery and they told us that he was probably just scared not
being in the hospital environment that he had become accustomed to in the
hospital (with the sound of incubators humming etc.). My little boy never
slept and screamed a high pitched blood curdling scream all his waking
He only slept for short periods (10-15 minutes) at a time and never slept
for more than 4 hours in a 24 hour period. We took him to the pediatrician
and we were told that it was colic and he would out grow this. Since this
was our first child, we didn't know what was normal and what wasn't. We
made many calls to the hospital staff during those early hours. Since the
pediatrician told us that this was colic and that he would outgrow it by
three months of age, we waited.
Jonathan continued screaming and we couldn't take him into public because we
couldn't control his screaming and certainly couldn't stop it once it
started. His screaming was so intense that his face would become blood red
and he had a look of "panic" on his face that I could do nothing to help. I
felt very helpless and felt that I was a bad mom, unable to console my own
child. He would wake up screaming even if he only slept for 10 minutes, in
fact his screaming would start before his eyes opened. He lost most of his
baby hair, it came out in clumps. We later found out that the jerking that
he was doing was infantile seizures and not gas pains. This type of seizure
is often misdiagnosed as gas.
He got his 2nd hep B shot and three others, one of which was the DTaP when
he was 2 months old and the screaming worsened. We recently found out that
his DTaP was a HOT LOT. A Hot Lot is a batch of vaccine that killed a bunch
of kids and injured a bunch of kids. His batch was one the Hottest Lots in
US History. He was horribly constipated too and we ended up in the
pediatrician's office several times with this so they could "stretch his
sphincter". He had problems having a BM and was in the pediatrician's office
at 8 days of age. From that point onward he had to have glycerin
suppositories and digital manipulation in order to eliminate.
We thought we were going to go nuts with the continual screaming because we
spent all our days and nights trying to console him and make him feel better
to no avail. We had to hire some help so that we could get some sleep, we
were so exhausted. This screaming literally went on for 18-20 hours a day.
When he was 4 months old he woke up after an unusually long sleep and I got
him out of bed to breastfeed him at about 9 am. I could not get him to
nurse. Every time I tried to nurse him, he started crying and rubbing his
little eye with his fist. He had always been a very good nurser and I
thought maybe he was teething and I gave him a little orajel on his gums.
This did not help his crying. I tried to give him a little taste of Tylenol,
sometimes a taste would distract his crying for a moment. This did not do
anything. I then called the pediatrician's office and requested that we come
in. I called about 9:30 am and said that we needed to come in "this
morning". I really thought it was an earache as I heard that most kids seem
to get them but I wanted him to be looked at. They told me to be there at
10:40 and the doctor would see Jonathan before lunch. While I was getting
Jonathan ready he threw up and was heaving. He had not eaten anything since
the night before. He became very pale. Our pediatrician was out of town and
we were seen by her partner (who had never laid eyes on my child). This
doctor actually saw Jonathan by 11:00 and did not like the way he looked. He
did some labs in his office, which were all negative. He sent us to the
local hospital for blood cultures and a chest x-ray which were both
negative. He asked us to return at 2:00 and he had a gut instinct that he
wanted to do a lumbar puncture. He explained to us that in med school they
told him that if he ever thought LP for one second, then DO IT. He said that
he wanted to do it. The LP revealed 3 vials of bloody fluid, just like a
blood draw and he told us that this should look like water. He sent us
immediately to the hospital for a CT scan of the head. The radiologist read
the CT as a mass in the brain that had hemorrhaged. (Later determined to be
a ruptured aneurysm within the next week). He was rushed off to ICU and air
transportation was arranged while he was intubated. My baby was on death's
door in a matter of moments.
He was life flighted by helicopter to Shreveport, Louisiana (Schumpert
Medical Center) and he died in the helicopter and was resuscitated and began
having seizures. Once he got to the PICU he died two more times and they
resuscitated him. They worked on him for over an hour and his brain went
without oxygen for a total of approximately 30 minutes. He was on total life
support in a coma and was given no chance for survival through the night.
They did a lot of testing to try and find the source of the bleed. He
eventually had an arteriogram which showed the images of the aneurysm. He
survived and 10 days later his aneurysm ruptured a 2nd time. They said that
there was 3 times as much blood this time and they didn't know how he
survived the first bleed. They gave him less than 24 hours to live this time
and said that his brain was already herniating. We were praying all the time
and believing for miracles. They had us planning his funeral.
He survived and we found that there was only 1 doctor in the country who
could deal with our situation in a child so young and he was in San
Francisco. One doctor in Shreveport (pediatric neurosurgeon) told us to just
let Jonathan die and that it would be wrong for us to do anything to save
his life. He said, "He is damaged goods, nothing but damaged goods and to do
anything about it is inappropriate" and then he went on to say "There are
things worse than death". We were not going to sit back and let our child
die once he had already survived what he had. We then went to California
where he was going to have embolization of the aneurysm with interventional
radiology. Nine doctors were in there with my son and it was going to take 8
hours (they had to do the procedure through an arteriogram in through a vein
at the groin, weaving a catheter up into the brain into a vessel the size of
4 hairs), but after only 2 hours the main doctor doing the procedure came
out and said, "Well, we're done. We can't explain it but the aneurysm is
gone". We said that we could explain it because we had been praying so
hard. All the other doctors came out scratching their heads saying that they
couldn't explain it either.
My son had to have a shunt emergently placed the very next day because his
intracranial pressure had become too high. His shunt then worked too good
and caused a bleed on the opposite hemisphere of his brain from where the
aneurysm had ruptured (subdural hematoma/effusion) which had to be drained
externally with a tube. He then had to have surgery to place his G-tube
because his stomach was anatomically behind his rib cage and couldn't be
placed endoscopically like most. He was diagnosed with cortical blindness,
severe reflux and high risk for aspiration pneumonia. He has severe global
developmental delay, has a mixture of hypotonia and does have some
spasticity. He is 24 hour care for 2 people at any given time.
Jonathan was recently diagnosed with the following as well: spastic
quadriparetic cerebral palsy with microcephaly, cortical blindness, and
marked dysphasia. He had global developmental delay secondary to hypoxic
ischemic encephalopathy as a result of spontaneous rupture of a left MCA
aneurysm. Intractable, symptomatic mixed seizure disorder secondary to
rupture of left MCA aneurysm. He appears to have infantile spasms, partial
seizures, myoclonic seizures, generalized tonic seizures and grand mal.
These are improved on the ketogenic diet.
We saw a physician in Houston who specialized in Hepatitis B adverse
reactions and he did a battery of tests. His name is Andrew Campbell, MD.
He told us that Jonathan definitely did have an adverse reaction to the hep
B vaccine. We had a SPECT scan by Richard Neubauer, MD in Ft. Lauderdale
who also stated that Jonathan had toxic anoxic encephalopathy directly
related to the hepatitis B vaccine and this was not the first time he had
seen it and unfortunately would not be the last time he would see it. We
were also told that Jonathan's intracranial pressure was so intense for such
a long period of time from his prolonged horrific screaming that the vessel
couldn't handle the pressure and ruptured. I was told that brain vessels are
the thinnest vessels and are not built to withstand intense and prolonged
My son is now 4 years old. He was in the hospital for a total of just over 4
months before we were able to bring him home. Hospital dates were 12/11/97
through 04/08/98. We initially went to Shreveport then we were transferred
to San Francisco and then back to Shreveport before coming home. We never
returned home during that entire four month hospital course. My husband and
I remained at Jonathan's side.
My son requires 24 hour nursing care, which is provided by myself (as I had
to quit my career), my husband (who has to work to support us), and a nurse.
We have no help on the weekends at all. We have no family close by and our
church family has stood behind us for a long time.
Jonathan has a compromised immune system and cannot be around other kids or
anyone that is sick. We are basically homebound. He was having 100-200 or
more seizures a day, every day. We started the ketogenic diet for seizures
and changed his medications and he now is having 30-90 or so a day now. He
is g-tube fed every four hours and because of his reflux he must be held
upright during feeding (which lasts for one hour) and for 1hour afterward to
prevent aspiration. With the ketogenic diet, because it is compromised of 90
percent fat, if even one teaspoon were to get into his lungs, it could be
deadly. He has medications that must be given throughout the day and must be
crushed and put into a syringe, then into his feeding tube. He cries a lot
and requires full attention because of his gagging. He stays very
constipated and the ketogenic diet makes this worse. He gets Milk of
Magnesia every day, and sometimes this doesn't help him. We end up having
to use BabyLax and Baby Fleets enemas. We must monitor his ketones,
seizures, urine output, and stool to ensure that everything is in balance.
If he has an imbalance in any of these areas, his seizures can increase in
frequency and intensity. He still does not sleep just a whole lot. Lack of
sleep can also increase his seizure frequency and intensity. He goes to bed
around 2 am each "night" and sleeps until 6:30 or 7 am. He will wake up
anywhere between 2-6 times each night. Sometimes he will go back to sleep
for a little while. He will usually take a 1 hour nap during the day and a
30 minute nap in the evening. Someone must be with him, holding him,
consoling him, feeding him,caring for him during all his waking hours. That
would be myself and his father. He must also sleep in an inclined position
in his hospital crib and we must position him and turn him each time he
In the past he had been sick with the virus that was around. He needed
breathing treatments every 3 hours around the clock. He literally did not
shut his eyes for 4 days and 4 nights. He had fever that lasted for 7 days.
We were bathing him with a cool cloth, he had no clothes on except his
diaper and we were monitoring his temperature to make sure that it didn't
continue to rise. My husband ended up sick and I had to be the nurse around
We do all that we physically can, but when we get sick from getting no
sleep, not eating right, and not taking care of ourselves...what will happen
to Jonathan? We don't want to get to that point.
My son was injured by the hepatitis B vaccination and it was a federally
recommended vaccine which was mandated by the State of Texas. Where is the
government now that we need help in dealing with the repercussions of this
vaccine injury? Even Dr. William Reynolds Archer, M.D., the former
Commissioner of Health for the State of Texas said that all Texas kids had
to have this vaccine, exempted his own children. When I called him and had
a conference call with him and his Assistant he confirmed that he indeed
exempted his own children because he was concerned with its safety. He said
his children had allergies and asthma and didn't want to give it to them. He
could write his own exemption since he is a physician, we couldn't do that.
My son was nearly
killed then rendered autistic because of this shot; it has triggered lupus
in me. We both focus on recovery and are doing very well. Waiting for the
government or our physicians to listen was a waste of time in our cases,
time we didn't have. I had to abandon, jettison our pediatric care
providers to find ways to address my son's injury because indeed, no doctor
would listen or believe that something had gone wrong. We've used many
aggressive tools since he was just a week old to rescue him, but one of the
key things I did was refuse further shots after he was 4 mos old. Thank
goodness I did. He is now 5 years old and doing great. There are many many
resources out there for recovery or better quality of life – if you don't
get them from your current providers, look elsewhere.
Even though I think it is a waste of time to pester politicians and
physicians with closed minds, I've done my share of that, and have testified
before my state legislature and before a Congressional hearing to get the
message across. Gradually it will happen, but many lives will be needlessly
lost or shattered before it does happen.
Since this vaccine triggers a cascade of events in many newborns, which
culminates in autism, the autism community has created some very effective
tools for recovery from vaccine injuries. The injury systemically injures
adults and kids just the same, but when it happens to newborns, they are
also robbed of typical development as a side effect. Though injured adults
on this list are developmentally in tact, the recovery tools used for
injured children may well apply anyway, and it might be worth a visit to
sites, which describe and offer these tools in detail.
Some 250 MDs (physicians) are on board with these tools around the world.
They are specific for addressing vaccine injury. I encourage everyone to
check it out. What's important is to have a provider experienced in treating
vaccine injury assess what it has done to you before you are treated. This
vaccine has 12.5 micrograms of Hg (mercury) per dose and the usual series
for adults is 3-4 shots. Though the shot is now made Hg free anyone
vaccinated up through 2000 probably got a mercury-containing version, since
those were not recalled. Mercury poisoning alone accounts for much of the
injury in some people; for others, it's the viral load and issues with
autoimmunity. You need to know what has happened to you in order to choose
successful treatment. Even simple diet measures can bring a lot of relief.
There are many many options, and they don't all have to break your bank
account or require invasive care. Check these sites below for treatment
tools and research that has pulled hundreds, maybe thousands of kids out of
a life sentence of autism, retardation, chronic allergies, or other
developmental disability. Hope this helps.
Read more of Ben’s
story at her website.
am Mom to a beautiful daughter, who I almost lost due to vaccines. When my
Child was 2 months old, I took her in for a well baby visit. I was wary of
vaccines since my pregnancy, having carefully researched the risks and
benefits, and I had decided, at first, to vaccinate my child as little as
possible. I stood there in the Pediatricians office and told Sophie's doctor
that I only wanted to have 1 vaccine for the day. I explained that I was in
no rush to flood her body with vaccines and I was concerned for her safety.
Her doctor suddenly got very nasty with me. "Well, the state of NJ has very
specific recommendations and rules for Vaccinations you know, this is here
to help her!"
I calmly told her that I only wanted 1
vaccine for the day or I would leave. "This is mandated by the state", she
snipped "If you don't have these shots, I am well within my rights to call
DYFS for medical neglect” I was terrified, I was a new Mom with a tiny baby.
Here I was being forced into shots and being threatened with Child
protective services. I asked what she would be given and the doctor said
"Not that much, we give this to all infants at this age." A nurse walked in
with 4 needles. Without a word she shot them into my child's legs. "WAIT
WAIT WAIT" I yelled as she just injected my daughter "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU
GIVE HER? CAN YOU WAIT A SECOND!" "Calm down", said the nurse "She just got
her DPT, Prevnar, Hib/HepB" I picked up my daughter, half naked and still
screaming and ran out. That afternoon, her health began to decline. She had
been refusing to eat, she could not focus her eyes or smile, her cooing
stopped. I figured that she was just all screamed out. That night I woke up
to the most horrific thing a mother can think of. My baby was choking and
gasping for air, she was bluish red, and a thick clear-ish phlegm kept
coming up out of her little throat.
I had no idea what to do...I kept patting her back and just praying and
crying while I held her. I called the doctor and explained what was
happening to her. A nurse practitioner got on the phone and told me "You are
just over reacting, she probably just got a cold suddenly and your being
I fumed and slammed down the phone. For weeks, Sophie lay in this semi-alert
stage. She didn't have the strength to feed properly, she wouldn't smile.
She couldn't focus her eyes, and did little more than squint her eyes in
pain and lay in that state for hours on end. This was not the child I knew.
At 2 months, before the shot, my daughter would smile and laugh, she could
bring her legs straight and try to stand on my lap when I held her. After
the shot, her legs had 2 hard baseball sized black and blue lumps. She could
barely move them. She would have these fits of choking for weeks.
I called up the doctor many times to report what was going on, they REFUSED
to see her saying that this was just her personality and I was over reacting
to "simple coughs". After 3 months of this horrible lifeless state, my
daughter would slowly regain more and more movement and consciousness. When
she finally smiled again, I promised myself and her that she would NEVER
endure that horrible pain again. The doctors’ office was refusing to report
her reaction to VAERS, or even to write it down in her chart!!!!! I was
furious, so I reported it myself. I showed up at that Pediatricians office
for her well baby visit, a few months later with my still recovering
daughter, the choking episodes, Thank God, has stopped. I had a mission now.
"She is now off her schedule for Vaccinations and needs to be caught up! Do
you know how many she's missed?" Said the pediatrician. "You hold on right
there, You almost KILLED my daughter with these shots." I went on to repeat
all she had been through and I was once again threatened with everything
from rare diseases to having Child Protective services called on me"
The doctor went on to say that she "MAY have been allergic to the Pertussis
Vaccine" and she wanted to just "try it again and we'll see what happens,
Just one more shot". I told her NEVER Again. I picked up my baby, and walked
out. I haven't gone back to that terrible office. I don't live in fear of
disease, I don't live in fear of CPS. I do live in fear of having to see my
daughter in that horrible state ever again. She is now, Thank God, a healthy
bright strong toddler. She does however, have some trouble drinking and
eating but she will be fine. Her Motor Skills are back and above normal now,
She can talk very well for her age, she can run, jump climb and flush her
toys down the toilet, like any normal toddler.
I believe that "Just one more shot" would
have killed her.
Tyler. His story is unfortunately just beginning.
He was a typical newborn until the day he got the Polio/Hib/HepB/D/P/T all
at once and all in one day. Poor Tyler started SCREAMING and SCREAMING, He
had a bluish grey color and had blood in his stools, which were now loose
and painful for him to pass. He was too weak to cry for a time and would
cry out in pain when you would move his little legs. He is now very small
and skinny and not gaining weight very fast.
The worst news
came last week at his "well" baby visit. Tyler may have some heart damage
and has to see a Pediatric Cardiologist on Feb 14th. We still do not know
what will happen to him. As of now, he continues to be miserable and sick
since that horrible day.
of Ryan and Stacy Blanco
My story seems as though I
am living this life over and over, like a deja vu'. I discovered so many
things along the way, that maybe I can share with you, some pitfalls, some
things to watch, and something to rejoice over. My son Ryan is now 20 years
old and is most medically impacted, with autism and a dual diagnosis of
epilepsy. The first signs of anything being wrong were things so obvious,
that I cannot even deny, nor my doctor (s) that there was an excruciating
entery into autism for him. He was a normal baby, normal apgars, a
beautiful blend of castillian spanish and irish. I remember distincfully, a
good friend and nursery nurse at the hospital who fought over who was going
to take him to mom. She seriously said there were fights who would. This
reflects upon the theory that many of our children enter with beautiful
faces, often a theory of those who have autism.
While carrying my son, I was
working full time, and I was very stressed out with a high stress job. I
would come home so tired, and wondered if it was good for me to do this to
the baby. Yet, I persevered, as long as I could. I was just married only 1
month before I became pregnant, woops. Before the pregnancy, I lost a lot
of weight, you know, the typical I want to look good in my wedding dress
sort of thing, and dang, I did look good LOL. Before we got our marriage
license, they took a titre check and noticed I did not seem to have adequate
MMR titres. So they gave me a quick shot and sent me on my way. Nothing to
fear, nothing to even have an inkling about, my life seemed on a new way, a
new life. During the pregnancy, I came down with a mild sore throat, and
sort of passed it off. Then at the same time, I worked near semiconductor
industries, and found some rather scary information about the well water in
the area....except, after the fact. I worked in silicon valley, in which
there is a possible cluster of autism, right around the time Ryan was born.
Well, anyway, I remember distinct fully closing a small office I was working
in at lunch time, and simply feeling so exhausted, I would lock the front
door, and go to sleep on the carpet in the back room for lunch time. I
didn't know what to make of it. The soar throat became worse, and I made an
appointment to the GYNO. He did a swab test and found I have MONO. That
was really scary. I looked at him and asked him, gee, won't this hurt the
baby? He said, I want you to quit work for a month, and seek bed rest, and
get off your feet. I was so sick for 2 weeks, that I thought I was going to
die. Fevers, trembling in my bed, and when my husband came home, caring for
the home and wishing and praying that nothing will harm this baby. He
offered prayers in our church, and we felt the Lord close to us during this
time. About 5 days short of the due date, Ryan James Blanco was born, with
no complications, and an apgar of 9.
He was a good eater, and
really, as a new mom, I had no complaints. I did however, notice that every
succeeding vaccine that he had, made him react even worse from the previous
(this is a hindsight sentence). The obvious line of give him Tylenol was
overheard, and I subjected my child to the worse cruel fate I could have
ever know. I noticed at 6 months a very distinct thought. Why is he not
sitting up? He did, but then when he did, he would fall to one side? Years
later, I found out this is a distinct sign of mercury poisoning from
childhood vaccines. He began to not sleep at night, even though words were
ever-present, like mama, dada, baba, ju ju, dogee, cat, and a couple of cute
sighs and coos and eye contact in between. I had really no suspicions.
Then it was the eating. I have an 8mm film of him, hanging over his chair,
begging him to eat, and in fear, I breast fed him to whazoo and back. He
was plump and happy. He walked around 13 months, and I did notice a slight
hand flap here or there, but just thought, oh, he is being cute and
excited. At around 14 months, I began to notice other slight things, but
nothing to worry my head over. I got pregnant again, another woops, and was
concerned, but was also ever-present with the fact, I had another baby on
Around 18 months, when he
had a DPT/Polio on his well baby, I again, poured down some Tylenol to
assure a better go through this time. Around that time, 20/20 news programs
were airing that P in DPT shots were of worry and interest. I remember
begging for more information on this, and asked my pediatrician if we
shouldn't just not give him P, rather a DT because of the information. He
brushed it all off as if it was never ever the case, or for people not like
me, and would be fine. Fine? 11 days after his DPT, he had a sudden
rushing temperature, stiff neck, and body, 105 temperature, screaming and
pitching for 24 hours, eyes rolling
and convulsions and every trick in the book saying, this child is majorally
reacting. We took him to the doctor after hours and he gave him
Phenobarbital. When I couldn't stand the way he looked anymore, even after
being sent home, I went into the ER room, and had them do some spinal taps
to make sure it was not meningitis. I have very distinct memories of being
in tepid baths with Ryan the whole night. One of the interns mentioned, I
am going to write down this is a vaccine reaction, but if I did that, I
would be putting myself in harms way, but this is undeniably a DPT
reaction. I was thankful for his bravery and perseverance. After we were
sent home and under consensus this must be a "viral illness", I held the
release paper in my hand and told myself, I need to put this away for safe
keeping. We had no son for a week. He lay in his bed listless and tired
and feverish. He seemed to pop out of it, but into something else.
appetite even grew more worse. I would take him on little walks with my
daughter and notice that he would do things over and over. Then when I took
him to church nursery, he would be off in a corner, and not paying
attention, and even staring out the window. I came to my pediatrician again
and mentioned how he couldn't even push the peddles on his tricycle and how
his speech was stagnant, and even sometimes silent, and sometimes there were
no words at all. He referred me to a speech pathologist, who mentioned to
me for the first time AUTISM. I didn't even know what the word meant. I
went to the library, pouring through books, and pouring plenty of tears. I
put him into the school early intervention programs, and from there on, Ryan
was either regressing, getting worse, or had splinter skills here or there.
We went to several neurologists, and had numerous tests done. Around 4
years of age, I noticed other things such as muscle wasting, even bouts of
what I call movement disorders, where he would get up in the morning and
have this twitching and writhing in his legs. The doctors still didn't know
what that was. We then took him to see Bryna Siegal at STanford Autism
Research Center. She diagnosed him with PDD-nos. At that time, and yes, I
was a busy mom, I had my fourth daughter on my lap as we were discussing the
diagnosis for Ryan. By then, I think my heart was a little hardened, and
or, I was in shock that this became my life. Four children under the age of
got the written report back for Ryan and noticed one line that shocked me.
"Stacy seems to have some movements that I recognize as the beginnings of
autism". Back then, we didn't have a whole lot to go on, a little Lovaas
here or there, a little first inklings of milk being bad for your autistic
child, and that was about it. No mention of vaccine connection. You see,
the next few kids, there were NO problems with the vaccines, and so, I
thought, gee, must have been a fluke? I did however, take out PERTUSSIS for
every child succeeding Ryan. I thought I had my bases covered...NOT. Sure
enough, the signs of autism surely and slowly crepped in, and on one
occassion, I remember my daughter stacy being quite ill after her MMR, and
within 2 weeks, was throwing up and or diarrheas from hell. I remember
going into the doctor and mentioning there was something strange about
this. She also had funny rashes all over her bottom, and welts at that.
She also had tell tale signs of not sleeping, and losing her language, and
even bouts of extreme anger, as I remember on one report, that "mother was
tolerant during our interview while the baby was pulling her hair".
with all this knowledge I had gathered for Ryan, even me, a suave mom, could
not even recognize that once again, another child was following the
patterns. I put her into EARLY intervention at 11 months of age based upon
Dr Siegals report. The early intervention was such a life saver, and so
many referrals to good doctors, and interventions were afforded not only for
Stacy, but for Ryan. We worked on GF CF diets extensively, as well as were
probably the first parents that figured out they had candida to whazoo, and
seeked the advice of an immunologist to put them on Nystantin. This was a
big breakthrough for both of them, particularly Stacy. We also put them on
the FEINGOLD diet, in which we avoided colored foods, or dyes, and even
phenolic foods. This was another step into progression. During this time,
Ryan began to have facial seizures. We took him to the neuro, and he put
him on a KETOGENIC DIET. This really helped things, FOR A TIME. He also
put him on a mitochondrial cocktail, because we did some extensive tests,
that showed he built up too much pyruvate and lactic acid, which are waste
products of the kreb cycle. Later I found out, this was also a sign of
the years went by, the seizures either kindled or smoldered into something I
call, pubescent HELOOO. Around 13 years of age, Ryan began to have Grand
mals. We put him on everything we could think of, pharmacology
speaking. Some improvements here or there, and breakthrough, but nothing
that went, a ha. I then put him on glycomannans and sterolins, as well as
various things such as good fatty acids, homeopathic hgh, zinc sulphate,
B-complex vitamins to whazoo. This really seemed to stave off the
seizures. This along with other ideas of "healing the gut" which would in
turn "heal the seizures". Don't get me wrong, there are things left to be
done, and some breakthroughs here or then, but for the most part, better
than they were, when they were numbering 1-2 grand mals a week.
for Stacy, during this time, she really started making gains, in which we
put the same protocol on. We did, with added things here or there that were
her deficiencies, as well as recognizing how PST deficient she was. She
just had her 3 year evaluation, and can no longer be classified autistic,
but aspergers. She has a keen sense of humor, and can joke and laugh, make
friends, but has some "issues" with social pieces. She reads around the 2-3
grade level and requires no aide in her modified classroom of LD children.
journey doesn't end here, for we found new information that made all of this
come home. As I have expressed, "I was tired" all the time as a mom, and
had signs of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I unfortunately learned bad news of
my mother last year having Multiple Myeloma. That was devastating and sad.
The prognosis is pretty good, compared to someone who has lesions or tumors
when they come into it. She is also on the protocol I have outlined for my
autoimmune kids. But for what it is worth, I discovered not only is her
cancer connected to autism, but also my Chronic Fatigue. I fell upon a
website, while researching for treatments for her, and was taken back. I
was sure I was on this web site before in regards to autism! I clicked
on the appropriate searches for autism and then multiple myeloma. It was
there, that I read a report by a Dr Brian Durie, that he saw often complex
neurological conditions within the family, even MENTIONING A MOM WITH TWO
KIDS WITH AUTISM. I nearly fell off my chair. I called the laboratory web
page in question and asked if they wanted to test our family? Would
they, they said. I sent in our entire families blood sample, my mother, my
father, my sister, her children, my family in total, four kids, and husband
and I. ALL OF US TESTED POSITIVE for THE STEALTH VIRUS. Those with obvious
neuro conditions were strong positive, those with moderate signs or hardly
noticeable to the naked eye were moderate! This was an answer I was
seeking. So, your probably asking, so what your saying is, is the STEALTH
VIRUS THE CAUSE OF AUTISM? I KNOW NOT. But one thing I do know, the
standard PCR and western Blot were used, and you cannot deny what you see.
This virus is from POLIO VACCINES, instituted to all back in the fifties and
early sixties (the good ole sugar cube). It is also implicated in frank
cancers. SV-40 is what they call it, a contaminated simian monkey virus or
CMV. This along with mercury poisoning was indeed clues to our family, and
I must say, a very interesting explanation not only for the Multiple Myeloma,
but also the autism, CFS, Fibro, tics, Bi-polar, Schizo/drug/alcohol
problems, dyslexia, ADD, depression. I am sure I am probably describing
many families that have autism in them (www.ccid.org
). We are also about to enter the world of chelation therapy, as soon as we
get mineral stores up. The tell tale marks of poisoning thus far are low
minerals, such as selenium and even lithium and manganese, all signatures of
a mercury component.
we have 2 with autism, I also have been in many many genetic tests, and or
studies. One of the most interesting was the c4b anulle, an allele on the
Major Histocompatibility Complex. This gene is responsible for handling
VIRUSES, TOXINS and FUNGALS. Those three are implicated in vaccinations.
HAD I KNOWN, that they had this immunoincompetance, along with the STEALTH
VIRUS, I WOULD HAVE NEVER VACCINATED MY CHILDREN. WE are working closely
with CCID, and are about to go on anti virals, such as valtrex, biaxin,
acyclovier, or gancylovier. I am currently on Biaxin, said to lower
chemokine and cytokine production. We also have done dark field microscopy,
and found invasive STILL fungas and candida, so something to work on. As
well, it looks as though I may also have mycoplasma infections, which could
also be STEALTHY. Ryan's blood work almost made the technician lose her
cool, and disseminated what she thought was the oddest form of cells she had
ever seen, and filling the whole screen, it screamed STEALTH to me.
you see, I do have some success here or there, but have a lot more to think
about. We just had tests done, and found they have antibodies to almost all
their brain proteins, and neurotransmitters. They have antibodies to
myelin, seratonin and receptor sites, as well as catecholimines and neural
axon filament proteins. YOU CANNOT TELL ME THAT THESE CHILDREN ARE JUST
PSYCHOLOGICALLY INVOLVED, they are SYSTEMICALLY ILL. They have many gut
issues that I keep in check with probiotics, enzymes, fatty acids,
glycomannans and everything I can get my hands on that heals the gut.
Typically we put out around 1,000 dollars out of pocket for nutraceuticals
and supplements. Yes, it is so unfair, but it has made me strong.
await more news on whether I should have endoscopy's done on my children, as
well as other tests, that will further clue to us, what we must do to heal
our children. This I can tell you. I am absolutely resolved that if we pre
screen our newborns, there may be more than a major few that cannot handle
vaccines. I am currently working on a project to have such done, as a
simple needle stick or PKU test is done, and will offer these insights in
the time coming. I hope this can be put forth to DAN doctors, and thereby a
consensus on what alleles of the immunogenetic system will stamp a child "DO
NOT DISTURB". My hope and my prayers are that I will squelch this
epidemic, and possibly save another child from the life my children have had
to endure. Biomedically these kids are so challenged that one inkling of
twisting or turning, or changing their diets can set them off, or regress
them. This evident when I found out they were more allergic to CORN then
GLUTEN in Wheat. Doing Elisa tests and other targeted treatment tests are
advisable in my opinion.
My motto as a parent
"knowledge is power"
Ellen, currently burning the candle at both ends while my husband has been
unemployed since Sept. So we're in limbo, ready and willing to move wherever
he gets a job, but meanwhile, we're in Texas, where we both grew up. I have
2 kids: Hannah (10) and George (8). Hannah had a viral encephalitis at 7 mo
of age, shortly after her DPT and HibV boosters. Never making the
connection, she continued to get all her vaccines on schedule with no
problems, until she got the Hepatitis B vaccine as a 7 yr old (this one
wasn't out when she was a baby). When she had a severe reaction (more about
the encephalitis at 7 mo, she was on Phenobarbital for about a year and a
half. I can't say whether weaning pheno gave her bad reactions because her
seizures were already increasing in frequency. At the time I really didn't
know about withdrawal seizures. So we tried a variety of drugs
unsuccessfully until, when she was 3 1/2 I pushed for the keto diet. We
weaned all drugs one month later (tegretol and diamox). I saw no increase in
seizures, but I did see horrible behavior, pacing at night, the shakes. This
all lasted about 2 weeks and was clearly a result of weaning the drugs.
Never knew until that point how heavily medicated she was. Hannah did very
well on the diet initially, over a period of 4 yrs, the diet gradually lost
its efficacy. The seizures were already increasing a bit in frequency when
she had the Hep B vaccine which altered her metabolism, gave her Parkinson's
syndrome (slowed speech, severe tremors, masked facial expression), gave her
chronic stomach pain, and tonic clonic seizure every 3 days or so. It also
completely wiped out her short term memory.
been 3 yrs since then. We've seen tremendous improvement in Hannah's
condition, especially from hyperbaric oxygen and I would recommend that to
you before you try any other therapies. We've tried many, some helped a
little while she continued the therapy but she would regress as soon as that
therapy was discontinued. Hannah has not lost anything that she gained as a
result of hyperbaric oxygen.
three of my children have been suffering from seizures and it all started
3.5 weeks after they had the shots and within two weeks all three of my
children had the seizures .This is not a coincidence!!!! Who will pay the
medical bills for all the EEGS and Drs. apts??? Not the ones lining they're
pockets at the cost of our babies. It should be a crime to threaten a parent
with fines and imprisonment if they do not give they're children the
immunizations. I have learned a lot about vaccines in the past two weeks.
Things I was not aware of...all the children who had the same reactions my
children have had. The scary part is my children are just starting to get
sick from them. I have read story after story of other children having
seizures and some have died from the same reactions or left permanently
disabled. What is ahead for my babies futures??? I am a mom of 21-month-old
twins and a 6 month old baby. If I had to do all over, The Drs. never would
of put anything into they're little bodies. I am sorry to sound so mean but
I am worried and scared and I know it is the immunizations they all received
on the same day, same lot #. The DPT shot expired the same month as the shot
was given.........I will request my children be tested for mercury. We have
spent so much time at Drs. testing by EEGs, blood taken from they're little
arms. My babies are so scared of Drs. and I know this is a nightmare for
them. They should not have to go through all this because of the required
immunizations. If I knew all the facts and if I had a choice I would of done
things differently. But my ignorance has caused this and now it is too late
to turn back what has been done. I wish I knew what I knew now about
immunizations. All three of my babies had reactions to the shots before the
seizures began. Both of the twins ended up in the ER with a fever of over
105 and a rash all over they're bodies....but our caring and loving Dr. said
it had nothing to do with the shots. (mind you Claire was 2months old and
Andrew 4 months old when they had the identical reactions). Would you
believe they actually checked them for meningitis. Mitchell screamed for
3.5 hrs straight a non stop hurting scream with his first set of shoots,
this last set of shots made Mitchell fall asleep and I could not wake him at
all. I got so scared I called the 800 # that comes with the patient info.
They said this was normal for a baby to sleep and not be awaken for 24 hrs.
He also had chronic diarrhea for a month. This last set also turned Claire
and Andrew into zombies for a whole day after the shots. This is a normal
reaction? I only wish I knew then what I know now. April 5th they had
May 1st. Mitchell had a spell in his bouncy chair. My husband heard him make
a strange sound and he checked on him and he seemed out of it. His eyes were
in a semi conscious state. I took him in on the changing table and he slowly
came around. He was not blue but pale after this he was quiet for a while.
May 2nd. As I was holding Mitchell he began to shake, his arms, torso and
May 3rd. Mitchell was shaking again and I called the Drs, he looked Mitchell
over and thought it was seizure activity. They checked him for his sugar
level and it was fine. His blood work came back fine also. He has shaken at
least 6 times since this incident. (as of today May 23rd)
May 12th.Andrew hit the back of his head in the Pm
May 13th .Andrew woke up very lethargic. He just kept starring and acting
like he was going to pass out. He could not hold his head steady and he did
not respond to me at all. His lips were tense and whitish blue. I called my
husband at work to tell him something was wrong with Andrew, I had gotten
scarred and called the ambulance. He would not lay on the cot and by time
the ambulance got there he started to act like himself. We took him to the
ER ourselves thinking he had a head injury. The Dr. said it was not a head
injury but an ear infection.
We got his medication and he took it all week and he seemed fine, he was not
May 16th. Andrew was just about done his dinner. I went to him to wash some
sauce off of his face and he gave me the usual fuss about it .I turned
around to wash out the wash cloth and turned to sit it on the table Ii
looked at Andrew and he was starring downward with his eyes drooping and he
acted like he was going to pass out. I went to him and pulled up his chin
and I got no response from him at all. I picked him up from the high chair
and leaned him over and patted his back, nothing , no choking or coughing.
We sat him on the table and he started to come around a bit. My husband held
him in his arms for a while then he returned to normal.
May 17th I took Andrew to the Drs. And the nurse Practitioner saw him and
felt he too had seizure activity.
May 18th As I was changing Claire's diaper she had a seizure. Her head was
held back and her arms were straight out and she had both hands in a fist.
Her eyes were tight and rolled back in her head. Her lips and mouth were
also tight. After this lasted about 4 minutes then she went limp. I carried
her to the phone and she stayed limp until I called my Aunt to hurry and
come over, I was very upset. By time she got there Claire was returning to
normal. I believe she had a headache after this happened because she was
fussy for the rest of the day.
She did not see a Dr. I made a lot of phone calls to see if I could get a
Dr. to see her but no one could. The ER said there was no point in bringing
her in there as they did not have the equipment to help her.
MITCHELL: I can tell when Mitchell is going to have shaking, He is usually
tired before it happens and the way I see it what ever is happening to him
is what is making him tired...not the other way around. He sometimes puts
his fist right up to his eyes and holds them there tight, as if he has pain
or sees something. Then he puts his arms down and he starts to jerk, his
legs arms and body then he starts to shake. He then falls asleep sometimes
for over an hour and sometimes for just 10 minutes. Sometimes he acts like
he is going to start shaking but he starts then stops suddenly and he will
start crying and I cannot comfort him. The shaking was tremor like at the
beginning and now have turned into convulsion type shaking. Harder and
longer then when they first started...they are getting worse. He has an
average of one a day and sometimes two a day. I have also noticed lately
his eyes are not focusing like they used to and they wander when he tries to
look at something. Almost as if one eye goes one way and the other the other
way. I see this bothers him and he closes his eyes and puts his head down. I
have also noticed he does not grab and play with toys as well as he did
before (mostly his right hand)
prior to Claire having her seizure she acted as if she could see things that
were not there. She would actually talk to what ever she was seeing.
Claire's first seizure consisted of her throwing her fist's up into her eyes
then her arm flared straight out and her head jerked back and her body
tightened right up. Both of her hands were in fists, her teeth clenched
tight and her eyes were tight and rolled back in her head. After about 4
minutes of this she went limp. I laid her on the couch and she started to
become aware of me. She fussed all day after that, I think she had a
headache. I had Claire to Drs. thinking it was an earache (she fussed when
she had her earache) But she did not. He told me to give her Tylenol. I told
him I have been giving her Tylenol since this all started. He said keep
giving it to her until she see the neurologist. This cannot be good for her
little body. Why does she act as if she is in constant pain????? She does
not sleep well. She will wake up at night crying. Ever since Claire had the
seizure, she has been fussy, cries a lot and keeps pointing to her arms,
legs and head saying hurt, hurt. She wakes up every night crying.
ANDREW: Andrew first stare seizure lasted for an hour. His face was pale his
eyes were open but he was not there, his eyes were blood shot. He was limp
and could not move his body, he could not hear me or see me. His lips were
pursed real tight and bluish almost white. I called my husband and seeing
Andrew was not getting better I called the ambulance. He has hit his head
the night before like he had a few dozen times and he seemed ok after. I did
not feel he hit it hard enough to cause any problems, there was not bump, he
continued to play and be happy after. When he awoke that morning I thought
his reaction was due to his head. When we got him to the ER the Dr. said he
showed no signs of a head injury (by this time Andrew returned to normal)
but that Andrew had an ear infection. That was Monday morn. Thursday eve.
Andrew had the same type of episode in his high chair but lasting only about
4 minutes total.
And so it continues....testing..blood EEGs and lets just wait and see if
they have more or how bad it gets. So much for safe immunizations. And so
much for the Drs. admitting it is from the immunizations. This has been
costly, emotionally and financially. Its been hard on the babies as we have
to travel to see the neurologist...
WILL THIS EVER END?
My name is Amy I am the mom
of 4 beautiful children. This is my story into the vaccination world. I
first questioned vaccines out of accident I was 6 mo pregnant with #4 and my
3 and 4 yr old were in headstart. I got notice that they were due for there
shots I instantly got sick to my stomach. I went directly to my hubby’s work
and told him kids were due for shots he said, well you better take them. I
then began to cry him thinking it was pregnancy hormones I said I am afraid
I can’t explain this to you cause to this day I don’t understand it. Well we
held off and Dec 22 my #4 baby was born and my own Pediatrician happened to
be out off town so I had a Dr my midwife recommended. He comes in the room
after checking her and says she is beautiful nice big 9 lbs 15 oz apgars
perfect then he says We aren’t giving the hep B shot now I said Ok Why. You
have to understand at this point I didn’t know a thing about vaccines. The
Dr proceeded to tell me they were worried about the Mercury in the shots and
until this was cleared up he wouldn’t give it. My husband and my self said
WHAT mercury. My husband says did you know of this Amy I said NO way but I
will find out. So that started my crusade 18 mo ago.
will say that my 10 yr old Chelsea has had all her shots except her 4 yr old
shots. She has suffered with severe allergies, eczema, and asthma and was
hospitalized over and over for unexplained fevers.
Carrigian my 5 yr old is one
that we now feel is damaged she has learning problems she started crying at
2 mo old and cried non stop for 8 months I swear. She has eczema also and
holds her breath and passes out and did this for the first time directly
after a vaccine. She has chronic constipation.
my 4 yr old we thought was fine. Although did develop a severe respiratory
infection after a vaccine but we didn’t know this then only know it now
looking back. And the most troubling thing is he was diagnosed with Epstein
Barr virus at 3 yrs old this virus causes MONO. Some research shows that
this virus may also be linked to the Rubella vaccine.
my 18 mo old has not had any vaccines. She is also extended breastfeed I say
this cause I think it is important when you don’t vaccinate. She has hardly
been sick. She did however have whooping cough at 5 months old which was the
worst thing. We treated her with homeopathy and vit C. she recovered nicely
from it. She had croup, which lasted 3 days with the use also of homeopathy
and a few sniffles here and there. I must say that this journey has been the
hardest choice I have had to make for my kids. I make this choice on a daily
basis. I worry every day IS this the right choice for her. But I then ask
myself how could I willingly inject all that poison in her. I am furious at
the medical community the government for not having to inform us of the
deadly ingredients in these vaccines they claim are safe. Why as parents
cant we be given the info and allowed to make the choice on our own. And to
bet that most DRs don’t know what is in these shots all the preservatives
and fillers and known cancer causing agents.
Everyone asks “don’t you
worry about the diseases?” and YES I do every day. I worry how she will
handle measles, mumps, chicken pox and God forbid she get tetanus. I now am
reading and learning these diseases trying to make myself more comfortable
with treating them. But I truly feel God led me to this choice. I don’t feel
that my youngest would have been damaged I feel it would have been my 5 yr
old who shows signs of all kinds of damage. I may one day selectively
vaccinate but one this I can say is I am a better mom for learning all this
and investigating this. I feel it makes us better parents and it is up to us
to inform other parents. At least allow them to make a educated choice in
the matter of vaccines.
The story of The Frennung Family
by Judith Frennung
My name is Judith
Frennung. I am 43 years old. I am the mother of Dagmar, born the 27. April
1981, 11.44 PM. Dagmar’s birth was as normal as a birth in a hospital can
be. She was healthy up until the day where near the age of two months got
her shot of pertussis vaccine. After three-four weeks with severe
convulsions her brain was damaged. Today she is diagnosed a spastic of
average intelligence with hemiplegia of the right extremities, epilepsy,
dyspracsy and aphasia. Dagmar’s aphasia is so severe that she cannot talk
with her mouth, read, write or reckon. And it is difficult for her to
understand spoken language. The last 20 years of my life I spent clearing a
path in the human society for Dagmar so she would be able to create a life
for herself on this planet.
Thinking back, I see
that I have always been different compared to others. I have always tried to
do things my own way. And not always with the best of results I must admit.
My decent and normal parents have only had worries because of me. The reason
for that is that I have always been driven to existential experiments by an
ever-burning urge stemming from the great invisible dreamworld of within the
soul. The result of my behaviour is that my parents and I have lost contact.
It is the only way that my severely tried parents can maintain the necessary
peace and safety in their honourable life, I guess.
A very young woman
I escaped home and moved to Christania in Copenhagen. Christiania is a
town-in-town made in 1973 by young people, who wanted to create an
alternative way of living every day life. Christiania was in its own
primitive way one of the first eco-villages in the world. Later after some
experiments with drugs, I changed my life, converted to the Tibetan Buddhism
and moved into a Buddhist shared house. In 1977 I travelled to the Far East
where I did some voluntary work among Tibetan refugees. I also received
education in meditation and Buddhist philosophy from different lamas. Dalai
Lama was one of my teachers.
My parents worried
a lot because of my strange life. Therefore I returned to Denmark determined
to create a lifestyle which could please my parents. I met a man, whom I did
not love. And an unplanned pregnancy became an excuse to turn the back to my
untameable values and myself. In the pipeline to an existence - an empty
vessel with a neat surface - I brought my newborn baby to the doctor to get
her shots. This proved to be beginning of the greatest change of my life -
Before the pertussis
immunization my Dagmar was a normal baby. Afterwards she was sad. During the
next few days she weakened. She cried a lot. She caught an enormous cold,
and appeared to change in subtle ways. The doctor told me that it was
normal. I had a strong feeling that something was not quite right.
After a few weeks of
crying, illness and strange rashes, Dagmar developed a fluid-filled blister
on her right hand. Shocked I went to two different hospitals. Neither could
offer me an explanation. Finally I decided that all she needed was fresh
air. In great haste I packed a few things and moved to some friends who
lived in a shared house in the countryside. But it did not help. Her
Suddenly on a warm
day while I was breastfeeding her sitting under an old tree in the garden,
Dagmar emptied her bladder and intestine. We were both smeared all over. And
there the convulsions started. We called the doctor. He immediately admitted
her. In ambulance with sirens on we drove across Denmark.
At the hospital the
doctors found out that the blister was caused by an herpes infection. But
nobody could explain how she got it. I am not infected with herpes. Years
later I read in some scientific article from Germany on the subject that
herpes or herpes zoster is often seen as a side-effect in cases of allergic
reactions to pertussis immunization.
I began to ask all
the doctors about the reason of this disaster. I asked if the vaccination
could have caused this. All but one flew into a rage. Filled with fear of
these outbursts of authoritative anger I stopped asking more questions. I
felt as if I had said something horrible about Jesus in a fanatical
religious church. Years later a neurologist unofficially made a remark that
the braindamage of my daughter was nontypical of infantile herpes infection.
The convulsions went
on for almost four weeks. Day and night. Unstoppable. My Dagmar lost
consciousness. And several of her life functions were monitored and assumed
by machines. I stayed by her side all the time. I lit candles and incense
and filled the room with flowers. And I sent for Tibetan herbal medicine
given to people in life threatening situations. Through friends I smuggled
this herbal medicine into the hospital and gave it to my daughter through
the probe in her nose. Within a few hours she began breathing on her own.
After a few more hours the convulsions declined and after 24 hours it was
clear that she would survive. Doctors gathered in the room. One doctor burst
out, ” She survived! Damned! Who would have thought that! Oh …the mother is
present.” He caught an eye on me.
All the doctors
were very careful to point out that immunizations were unable to cause brain
damage. I do not remember that anyone took time to talk the accident over
with me. But one of the doctors said something that I shall never forget. He
told me that it was best that I never let my daughter receive another
vaccination shot again. Those words told me, that maybe the health system
had been less than honest with me.
After returning home
Dagmar was completely exhausted. For weeks she slept as much as 17 hours at
a time. Then she woke up for half an hour to feed before going back to
sleep. She had become almost totally paralyzed in her face and mouth, so she
could not breastfeed. I rented a milking machine, so she could take my milk
from a bottle. Her right arm was paralyzed. The general prognosis was
extremely bad. I was told that she probably had become mentally deficient to
a severe extent. And I should not expect a natural development of the right
side of her body.
Impossible from pain
and confusion I managed to ruin the relationship to Dagmar’s father. My
parents left, too. This I forgive them with all my heart. I was completely
unbearable to relate to in the first years after the accident. I forgive
Alone. With no
family. No peace of mind and therefore very few friends. No place to live.
No officially acknowledged education. No money. There I was - 23 years old -
with my destroyed child looking out on the ruin of my life. Of course I felt
sorry for myself. Of course I was terrified. Of course the loneliness
threatened to drive me crazy. And of course my heart struggled with myriads
of conflicting emotions concerning my child. It was especially a chock to me
that I suffered from the same prejudices against disabled people as
At the same time
Dagmar and I was surrounded by experts and specialists all knowing better
than I. They all wanted to help, but they used a technical language I did
not comprehend. I was a very young woman entering an alien and unknown
world. The world of the disabled people. A world originated in a scary past
where physical and mental defects brought along loss of basic human rights.
And in spite of modernizations, Dagmar’s and my New World was unmistakably
marked by it’s unloving and harsh past.
My small, destroyed
daughter and I lived in a whirlpool of unfortunate, incomprehensible and
intimidating circumstances. And being a human being and a mother I did what
billions of mothers since the beginning of time have done. I decided to
fight for the dignity of my child. I chose to view the unfortunate fate as a
kind of spiritual weightlifting. And I promised myself to learn whatever it
took to transform terror into strength and blessing for the benefit of my
daughter, myself and every living being everywhere. Slowly a strategy
formed. Years later I named that strategy ”Project Disabled with Fun, Joy
implied daily training of Dagmar’s body. I learned how to give her massage.
I investigated the principles of holistic medicine and many methods from the
body-mind medicine became part of our family’s culture. I taught myself how
to cook healthy, safe and poisonless food from ecological or biodynamic raw
materials. Our home was transformed into Dagmar’s training room and my
When Dagmar was two
years old I felt an urge to become a better mother. Therefore I got educated
as a Rudolf Steiner teacher. Through that education I was able to understand
her nature better. I read lots of books. Some by Soren Kierkegaard, Goethe
and Alice Miller. Others about brain damage and the story of disabled people
and their social conditions through history, just to mention a few subjects.
I investigated all
I could find on the vaccine-subject. Later I became involved in the work of
Danish Vaccineforum. It was soon clear to me that the smaller breakdown of
my daughter was but an expression of the greater breakdown in all nature’s
systems everywhere in consequence of the lack of skill in human societies
concerning the creation of human abundance without at the same time
destroying the abundance of the natural basis of the very same societies.
Realizing that, I got educated as an environmental planner at the
university. Later I joined the environmental movement, Permaculture, and
became a Permaculture Designer teaching hundreds of people the skills and
principles of ecological viable human production and dwelling. And I got a
course in win-win conflict resolution and negotiation from the CRN in
All these new skills
helped me to better negotiate with authorities and specialists. I was now
able to convince these people to have the diagnosis of my daughter
reevaluated and changed. She was now seen as a spastic child of average
I also made progress
in creating a space for us in society. After eight years without a proper
place to live we finally found a wonderful flat. My economical situation
improved and I was able to escape social security. I managed to take care of
my daughter, take care of my business and make relative good results in my
university studies. All in all, I succeeded to turn large parts of our
breakdowns to breakthroughs. Sometimes I took a deep breath and saw that the
Spirit held it’s loving hand over our lives. It felt like the angels were
always there supporting us.
In spite of that I
was never satisfied. I was always worried for my daughter’s future because
she was unable to talk. And her aphasia made it difficult for her to
understand mouth language. We were both miserable from not being able to
When Dagmar was
three years old I accidentally discovered that it was easy for her to
comprehend Danish sign language. I decided then
that her natural language consequently had to be the language of the deaf.
It took 12 years of desperate and fatiguing effort to convince authorities
and specialists about this simple fact. During this period we cried a lot.
Everyday in fact. The pain of not being able to communicate is intense. We
could feel the bodies of each other so we became an extremely close unit
communicating through feelings and body language.
Bur my bright daughter needed more than that. For long periods I feared that
she would withdraw into insanity.
Finally I won the battle. Dagmar was
12 years old and accepted at a school for the deaf. In a few years she
changed from an angry and violent girl into a rational and articulated young
Today Dagmar has her own apartment
in a suburb. She has the cultural centre for the deaf as a neighbour. Across
the street, the church holds services in Danish sign
language. Many people with different disabilities live in
the area so Dagmar is no longer different from others. She is planning her
everyday life together with her helpers. She
bought a small Shetlands Sheepdog. His name is translated into English,
NewWolf. He is being trained in sign language as a
service dog for the disabled. Dagmar works everyday in a protected workshop.
She has friends in the deaf world. When I left her in the new flat I had a
strong feeling, that she finally had come home.
She has the home I never was able to
create for her. We never met a man who was able to be a father and a
husband. To be a part of our lives he would have to engage himself in
”Project Disabled with Fun, Joy and Dignity”. That was too big a task and I
forgive that. So the price I had to pay to help my daughter was husband,
children, family and career. Often I asked myself if this project was worth
this high price. And every time, I choose my daughter.
Maybe Dagmar was not a wanted child
from the beginning. But during the years I wanted her more and more. Holding
her life in my hands I have received learning
about the deeper meaning of life. That education I could not have received
anywhere else. I have learned to understand a deeper meaning of love,
ethics, morality, diligence, helpfulness, generosity, patience, loyalty,
discriminating awareness and wisdom. I did not bring up my daughter. It was
she who brought up me. She is deeply wanted and beloved.
I have gained insight in the
conditions of life of disabled people. I have become bilingual and feel like
a part of the culture of the deaf. And when I see young spastic women in the
street I recognize their movements and facial expressions in my heart. In a
way I see them as my daughters. According to WHO, between 15 and 20 % of
world population are disabled. On this planet lives about 6 million deaf
people. And about 15 million have brain damage. Instead of having my own
children I sometimes feel that all these people have become my family.
Wishes for their prosperity fills my heart. May this story of my daughter
stream out like a blessing to all these people and their families. May the
understanding that every person is a valuable resource no matter how this
person is built become common knowledge on this planet. Thank you for
letting me tell you our story.
I would like to introduce myself. My
son, XXXXXXX, now 16 months suffered a reaction to his first round of
vaccinations. He screamed pretty much all night the night of his shots,
developed a rash, and then severe reflux, eczema, severe food allergies, and
eventually autistic symptoms. Through much research I have made some
incredible changes to our diet (we now eat only 11 foods) and his autistic
symptoms are almost completely gone. I know in my heart (and our new DO
confirms) that all of this is a direct result of his first vaccinations. He
dropped from the 95th percentile to below the 5th percentile (off the
charts) in less than 6 months. He went from a happy, healthy baby that
slept through the night and was growing well, and was already saying mama,
dada, baba to a baby that slept only 2 hours/24, screamed frequently, had
only 3 BMs in 3 months, and stopped verbalizing completely for 8 months.
XXXXXX'X reflux became so bad he would aspirate and stopped breathing on
several occasions. I spent months with him "sleeping" on me sitting up all
night long. We slept two hours a night for months on end. All of last year
is a big blur to me. Before our wheat, gluten, casein, soy, and lots of
other food free diet, he would not engage people, and would bang his head
repeatedly on anything he could, among other things.
Eight weeks into our elimination diet
he became a very happy baby, says one word (hi), smiles a lot, engages
people, is very huggable and lovey, has gained 4 pounds - back up to the
10th%, and is doing great! We still have some residual head banging and must
eat the restricted diet (we because I am still nursing him) and if we have
an exposure to a 'bad' food it is bad.
My daughter, now 5, developed the measles after her MMR and has some pretty
intense sensory integration issues, I now believe also a result of her
shots. And lastly, the same thing that happened to XXXXXX and my daughter,
happened to me... when I was in college, I had to be revaccinated with the
MMR (1989) and I developed the measles and the mumps. I then became allergic
to everything, all makeup, hairspray, environmental, cats, dogs, many, many
foods. I also have had chronic health issues, fatigue, etc. ever since. I
only now made the connection to the vaccine after it happened to my son.
My son's first doctor refused to believe any of XXXXX's problems were
connected to the vaccines and tried to coerce us into giving XXXXXX further
shots. I knew in my heart all of XXXXXX's problems came from the vaccines
since he was such a healthy, happy baby beforehand. In addition, since my
brother also lost his hearing as a child from the MMR, I made the decision
to not give my children any further vaccines. We found a new doctor who
supports us in our decision. Boy am I glad I did. Since then I have spent
hundreds of hours researching and know my husband and I have made the right
decision. I am also now learning more about how my daughter's sensory
integration dysfunction may also be a result of her vaccines. So in any
event, that's my long, long story. I am hoping to find some information and
make some connections to other parents that have children with similar
issues due to vaccines as my son in the hope that we can find some further
answers and maybe eliminate some of his food allergies, and arrest further
autistic symptoms. XXXXXX is still on Pepcid for his severe reflux and I
would like to try a homeopathic doctor to see if we can't make further
progress. I am so looking forward to learning from everyone, reviewing the
archives, and making connections.
Please allow me a few moments of your time to tell you
about my daughter Bailey. She is such a beautiful, bright and special little
girl. She is also so very frustrated at not being able to do the things she
used to do. Bailey is a victim of vaccine related autism. She could once eat
everything she wanted to and played with her cousins at the playground. She
walked around the farm and helped me feed the animals. She was speaking 14
words and putting two together. She used to call me Mama. I've not witnessed
her open beauty in so very long. She keeps it all inside now, tucked away in
a little box. Sometimes she let's a little bit of what she keeps inside slip
out and when she does her face lights up so bright, so filled with love and
laughter and look! look! I did it! I did it!
My daughter instead of going to the park everyday after school, goes to a Dr
to get treatments for her allergies to nearly everything as well as
treatments for her immune system. I've had to stop working because she is
not well enough to be in school regularly. No employer will make provisions
for a mother who comes and goes more then she comes. My husband, bless him,
works day and
night, unable to spend those special moments with his sweet "peanut" to make
ends meet. So she can go to the Dr, who is kind enough to lower the
treatment costs. My daughter is on a slow road to recovery and the road has
it's bumps but she is getting there. I noticed symptoms right after Bailey
got the first vaccine in the hospital Hepatitis B... she wouldn't nurse.
then she turned jaundice
and it was said she had "breast-feeding" jaundice. I now know this wasn't
breast-feeding jaundice. It was because she was given a vaccine that wasn't
necessary at too early an age when her liver wasn't even fully developed
yet. Every vaccine thereafter would causes her to regress for a period of
about a week or two. After that period she would come back again and was
completely normal. I informed the Dr of her reactions. Her reply to me was I
am a new mother and am being overly paranoid. My story is not the only story
like this. Nearly all the mothers I've spoken to and there are hundreds of
them have been through the same ordeal.
Kassandra L Standley
We wanted to update everyone on
Brendan. Though his progress, to a casual observer would seem minute, we
are very encouraged by the progress we have seen and pray that it will
continue. He has said a few words, randomly, and has begun to sort colors
and participate in group activities. He has speech therapy and occupational
therapy twice a week and is in a three day a week program in a school
After careful review of his medical records, we have determined that Brendan
is one of the children that was poisoned by Thimerosal, a form of mercury
(the second most toxic chemical known to man.) Until recently, Thimerosal
was used as a preservative in vaccines. Over time, more and more thimerosal
was added to vaccines, in order to extend their shelf-life. In 1999, an
act was passed, entitled the Public Service Health Act, which covered many
aspects of health, from what to do with the remains of someone killed in
military service, to requiring the removal of Thimerosal from vaccines. The
initial problem with this bill, was that it did not require Pharmaceuticals
to recall vaccines that were already in circulation. Almost a year and a
half after the Bill was written, Brendan was given four vaccines, in one
day, all but one containing extremely high levels of Thimerosal. These
vaccines poisoned a perfectly healthy 15 month old boy, causing him to
become Autistic. As I am sure you can imagine, his "diagnosis" has created
an enormous amount of heartache and has created a Goliath financial burden
upon our family.
There have been numerous cover-ups from all directions, including a huge one
from the Center for Disease Control, who completely changed their
preliminary findings on the matter, once their document was leaked.
Pharmaceuticals, "physicians, the CDC, and so forth have made numerous
attempts to make the claims of thousands of parents and the few physicians
with an opened mind
enough to examine the evidence, seem like lunacy. We would have most likely
thought the same, until our son was labeled Autistic and we were forced to
research the issue further. We are completely confident that Brendan was
poisoned out of negligence from Pharmaceutical companies and now wish to
pursue remedy for their negligence, in order to provide Brendan with the
care that he will need, most likely for the rest of his life.
We were both raised in conservative homes and have spent our adult lives
doing our part to support conservative viewpoints and agendas. It was with
great sorrow that we learned that the Homeland Security Act, that has passed
the House and has headed to the Senate, contains a last-minute provision,
added by Dick Armey of Texas, a person we once respected and supported as
residents of Texas, provides protection to Pharmaceutical companies from
their Thimerosal negligence, even after the incredible amount of evidence,
indicating that Pharmaceutical companies added Thimerosal to vaccines,
knowing it could cause brain damage to infants and toddlers. Pharmaceutical
companies have a lot of political influence and have contributed an
incredible amount of money to the campaigns of those they feel would make
this little nightmare of theirs disappear.
So what do we want? First of all...homeland security. We want the Homeland
Security Bill to pass. We feel that the current administration has gone to
great lengths to make sure the events of September 11, 2001 will never
happen again. We support President Bush and the leaders of our nation in
their efforts to make this country a safer place to live. Where we are at
odds with our elected officials, is where they support a cause that has
knowingly been negligent and has poisoned our son and robbed him of the life
he deserved. We feel this move from Dick Armey and his colleagues is
ludicrous and ask for your help in making it known that we do not
appreciated adding dishonest provisions to a good bill. Please contact your
immediately and let it be known, on behalf of Brendan and every other
Thimerosal-poisoned, Autistic child, that sections 17.14, 17.15, 17.16 and
17.17 of the Homeland Security Act are not supported and that Pharmaceutical
companies, like every other company in our economy, should be held
accountable for their voluntary negligence.
We ask that you forgive the incredible sloppiness of this message, but did
not feel we could waste the time it would take to edit this message. We
feel the message is clear, though sloppy. If you have any questions, please
do not hesitate to contact us. Also, if you feel so inclined, please
forward this message to anyone who may be of interest.
By Deanna Gromowski
There are days I cannot believe what happened to my son Ian Larsen Gromowski.
It almost seems as though it was a bad, horrible nightmare that I cannot
wake up from. My name is Deanna Gromowski and I am just a mom.
I live in Wisconsin and have a bachelor’s degree in Psychology from
UW-Milwaukee and my husband Scott has his bachelor’s degree in Sports
Management from UW-LaCrosse. I work in Human Resources and he decided to
get a 2nd degree in Fire Science and is now a full-time fire fighter. We
dated for 3 years and then got engaged and a year later married in Hawaii in
2005. We decided to hold off on children for the first year to enjoy
married life. We ‘did everything right in life’, we planned and prepared
and educated ourselves about all our major life decisions. Then June 25,
2007 and our son Ian was born completely healthy. Well, there was a slight
mishap at birth and it is very common. Ian swallowed meconium (his stool)
as he came through the birth canal. He was originally brought back to our
room with us, but then the nurses noticed he was having trouble breathing.
The meconium is like tar and it was in his lungs. So Ian was admitted to
the NICU, discharged the next day to our room, but yet again went back
because he hadn’t worked all of the meconium out quite yet. Scott and I
were worried, as new parents, who wouldn’t be, but we knew it was common and
we were told this many times. Some babies need 2 to 3 weeks to work the
meconium out of their lungs. Ian was having a hard time getting this tar
worked out, but you cannot imagine our JOY when the doctors told us on his
5th day of life, June 30th, 2007, that he would be able to go home. All he
needed was his hearing test and his Hepatitis B vaccination.
We couldn’t wait for both of them to happen so we could go home. Looking
back Scott and I get frustrated because we weren’t really given an option
about the vaccine. We were told to sign a form (in which we were not given
any instructions on vaccines) and I remember it seemed strange because the
form we signed didn’t have an area for a parent signature, the nurse had to
physically write in “Parents Signature” and “draw a line”. Hardly seems
professional or right, but I signed it anyway. I look back on that form to
date and still get sick to my stomach.
Ian was given his Hepatitis B vaccination on July 1st, 2007 even though he
was fighting off the meconium, even though he had a fever ABOVE 100 degrees
on June 30th, and even though he had a fever above 100 degrees the day of
July 1st they STILL VACCINATED HIM. It states on the Center for Disease
Control (CDC) website this : “Some people should not get hepatitis B vaccine
or should wait.
Anyone with a life-threatening allergy to baker’s yeast, or to any other
component of the vaccine, should not get hepatitis B vaccine. Tell your
provider if you have any severe allergies.
• Anyone who has had a life-threatening allergic reaction to a previous dose
of hepatitis B vaccine should not get another dose.
• Anyone who is moderately or severely ill when a dose of vaccine is
scheduled should probably wait until they recover before getting the
vaccine. Your provider can give you more information about these
So how are parent’s to know if their child is allergic to baker’s yeast? Do
you want to just risk it? I would consider Ian moderately ill because he
was in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit and still had a fever. Shouldn’t
the experts know this information. Isn’t it their job? Well, that is all
hindsight and immediately after Ian was vaccinated the following happened:
FACT: After receiving the Hepatitis B shot these symptoms also appeared:
• Platelets dropped from 248,000 to 131,000 – severe thrombocytopenia
• Scalded-like rash appeared
• Seizures noted
• Irritable, crying non-stop
• Stopped eating
• Viral-like symptoms
His pictures speak a million words. Within 12 hours of his vaccination he
had the rash, within 24 hours the severe thrombocytopenia set in, and then
he was in a fatal state from then on. NO DOCTORS, NURSES, STAFF would even
consider the vaccination as the source.
Nothing else happened, no medicines of any kind because he was supposed to
be going home! It even lists on the CDC website that 1 in 1.1 million have
a severe reaction and on the Merck website it indicates that
thrombocytopenia is a typical reaction of a person with a vaccine reaction.
Why didn’t they know this? Why wouldn’t they consider the vaccination? It
is possible. It even states so on the form from the CDC that they were
SUPPOSED to give us and didn’t!!
Ian lived for 47 days. My son suffered nearly his entire life. Look at the
pictures. Imagine watching your child going through this pain and not being
able to do anything. No one would listen to us….we are just parents, what
do we know? We didn’t leave his side for one moment. We lived at the
hospital, literally. I couldn’t save my first born son, I couldn’t make the
‘ouchie’ better. I sat there day in and day out and watched this
vaccination destroy his organ one at a time.
But I want you to know that Ian was an old soul. He had a peaceful presence
about him. He received edema massages 2 times a day for his swelling and he
loved it! The therapists said most babies in his situation do not do well
with massages, but he was relaxed, peaceful, and accepting. He fought so
hard. He is the strongest person Scott and I have ever met. He took our
admiration to a level we didn’t know existed in the world. He was and is
our little Sunshine, but more importantly he is OUR HERO.
We now are blessed with another son, Vance. Vance shares his brother’s
blonde hair and has blue eyes that glisten like the sky. Vance is almost 6
months old and Vance is not vaccinated yet. Pending on the future of
vaccines, we don’t know if he ever will be.. Hopefully Ian’s story will
touch the lives of others including people who care for children. His case
is not as rare as one would think.
Ian Larsen Gromowski
June 25, 2007 - August 10, 2007
Birthplace: Milwaukee, Wisconsin
Resided In: Brookfield Wisconsin USA
Funeral Home: Max A. Sass & Sons Funeral Home
Visitation: August 14, 2007
Service: August 14, 2007
Gromowski, Ian Larsen
Returned safely to the arms of Jesus on August 10, 2007. Precious son of
Scott and Deanna Gromowski. Cherished grandson of Lawrence (Pamela)
Gromowski and Gregory (Anita) Lehrkamp. Beloved great-grandson of Eugene
Gromowski, Patricia Larsen and Bill Betlinski. Loving nephew of Paul (Amy)
Gromowski and Melissa Waszak. Further survived by other relatives and many
amazingly dear friends.
A Mass of Christian Burial will be celebrated on Tues. Aug. 14, 7:30 PM at
ST. JOHN VIANNEY CATHOLIC CHURCH, 1755 N. CALHOUN RD., BROOKFIELD.
Visitation AT THE CHURCH on Tues. from 6 PM until time of Mass.
Special thanks to the NICU nursing staff of St. Joseph�s Hospital and
Children�s Hospital. Ian was a fighter with a strong spirit. He will be
forever loved and never forgotten.
Mommy and Daddy love you more than you will ever know.
You will always be our sunshine.http://iansvoice.org/gallery.aspx
gave birth to my second daughter in July of 1999. I had a deep worry about
her from the time she was in my womb. She didn't seem to move like my first,
spunky two year old daughter. After she was born, in the hospital, deep
fears began to hit me about her health. Nothing I could put my finger on,
but a deep, penetrating fear. They didn't give her the hepB shot at 24 hours
old as the policy is because there was some problem and health officials
were waiting for a while. Fine with me, but whatever, after all, those
anti-vaccine people were just a bunch of hippy trouble-makers to me.
I remember when Allie was just a few weeks old her watching me move around
the room as she lay on my bed. I didn't have on a shirt and I thought it was
so cute that she was concerned with her food supply! Another time a few days
later my mom was holding Allie and as I walked into the room while speaking
my mom commented on how she turned when she heard my voice. That made me
However, as the months went by, that deep worry about her health and
development wouldn't leave me. She was a little quiet. She said her babbles,
but not very often. She seemed to love TV much more than big sister, but if
I compared her to her outgoing big sister my friends would tell me how each
child is different and to stop comparing. I guess I was just being freaky.
Not to mention I was having horrible post-partum depression and had quit
working since my boss wouldn't let me bring two children to work as he did
with my first baby. My dread about my Allie had to have been a combination
of all the changes in our family.
When Allie was nine months old she got chicken pox exactly two weeks after
my nearly three year old contracted it. Jessica had got over it fine, so it
was nothing to worry about. However, while Jess might have had 30 pox over
her entire body, little Allie had over thirty pox on her face alone. She had
pox everywhere, in her mouth, and hemorrhaged spots on her eye balls. It was
April 13 that the first pox appeared. Over a week later the last pox began
to crust over. On April 26th Allie received a catch-up hep B vaccine. I
asked if her having chicken pox was what they meant by being sick. I was
told it was nothing to worry about that Allie wasn't considered sick at that
I remember after Allie had chicken pox she began to refuse foods and seemed
to be in her own world a lot. I mentioned this at her 12 month well-visit. I
also mentioned at her 12, 15, and 18 visits that she wasn't talking yet,
only ate very few foods, and stayed to herself a lot. At her 12 and 15 month
visits I mentioned that she still wasn't walking yet, although making an
effort. But, it might have been difficult for the doc to hear my issues
because Allie would scream every time I put her on the table. A woman at
church asked me if I had had her hearing tested. This was the second time
someone asked me that. I called the doc the following day and and said
something was definitely wrong with her. I didn't tell him, but from 10
months old I believed she was autistic. I don't know why because she wasn't
meeting the symptoms much at that young of an age, but I would find myself
doing searches for autism on the Internet late-night.
July 17, 2001 Allie was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. It was two
weeks before her second birthday. Since that time we have realized her
significant gut problems and improved her with the gluten/casein-free diet,
vitamin supplements, and speech/occupational therapy. I am planning to begin
chelation therapy next month.
I remembered recently that I received a flu vaccine in October/November of
1999. I conceived my Allie in November of 1999. At six week post-partum
checkup I was given a rubella booster while nursing. I told the nurse I was
breastfeeding and she said it didn't matter. "Yeah," I thought. Those
anti-vaccine whackos don't have a clue what they are talking about.
I now have a third daughter, an eleven week-old. I had planned on beginning
one vaccine per month when she is four months old. Now my husband and I see
such a healthy, alert baby we think we're gonna wait until she's at least
three years old. The thought of taking my healthy girl to the doctor and
letting them give her even one vaccine nearly sends me into a panic. I've
had nightmares about it. We've decided to keep her out of the nursery at
church because of germs and rarely take her to the grocery store. Pertussis
still happens where I live and I am afraid of her catching it. But, for our
family, the risk of autism from vaccine is much greater.
If the federal and world governments would stop lying to the people and
saying vaccines are safe for our babies when for some children they
certainly are not, and begin to find why they fail some children, our world
would be a much better place. If we parents would stand up and say that our
babies are not being vaccinated until they find that even one injured child
is one child too much, then the government would get the lead out of its
behind and begin to find the answer. We don't want disease of the past. We
want a 100% safe vaccine record. Even one injured child in ten million is
too much, especially to the mother, father, grandparents, and siblings of
Oh God where do I begin? I am a vaccine injured adult. I am mad as hell.
I was sick with bronchitis and when to the doctor for my yearly female
exam. during which he wanted to give me 2 vaccines, a pneumonia and a
tetanus. I said I am sick, is it safe? He said oh sure it's okay. lets
start out the new century (2000) with a tetanus and then you will know when
your next one is due. so I let the ****** vaccinate me. I had a bad
reaction. I was sick with flu symptoms for about 10 days. I had a rash
that looked like the united states on my arm. I was not well at all. I was
also on prednisone at the time for the bronchitis and asthma. I have been
over medicated all my life. doctors just kept the process going and I let
them. well a month after those shots I developed wrist pain in both
wrists. a month after that I became pregnant. during the pregnancy I
thought I had carpal tunnel. the pain became worse and I could not work.
it was still tolerable, but could not use my hands much. 2 weeks after I
had my baby, all hell broke loose. I apologize for my language, it angers
me beyond words and I am sorry. I woke up one morning and I could NOT
MOVE. I was in so much pain I just cried. I tried to medicate myself, but
nothing worked. I was afraid to go the doctor cause I thought I was dying.
I waited and waited. finally I went back to the moron who gave me the
shots. I still did not know he was the reason why I was sick. he did some
tests and found out I had rheumatoid arthritis. My life has become a living
nightmare and a living hell. I am in pain 24/7. pain meds do not help. I
cannot lift ANYTHING without dropping it. I can barely wipe myself when i
go to the bathroom. there are times it takes me 20 minutes to put on a
bra. the pain gets so bad that I want to just call it quits. I have 4
kids. the 19 month old has been so hard for me to take care of. GOD it is
hard. I could not lift her. I used to have everyone bring her to me to
feed her. I would sit on the floor in my living room with her and just play
with her cause I could not move from the pain and the disability of this
disease. My pain level used to be a 10, now with homeopathic and
osteopathic treatment it is a 7.5. stairs are horrible. I would rather
have all my fingernails pulled off one at a time slowly, every day, than to
go up and down stairs. My joy is gone. I miss being able to do things with
my kids. I miss my husband touching me, he is afraid he will hurt me. I
miss being able to ride a bike. I miss days without pain. I miss my life.
this doctor and the pharmaceutical companies have taken away my life. I
have filed with VAERS and also the vaccine injury compensation program. I
am disabled and on disability. I cannot work. if something happens to my
husband, I have no income except Social security to live on. I did data
entry for a job my whole life. I used to type 110 words a minute with maybe
2 mistakes. Ha, now I cannot type worth a darn. every other word I type
has errors in it. My brain cannot communicate with my hands anymore and my
fingers hurt bad. I am angry, angry at the doctor who put this in my body.
I am angry at the drug companies for making this poisonous substance. My
doctor was the one who figured out it was the vaccines that did it. NO ONE
Is going to inject me or my children ever again with anything. I have been
fighting to get people to know what is happening like yourself. NO ONE
wants to listen to me. they refuse. I have found a new pediatrician for my
kids, one who knows about the dangers of vaccines. If I get one more shot,
I could die. I am lucky to be alive. Since I have been going to my new
doctor, I have not been put on antibiotics, nor have I needed to be. I have
not had more than a slight cold for 2 years. what does that tell you?
VACCINES KILL. I just hope I am around long enough to take care of my baby
and to see my grandkids. thank you and please write me when you have a
chance. I believe in what you are doing.
I would like to tell you about our experiences with vaccine reactions. .
Our son, Robbie, our second child, was perfectly fine and healthy,
developing normally, until the age of 5 months. He was sitting with support
(almost ready to go unsupported), smiling, laughing out loud, rolling over,
and eating well...all the "normal things." He was a joy, and along with our
3 year old daughter, our lives were idyllic. He had his 4 month shots (DTaP,
HiB, and Prevnar) early in December of 2001. By Christmas, he had an awful
cold (or was it?) that wouldn't quit. His doctor put him on an antibiotic (Zithromax)
at the beginning of January, then 5 days later, at what was supposed to be
his "recheck", gave him his 5 month shots (HepB, Polio). Within a week, he
had lost all muscle control, was drooling profusely, stopped smiling,
laughing and playing, and lost his appetite. I literally put a happy
smiling baby to bed one night, and in the morning, picked up a limp baby,
with little responsiveness. I traveled back and forth to the pediatrician,
and made numerous after hours phone calls for 3 weeks. They kept telling me
"nothing was wrong"; "he is fine"; even when I told them that it had
progressed to breathing difficulties and strange eye movements, their only
response was to "give him another round of Zithromax."
Finally, at his 6 month checkup, I was determined that I wasn't going home
until "someone tells me what's wrong." Little did I know the horrors that
would soon begin. The nurse started taking out the vials for his "shots",
and I replied that he was not getting any. She began to berate me, and I
held him out in front of her and screamed, "LOOK AT HIM!!!" He was gasping
for breaths, drooling, his eyes rolling and twitching. The doctor came in,
and told me he needed to be admitted to the hospital. I still had no idea
what was going on. It was Feb. 6, 2002.
the hospital, they diagnosed "seizures", started him on medications and
began running all kinds of tests. They found nothing. He was not
responding to any med they tried (and they tried no less than 5) and we
traveled in and out of ICU. The "helpful" neurologist told us (and I
quote), "I have no idea what is happening here, and I would need an autopsy
to figure out what was wrong." We began searching for a new hospital.
On March 1, we were transferred, via ambulance, with our precious baby on a
ventilator (a precaution, they said) and highly sedated, to another
hospital, which, we were told by many sources, was the best epilepsy center
in New York. Initially, we were thrilled by how they handled him. They
started weaning all the drugs, told us what their new course of action was,
and gave us a lot of hope. It was short lived. We lasted a week in the
epilepsy unit, before we "took up residence" in PICU. We watched other
children come and go, as our baby lay there. He was tried on at least 5
more drugs, a steroid treatment, intravenous immuno-globin, several attempts
at heavy duty IV sedation, and finally an induced coma (which of course,
involved another respirator, for they were trying to mimic "brain death"
with what they called "burst suppression", referring to the EEG pattern).
He contracted several infections, potentially fatal bed sores on his head
and serious withdrawal, as they tried to remove the coma-inducing drug.
Nothing worked. They performed every test known to man looking for some
cause. His blood was sent all over the country, they consulted with
"experts" from all over the world….nothing. Their diagnosis was "idiopathic
epilepsy" meaning "no known cause" and "intractable seizures" meaning
unresponsive to any treatment."
By now, I was starting to question the vaccine roll in all this. I was
told, "No way. Absolutely not." More probably, they said, my husband and I
were carriers of some rare, undiscovered disease. It was now May. They
told us in no uncertain terms…he had failed every drug, was not a surgical
candidate (nothing there to go after!), not a candidate for the nerve
stimulator, we could try the Ketogenic Diet, but it would probably kill him,
or, we could "take him home, as is, knowing that he is a prime candidate for
'sudden unexplained death in epilepsy'…and we have no ethical, medical, or
religious problem with that." So much for bedside manner.
Since we in no way, believed that he had a metabolic or genetic disease, we
tried the diet. It was not super successful, but got us enough control that
they were willing to let him come home, but not before they insisted that he
needed a feeding tube. They would not even let me try to feed him after he
came out of the coma, despite the fact that he had displayed no sucking or
swallowing problems prior to that. We reluctantly agreed, after they spent
2 weeks telling us what terrible parents we were for not agreeing to it.
After several more mishaps, we finally went home on June 24.
We had to have nursing care at home, as his needs were great and he was
severely delayed after all the months of sedation. We found that the
"neurologists" were worthless, showing little concern for him when we went
for office visits. The "team" that was supposed to be managing his diet
(for those who don't know, the Keto diet, is serious medicine, that needs to
be followed and administered carefully), was very neglectful, and he wasn't
doing well at all. But the "kicker" was his pediatrician, who 3 weeks after
his discharge, insisted upon resuming his shots. I was completely worn
down, and reluctantly agreed (still not fully appreciating their role in all
of this). He gave the baby HepB and HiB, and he immediately spiraled
downward again, the seizures returning worse and more violently.
though, in August, we were led to our savior…an osteopath, who is also
practices homeopathy. He identified the cause as vaccine reaction, and
strains upon the brain and skull, probably partially from his birth, and
aggravated by the vaccines. After 5 ½ months of despair and no answers, he
gave us answers, and more importantly hope. He is being treated with
cranial sacral osteopathy and homeopathy...the results are astounding. We
no longer see any neurologist or a "pediatrician," just him. It is slow
going, but we are getting our beautiful boy back. He is now 18 months old,
and though he still cannot even hold his head up or sit alone, he is getting
stronger each day. We have slowly been able to start weaning the drugs,
which I believe, are holding him back developmentally. He is smiling again,
and laughing too (which they told me at the hospital he would never do).
His strength is returning slowly, but steadily. While the feeding tube is
still there (for now), I only use it for meds…he eats by mouth again. We
discontinued the Ketogenic diet in Oct., after his blood work came back
awful, indicating all kinds of dietary deficiencies. He is on a regular
diet, and enjoying his meals. His days are full of Early Intervention
therapies, but he works hard, as if he knows that they are his ticket to
wellness. His seizures are not completely gone (yet), but they are less
severe (much), less frequent, and manageable. We are confident that he will
be rid of them. As of the beginning of Feb., we have been able to let the
nurses go, and our lives are starting to return to normal. I still cringe
whenever I think of that day I let them give my baby shots when he was sick
and on antibiotic, but then, I think too, that the reaction had already
started, and the new round in Jan., was just the straw that broke the
camel's back. I cry every time I think about where we should be now, with 2
kids running around the house and driving me crazy; I cry when I see people
with happy, healthy children his age; I am angry that our lives took such a
horrible turn…but I cannot allow myself to stay in these terrible places. I
have to direct all my energies to getting him well, and know that when he
is, all of this will just be an unpleasant memory, and we will have a happy
We made a report to VAERS, but honestly, I think that is just a waste. They
don't seem really interested in establishing a connection, just placating
angry parents. I find it so hard to get others, even family and close
friends, to see the truth. We have friends who are still vaccinating their
children, even after they have seen first hand what the shots can do. As
for us, we know the truth. I think it is horrible that the government feels
that even the death of one child (or anyone) is acceptable for the "greater
Well, thanks for allowing me my opportunity to vent. I hope sharing our
story helps someone; either to think twice before vaccinating, or to give
another like us hope that healing can happen. God bless us all.
-Janine (March 2003)
My son Nicholas James Walker-Hertzog,
was born on December 13, 2002 at 5:05am. It took an awful lot to get him
here. I spent most of my pregnancy in and out of of the hospital and on
bed rest. Despite the odds against him he came into this world at 6lbs. 6oz.
and 18 inches long. We were very proud of him. He was a very happy and
strong little boy.
Very sadly he only lived until Valentine's Day Feb. 14, 2003. He was only
two months and one day old. I took him to the emergency room at 5:00am (I
only live six houses away from the emergency room so we just ran down the
street with him in my father's arms) and he was pronounced at 5:02am, they
didn't even try to revive my baby. When I found him that morning he was
still warm, he wasn't stiff and he wasn't blue. There was no reason for them
to not try to revive him. He didn't seem like he was under for that long.
Besides they wouldn't know for sure how long he was under for until they did
an autopsy. When my grandfather died in his sleep they still tried to revive
him and he was actually stiff and blood had already began to settle along
his arms and legs. And I read another website dedicated to the memory of a
little girl who died from SIDS and she was stiff and cold when her parents
found her and the EMTs still tried to revive her. If my grandfather and this
other little girl were given the chance to be revived, then why wasn't my
son? It just seemed that the hospital didn't even want to try to save him.
They just wanted to push SIDS on me and call it a day.
At first I was told by the doctor in the emergency room that it was probably
SIDS. Which it very well may have been but I firmly believe that he had a
reaction to the vaccines he was given less than 48 hours before his death.
There is a lot of speculation that vaccines may be a cause for SIDS. And
that may also be true or it may not be true. All I do know is that all of
the information I have read on SIDS states that it is when an infant dies
suddenly (hence the name), showing no signs that something was wrong before
hand, it is what they label an infants death when there is no cause of
Looking back on it now Nicholas showed signs that something was wrong. He
was never the same after we left the doctors office the day he received his
vaccinations (DTaP,IPV,Hib, and Prevnar). He screamed constantly with a very
high pitched cry, he didn't want to eat, and he had gotten very pale. He did
show signs that something was wrong. Myself being a first time mom
contributed his actions to discomfort from being vaccinated. Which his
pediatrician told me he would have since he was getting so many vaccines. I
never thought that when I put him to bed on that night that he would die.
I can see how my sons death is very similar to what happens when babies die
from SIDS. He did die in his sleep and there was nothing found in the
physical autopsy to attribute to his death. Which just basically means all
of his organs looked okay and they were normal. That is true but if he had a
reaction to the vaccines that wouldn't make any of his organs appear
abnormal anyway. I have read and I have been told so many times before and
after my sons birth, "Place him on his back to sleep, and not on his
stomach." I was told this because this is supposed to reduce the risk of
SIDS. However Nicholas never slept on his stomach. He would have tummy time
but I always placed him to sleep on his side or his back. The only risk
factor he had against him was that he was a male and he was born in the
winter. I was told all of that after he died. That 60% of the infants who
die of SIDS are boys, and most of the SIDS deaths occur in the winter. Why
wasn't I told this before hand?
Obviously that information was available then and my doctors knew that he
was going to be a boy (I found that out in August) and that he was going to
born in the winter (I knew that just as soon as I found out I was pregnant)
so there was plenty of time before he was born to tell me that he was at
risk for SIDS, but no one ever told me. I was told about all kinds of other
things, but not SIDS. I was told every time I spoke to his doctor, "move him
around a lot and switch sides while he is laying on his side so his head
won't get flat in one spot." To me that is something cosmetic and I would
much rather have my son here with a flat head than not have him here at all.
I would rather hear about and receive information on something that may
claim his life then hear about something that may only affect his physical
Since my sons death, besides working at a hair salon and day spa, I have
decided to research the link between vaccinations and SIDS. I have come up
with several interesting points. The first being the most obvious. The
highest number of SIDS deaths takes place between the ages of 2 and 4
months. Just the same time our children are being vaccinated at the
heaviest. All of the researches are looking at the vaccines individually for
a cause for SIDS. But maybe its not the vaccines themselves, maybe its just
the quantity and the time they are given. At the time a baby turns two
months old they are given four vaccines. Not one, or two, or three,
but....FOUR!!! And each of those vaccines have several different parts and
several things that they vaccinate against so its like they are really get
much more than four.
When a baby is born it takes three months for their immune system to become
fully developed. So why in the world would doctors put these things in a two
month old body if their immune system isn't fully developed to fight it off?
It just doesn't make any sense to me.
me give you my background... My first daughter, Brittany, was born on Aug.
31, 1993, perfectly healthy and perfectly beautiful. I had just turned 21,
thought I had a decent grasp on motherhood, came from a large family. I
never questioned the necessity of vaccinations, it never occurred to me that
it she didn't HAVE to have them. She didn't have any immediate reactions to
any of her shots, maybe a small fever and a little sleepiness, but nothing
major. In 1995, Brittany had a bout with Asthma, she was diagnosed with it,
but it seems to have gone away. She was only affected by it for about 5-6
months. At the time I didn't see any connection to her vaccinations,
although I think now and I'm not sure if there was a vaccine that she
received at that time.
second daughter, Morgan was born on June 28, 1997, again perfectly healthy
and perfectly beautiful. Again, I didn't question the vaccines because I
still didn't know any better. Morgan never had any immediate reactions
either. Before she turned two I moved to a large city and met some new
friends, we'd just started home schooling. A few of them had never had their
children vaccinated. At first I was surprised, but I was curious, so I
started asking questions about why they didn't vaccinate. It was like a
blazing light was turned on in my head, why had I blindly followed what the
government and the doctors told me was best for my child. At this point I
knew the gov't. didn't know what was best for my child as far as education
was concerned, why would medical be any different. Brittany and Morgan never
received another vaccination.
a few month I was pregnant with Shayna, she was born on June 1, 2000. I
swore on everything that is holy to me that no vaccine would ever touch her
little body. The nurses at the hospital got hostile with me while I was in
recovery for my C-Section because I didn't want them to give her any shots,
or the cream they put in their eyes, none of it. Finally the nurse said that
they had to give her the Vit. K and the cream in the eyes unless I had a
letter from my Pediatrician. *rolls eyes* Naturally given my state at that
moment I caved and said fine, but I made my husband stay with Shayna and
make sure they didn't do anything else to her. I was so paranoid that they'd
try to vaccinate her that she stayed in my room in the hospital every
possible second. The only time she went to the nursery was for an hour each
morning when the ped dr was doing his rounds. (I should have made him walk
to my room every day. LOL) Anyhow, I thought I had escaped all these horror
stories that I was finding on the internet about babies dying after
vaccines, etc. On Memorial Day, May 28, 2001, Brittany was diagnosed with
Type 1 Diabetes. I had rushed her to the ER because she'd lost a lot of
weight, her face was pale, eyes sunken, short and shallow breaths, rapid
heartbeat. When we got to the hospital her sugar was 594, she had large
ketones and large quantities of blood in her urine. We stayed in the
hospital for 4-1/2 days, had major cramming sessions with her new
endocrinologist, dietician and Diabetes Educator Nurse. My 3 new best
friends. I asked the dr the day she was dx'd what caused it, he asked about
family history, there is absolutely none on either side, mine or her
father's. He said that they are suspecting a virus that may be causing it.
He said it was a flu-like virus, hence hard to detect. I believed every word
he said, I didn't know any different. I didn't know at the time that
vaccines were being connected to IDDM (Insulin Dependent Diabetes Mellitus).
It was a perfect cover-up, whether he intentionally covered or if that is
what has been fed to him. Bet your ass I'm going to ask him the next
appointment she has in April. The issues with her kidneys (blood in the
urine) have been resolved, the nephrologist is satisfied that there has been
no permanent damage done to her kidneys yet. She goes to the ophthalmologist
every year, she just saw him Monday, she doesn't have any Diabetic
Retinopathy yet. I wouldn't mind seeing all these doctors if they would just
stop using the word YET. On the whole she is doing good, but it is very
difficult to keep her sugars level. There are times when I just want to
chuck it all out the window and give up, however, I know she would die in a
fairly short period of time.
received his vaccinations Fri. Jan. 10, 2003. He weighed in at 16lbs and was
24 and a half inches long. In the afternoon. He slept all day Sat. We could
not hardly wake him up to feed him. He slept all day Sunday also. Sun
evening he was running a low grade fever about 101. During church he started
crying and we prayed for him because we thought he just felt bad because of
his shot. Fever is a well know side affect. When we left church his fever
had subsided. Monday he seemed fussy but not bad. My daughter had a doctors
appt in Mineral Wells which is about 24 miles from where we live. So she
took Isaiah with her. She had been in the doctors office for about 30minutes
when she called me to please come get him she said he had been screaming
since she left and she couldn’t get him to quiet down. I drove to pick him
up and when I got there one of the girls in the office was holding him and
he was screaming. I took him and I couldn’t console him. I had never seen
anything like it. I could always get him to quit crying. I left and when we
started driving he stopped crying. We went to Wal-Mart and bought a few
things and when we started checking out he started screaming again. We left
and he screamed most of the way home. He was real fussy that night. I don’t
remember about Tuesday but my Mom who kept him during the day said that Wed.
he was real fussy, and just needed to be held. He was also waking up a lot
during the night . Thursday night he seemed fine, I bathed him and took him
to see a friend of mine. He was laughing and talking to me. I rocked him to
sleep when we got home. The next morning my daughter woke up and found him
story began 16 years ago, without any support from other Moms. I thought my
son was the only child in the world who was affected. I had no idea what was
wrong, but I didn't give up trying to find out. I had a 54 hour labor with
my little gem! When he was born, he was very jaundiced. When that was
resolved he became very constipated for periods of weeks, then there were
periods of explosive diarrhea. Tried to breastfeed he seemed allergic.
Switched to formula, and went through at least five. Soy caused projectile
vomiting. No sleeping, no naps, I know most of you Moms know what I'm
talking about!! At 3 1/2 we went to see Dr. Doris Rapp in Buffalo, New York.
We were there for three days. He had allergy testing, and he was allergic to
about 50 different foods and inhalants. She put him on her course of
treatments much like the DAN Drs. today. He finally hit the weight and
growth charts for the first time at 5 years old. Hooray!!
My son couldn't take any changes. He lined up toys, he did not pretend play.
He had meltdowns where he hit, bit, but was actually adding through the
tables up to four at two. From the time he was 18 months old he was doing
puzzles for 5 to 10 year olds. I thought this was normal being my first
child, until my sisters informed me NO WAY! This is getting too long! He was
diagnosed with Asperger's at age 14. He developed all his language on time.
My purpose at this time is vaccine awareness. No one informed me, it's
imperative other parents are informed. After the DPT at four months he had
an encephalitic reaction. His first MMR booster, he was hospitalized with
severe gastroenteritis. IV in a baby is no fun! I went through all my AS
son's records and found out he was back at the peds after every vaccine, and
he either lost or didn't gain weight for at least a month.
My little three yr. old son had a hypo-responsive reaction to his third DTaP
vaccine. At nine months, he developed almost a full body rash underneath his
skin after the Prevnar vaccine, which had only been approved for one month.
Something also very weird happened. It was the only vaccine he received that
day. I was holding him and watched the needle go in, I saw a lot of blood,
and some of the vaccine itself come back out. The ped handed my husband a
tissue, and told him to wipe the baby off. My husband is a contractor, and
his hands are always full of splits. Three days later, he came down with a
fever of 104 degrees. He couldn't lift his head, the pains in the back of
his head and neck were so horrendous. I have never seen this man so sick. It
lasted for a month with every test imaginable done. The only thing he
wouldn't do was a spinal tap. In retrospect I wish he had done it. A
rheumatoid arthritis titer was positive, which he had seen a specialist for.
At this time, all titers are negative. He couldn't work, and the fevers
continued. An apt was made with an infectious diseases specialist, but right
before the apt, his fever subsided. I believe he had Pneumococcal
meningitis. I spoke with the PCP about it, and he said that there is an
incubation period. I said this didn't go in the usual route, which he had no
My journey began a long time ago, and I've spent countless hours researching
the medical conditions that could cause the symptoms our children go
through. On the vaccine issue I've spent more time. Our kids have immune,
genetic and neurological frailties. They need to be tested before these
needles are stuck in these precious bodies. Most of my time and efforts,
(besides taking care of five boys, and a husband) has been devoted to this
cause through Childscreen. Since last February I've had my head buried in
research, and also helping with the website. I'm also very active with
getting vaccine information out to all the groups.
Below, I'm including some of the package insert from Dow Chemicals DPT from
the 1960's. My sister's children were all born in the '60's, and her
pediatrician fractioned their doses, because they all reacted. I was
diagnosed with a dairy allergy at birth, as well as my two sons. I believe
my three yr. olds vaccine reaction was a blessing in disguise, because the
next would have been the MMR, CP, and fourth DTaP. There are more allergic
reactions recorded with the DTaP than the whole cell pertussis.
Dow Chemical Company's DPT product insert in the 1960's states: "fractional
doses are recommended in infants with cerebral injury, asthma, a strong
family history of allergy..." In 1961, Hooper found that in a group of
babies who reacted violently to the pertussis vaccine, there was twice as
much eczema, asthma, hay fever, and allergic skin rashes in the child, his
brothers and sisters, parents, and grandparents as there was in a control
group of the same size. In 1969, Hannik found a positive family history of
allergies in a significant proportion of infants who reacted with high
pitched screaming, shock and convulsions.
A 1982 study by Stienman concludes that genetic predisposition may play a
role in pertussis vaccine reactions and suggests that a personal or family
history of allergies, particularly milk allergy, may be a warning sign.
Steinman's work has been reinforced by reports from parents whose children
are allergic to milk and have reacted to the vaccine. An allergy to milk
may be manifested by severe constipation, diarrhea, projectile vomiting or
frequent spitting up of significant amounts of milk after bottle or breast
feeding, persistent crying after feedings (colic), eczema or recurrent skin
Aust Fam Physician 1976 Jul;5(6):734-55
Over-immunization-an ever present problem.
The development of purified vaccines for the control of common infectious
diseases may lead to a sense of false security and a tendency to
over-immunize. Repeated antigenic challenge may cause hypersensitivity
reactions which could harm the individual. For each vaccine there is an
optimum time and age for dosing; for those vaccines requiring a course of
doses, there is a minimum but no maximum time interval between the doses. In
Australia, active immunization is conducted on a regular basis against seven
preventable infectious diseases. In this article, the vaccine control each
disease is discussed briefly and suggestions made to avoid hyperimmunization.
The need to appreciate the dangers inherent in all immunization procedures
in general, and in certain vaccines in particular, is emphasized.
Indiscriminate immunization cannot be condoned
I'm Kate, stay at home mom to 4 children, aged 7, 5, 2-1/2 and 2 months. I
started questioning vaccines when my daughter (the 5 year old) was 16 months
old and developed epilepsy. She was nearly due for her 18 month booster, and
I read somewhere that children with a personal or family history of seizures
should not receive the pertussis vaccine. I asked around, got different
answers everywhere, and realized I had better figure it out on my own. My
daughter's MMR was the last vaccine any of my children received.
Unfortunately, we think it was one too many, because we now look back and
think it was the cause of my daughter's seizures. Thankfully, she has now
been pretty much seizure free for 3 years and med free for 2, so we are very
lucky. I'm now gearing up for the upcoming battle over my youngest not
getting the shots.
I am Juli mother to vaccine damaged
Nicollette diagnosed with Rett Syndrome. Considering that they have never
really tested vaccines for carcinogenic and mutagenic effects there is no
way they can dismiss the possibility also if it can cause cancer and genetic
mutations in rats and bunnies how so do they think humans will be any more
special as to not suffer similar affects? Think about it. Rett Syndrome,
Fragile X (which is similar as it also like Rett Syndrome effects the X
chromosome) and Angelman Syndrome amongst countless other 'brand new'
genetic diseases weren't seen, or observed, or about, fifty
years ago. many of these conditions are cropping out in 1960s, 1970's. 1980s
just out of nowhere.
Have the child tested for stealth viruses, also metals levels. You may be
surprised at what you find. Just a lot of mislabeling, separate the
conditions but its all the same *VACCINE DAMAGE*.
Okay but I went and got Child Protective Services called on me days after
arguing with a genetic doctor and some others because you get informed and
dare challenge them and question them and that's what happens. But 'tis
because I know the truth now and it doesn't take much to realize common
sense when it stares at you in the face. So I don't care about their medical
licenses hanging on their walls. You read through the Pubmed/medline
publications and its
all there. And it's the price of being deliberately misled.
I am sorry about your friend. Rett Syndrome is a terrible condition.
Nicollette is doing well with DAN doctors and homeopaths. Please steer your
friend away from conventional medicine. Nicollette would be tubefed, in a
wheel chair on six different harsh medications all with a different side
effects of their own if I continued her under their care. She runs, swims,
self feeds and
these are skill she lost that were REGAINED through alternative methods that
Child Protection and social services seem to constantly question. And now
the meds say that it's simply that Nicollette is higher functioning. These
girls conditions can get bad fast. And traditional medicine will only make
things worse. I've seen it happen with Nicollette. she is now on no
drugs, just supplements and special diets and I'm not letting any of them
near her to ruin the progress she has made.
Here is this from ouralexander.org:
This information is taken directly from their inserts as it is published in
the Physicians' Desk Reference (PDR, 51st edition, Medical Economics Co.
Inc., 1997). The last column is of most interest.
TYPE OF VACCINE MANUFACTURER BRAND NAME AGES PRESCRIBED STUDIES ON
CARCINOGENIC POTENTIAL ACCORDING
Chickenpox (Varicella) Merck Varivax 12 months and older
No studies conducted
DTP Lederle Tetramune 2 months to 5 years "Tetramune has not been evaluated
for its carcinogenic or mutagenic potential."
DTP Lederle Tri-Immunol 2 months to 7 years
No studies conducted
DTP Connaught Tripedia 15 months to 7 years
"Tripedia has not been evaluated for its carcinogenic or mutagenic
DTP Lederle Acel-Immune 17 months to 7 years "Acel-Immune has not been
evaluated for its carcinogenic or mutagenic potential"
DTP(whole cell pertussis)SmithKline Beecham 6 weeks to 7 years "Animal and
human studies concerning possible
carcinogenic or teratogenic effects have not been done."
Hepatitis A SmithKline Beecham Havrix Over two years old "Havrix has not
been evaluated for its carcinogenic
or mutagenic potential."
Hepatitis B Merck Recombivax "infants"
No studies conducted
Influenza type b
Haemophilus b conjugate
with diphtheria protein Lederle HibTITER 2-71 months
"HibTITER has not been evaluated for its carcinogenic or mutagenic
Influenza type b
Haemphilus b conjugate
with tetatus toxoid conjugate Connaught ActHIB 2 months to 5 years
No studies conducted
Japanese encephalitis virus Connaught JE-VAX One year and older "No studies
have been performed to evaluate
carcinogenicity or mutagenic potential."
Measles live Merck Attenuvax 15 months and older
No studies conducted
Measles, Mumps, Rubella live Merck M-M-R 15 months and older No studies
Measles, Rubella (live) Merck M-R-Vax 15 months and older No studies
Mumps (live) Merck Mumpsvax 12 months and older No studies conducted
Polio (live) Lederle Orimune 6 weeks to 18 years No studies conducted
Poliovirus (inactivated) Connaught IPOL "infants, children and adolescents"
"Studies in animals to evaluate
carcinogenic potential have not been conducted."
Rubella and mumps (live) Merck Biavax II 12 months and older
No studies conducted
Rubella (live) Merck Meruvax 12 months to puberty
No studies conducted
None of the vaccines injected into children have ever been tested for their
carcinogenic (cancer causing), mutagenic (mutation causing), or teratogenic
(developmental malformation causing) potential. Not a single one. Can these
chemicals that are injected into healthy children cause cancer? The people
manufacturing the vaccines (the drug companies) and the bureaucrats
mandating the drugs can't say because no studies have ever been conducted.
In summary, federal
and state governments are mandating that infants and children swallow and be
injected with substances that have never been tested for their ability to
cause cancer, mutations or developmental malformations. In the meantime, the
companies are grossing billions of dollars on sales of these potentially
read more at: http://ouralexander.org/burton.htm
is fully vaccinated and Jillian has only 6 months of vaccines, and to be
honest I really don't know which ones she has had! I know I need to get that
info and see what she has had. Anyway, when I was pregnant with Jillian a
friend at church mentioned that vaccines were damaging. I thought she was
nuts, and then I had read a few things, this made me wonder, but not enough
to not vaccine. DH also mentioned he didn't want the baby vaccinated, but
didn't give me evidence as to why. It was not until 3/01 that I started
researching and reading and finding out the horrors of vaccines. I had met
this woman who didn't vaccinate and she told me of some book titles and so I
read them and was just shocked.
Some of the problems Adrina has had that I believe are due to vaccines are
the following: Night terrors (she'd wake up screaming in the middle of the
night or from naps....but not be really awake. She would thrash around and
scream uncontrollably. After certain shots she would sleep for 24hrs (give
or take an hour or 2) and she was not able to be awakened! This scared
me.....24hrs with out eating or drinking a single thing! It was like she was
in a coma. Also at the injection sites she would swell up and have a large
red & hot lump. Other times she would just cry and cry. I never really
thought anything of it, just thought it was normal.
She had trouble with bedwetting until a few months before her 7th birthday.
I read this is also a problem from vaccines....but not 100% sure if her case
is linked, but I don't doubt it is. She gets sick more than her little
sister does. And recently they had
this nasty virus that really knocked their immune system down, and SHE wound
up with ITP (a blood disorder) and DH & I believe Jillian didn't get this
because her system has not been "damaged" in the ways that Adrina's has by
Jillian is/was alot more alert and interactive up to the age she is now (2½)
than Adrina ever was. Jillian started to shows signs of going in the same
direction as Adrina when she was being vaxed....(the sleeping, crying, and
red/hot lumps from shots)
Anyway, that is our story.
My brother: completely deaf in one ear,
partial hearing loss in second ear -result of MMR vaccine as child -
subsequent severe life-threatening asthma and allergies
Me: 10 years old - nonlockjaw tetanus from tetanus shot. 20 years old
-developed measles and mumps after MMR in college (1989), subsequent severe
food allergies, animal and environmental allergies, every hairspray, every
makeup, every facial cleanser, you name it - I am allergic to it. IBS, CFS,
myofacial pain syndrome, etc., etc.
My daughter (5.5) - began hitting herself in the face after developing
measles from MMR, developed sensory integration dysfunction - intolerant to
My son (2) - born perfectly healthy,
robust 9 lbs., 10 oz. - very happy,easy baby, nursed well, was sleeping
through night, early babbling sounds until the first round of shots. Then by
16 months: mercury poisoning - was severely autistic, headbanging 50 - 100
times per day, spinning, stims, licking things, not with us, had never
played with toys, severe reflux with
aspiration, severe food allergies, leaky gut syndrome, severe yeast, phenol
intolerance, OT issues, nonverbal - all problems began immediately following
first round of shots - fast forward to today - not a single autistic
behavioral trait detectable, still dealing with leaky gut and food
intolerances. Must remain casein, gluten, soy, corn - free - can only eat
six foods: rice, potato, pear, chicken, pork, and brocolli. Elimination
diet, homeopathy, and supplements are keeping autistic behaviors at bay.
"Bad" food exposure causes relapse. Developmentally aged at 12 months.
Introduction of Culturelle (probiotic) and last few rounds of homeopathy -
XXXXXX talks! Nonstop! :) Can't understand a word he says but by golly we
My friends pre-d (for me that is "pre-discovery" of the pharma-cartel and
the disgusting truth about vaccines) do not understand me and do not want to
know the truth. So I can't talk about it there. My husband's family thinks
my son is "too beautiful to be autistic" and that we can deal with the "food
allergies" because they are "no big deal." My husband and my mother are the
only ones that understand. And, of course, my beloved email friends - THANK
YOU! Unfortunately, that means I have no one to refer for the group. Life
post-vaccine-damaged child is very lonely.
I look forward to learning from all of you. Unfortunately, I work from home
and my time is limited so my checking in will be sporadic but I'll be here.
Hi, my name is Ellen Sweeney, I am a single mom to 5 kids, 2 with
developmental disabilities and 1 child with Asthma/Reactive Airway disease.
My other 2 children have no issues. We reside in Brick, NJ.
Kim is 12 and my oldest. She developed Hydrocephalus at the age of 3 months
just 2 weeks after her 2 month shots-HepB, DTaP, and HiB. She was shunted
at 8 months after 5 months of testing and therapies . She was diagnosed
less than a year ago with ADHD, OCD, ODD, and a co-morbid anxiety/mood
Megan is 8 and my 3rd child. When she was born she had an Apgar score of 10
She was one of those 24 hour release babies, receiving her HepB vax the
morning of discharge at 1 day old. She developed a pneumothorax(collapsed
lung)12 hours post-vaccination. She was diagnosed with ashtma at the age of
6 months. The next 7 years were spent with numerous doctors visits, ER
trips, and hospital stays to treat her asthma, on more than one occasion er
attacks were labelled "life-threatening" by her pulmonologist.
Nicholas, is age 7 and my 4th child. He was developing normally through his
first year, meeting all developmental milestones at or sooner than targeted
age. He spoke, was very responsive to touch, and enjoyed the company of his
siblings. Each immunization he received in his first year of life resulted
in a reaction---fever, lethargy, etc. At 13 months of age he received his
MMR vaccination and I truly believe that this immunization dealt the final
blow to his delicate immune system. After a period of about only a few
weeks, he began to change, losing words, tantrumming, stimming, screaming
when touched, and refusing to eat.....by the time he was 16 months, he lost
all skills. I was told by our pediatrician at the time that he was going
through a "phase". At 22 months he began head-banging and SIB. He was
diagnosed with Autism 2 weeks shy of his 2nd birthday. He was also
subsequently diagnosed with ADHD, Semantic Pragmatic Language Disorder at
the age of 4 1/2 and Heavy Metal Toxic at the age of 6.
I have been researching the dangers of vaccines for close to a year and I
truly believe their is a correlation between my children's issues and their
vaccinations. My children were all vaccinated in the past but now have a
religious exemption from immunization. I am currently the NJ chapter
director for The Autism Autoimmunity Project and am attempting to start a
local group to educate the public on the dangers of vaccines and to also
support and education parents on their treatment options and educational
rights for their children. Most parents here place an undeserving trust in
their child's doctor to tell them what is best for them, without informing
them of the dangers of vaccination. I am hoping to play a part in making
sure this changes and parents become informed. No child should suffer the
way my children have and still do.
Nicholas is 6 yrs old, diagnosed with Autism, ADHD, Semantic Pragmatic
Language Disorder(SPLD), and Heavy Metal Toxicity. Nicholas was born and was
developing neurotypically until the age of 13 months immediately following
his MMR. All routine vaxes up to that point were given, and after all he
exhibited a fever, rash, swelling at the injection site, and insomnia after
his first DTaP, the opposite happened and I had trouble waking him). After
he was given the MMR, he just seemed to change. My once playful affectionate
and happy child slipped away from us . He began stimming, banging his head,
tantrumming and lost all the speech he had acquired to that point. At the
age of 2 yrs and after insistence for awhile by his pediatrician that he was
going "through a stage", Nicholas was diagnosed with Autism. At the age of
4, he was diagnosed with ADHD and SPLD. After 3 years of behavioral and
speech therapies, Nicholas improved but wasn't completely well...When
Nicholas was 6, I became aware of the link between vaccination and Autism
and had him tested for metal toxicity. It was at this time he was diagnosed
with Heavy Metal Toxicity due to high levels of mercury, aluminum, cadmium,
arsenic, iron, lead....I truly believe Nicholas's vaccines played an
integral part of his development of his disabilities, each vaccine affecting
his delicate developing neurological and immune systems, with the MMR
delivering the final devastating blow. We are slowly on our way to recovery
preparing his delicate system for the rigors of chelation to remove the
metals from his body and to make his body well again.....The journey will be
a long one but it is one I am willing to take to help my son recover and
return to us, healthy and happy once again........
We, as parents, placed an undeserving trust in the medical community to tell
us what was necessary to help protect our children and keep them out of
harm's way and as a result, my son became vaccine-damaged.... Our government
needs to realize and acknowledge the damaging effects that mandatory
vaccines have on our children. I lost my neurotypical son to vaccine-damage
as did countless other parents due to the dangerous vaccines that the
medical community push on us to help "protect" them...Some children have
even lost their lives as a result of vaccine side-effects....All these
children are not acceptable losses to us.....Our main question is when is
this loss going to become unacceptable to our government and to the medical
community? When is it going to end?
Ellen Sweeney, Brick, NJ (firstname.lastname@example.org)
Mentally handicapped gun collector arrested in Mora shooting death
Published August 15, 2003
MORA, Minn. -- A mentally handicapped gun collector was charged Thursday in
a triple shooting that killed his mother and wounded his father and
stepmother. Ryan C. Miller, 26, was charged with second-degree murder and
two counts of attempted first-degree murder. Kanabec County Sheriff Steve
Schulz said they no motive for the shootings. ``I really don't know why he
went off,'' he said. In a court statement three years ago, Miller's mother,
Deborah Miller, said her son was disabled and ``emotionally, mentally,
physically and socially delayed from the seizures, surgery and medications''
he had experienced.
Her son began to have seizures at age 2 1/2 after a vaccination, and they
were so severe that they could not be controlled by medication alone, his
mother said. In 1988, at age 10, he had a temporal lobectomy, surgery to
remove part of the brain where seizures seemed to originate. She said in
2000 that he had then been seizure-free for more than two years. Various
neighbors described the man as ``slow,'' someone who made them nervous, but
a man who loved his parents and gave tips on gardening.
Sometimes Miller seemed to be ``a 26-year-old man caught in the mind of a
boy,'' said neighbor Harley Anderson. ``He's always been really a sweetheart
to us.'' The shootings left Deborah Miller, 49, dead; Randolph Miller, 53,
wounded in the neck and Laurie Miller, 46, with a shoulder wound. Randolph
and Laurie Miller were expected to survive. The sheriff, neighbors and court
records portray a split family, often prickly relationships with some
residents of their rural neighborhood and a son who sometimes walked along
the highway carrying a rifle. Schulz said Miller shot his mother in the head
with a rifle Tuesday at her home, then apparently walked across vacant land
to his father's house less than a mile away. It appeared that the father was
shot once outside the house and the stepmother was shot once as they drove
away, the sheriff said.
Miller was arrested several hours later while lying on the living room floor
of his father's house, the sheriff said. ``He's talked to us'' but did not
give a motive, he said. People who knew Miller said he loved collecting old
guns - especially World War II rifles.
Several neighbors said they frequently heard shooting on the Millers'
property. Milo Kadlec said Miller told him that when he gets angry, ``I go
out and shoot.'' Ronnie Hendershot said he was working on a boat trailer in
his yard Tuesday when ``I heard the shooting going on for the longest time.
``I thought it was somebody sighting their deer rifle,'' he said. ``But it
kept going on. I thought to myself 'Geez, are they ever going to get it
sighted in?''' It wasn't until after officers arrived that he knew something
was wrong. Miller had been accused of making terroristic threats to a
coworker in 1999, Schulz said. No charge shows up on computerized state and
county records, however. The sheriff said he knew of no domestic calls
involving the family but ``a few minor incidents'' involving property
disputes with neighbors.
In email@example.com, "Steve Z" <jjmaterials@m...>
A Child's Severe Reaction to a Vaccine Alters Life Something was wrong with
By Sarah Bridges
Sunday, August 3, 2003; Page W12
This is the lesson you don't get in the parenting books: Sometimes bad
things happen from doing the right thing for your baby.
Porter's high-pitched scream woke us at midnight. When I ran to the nursery
and picked him up, his sleeper was damp and his head flopped to the side. My
husband grabbed the phone and punched in the number for the
"Hurry," I yelled, even though Brian was dialing as fast as he could. He
reached for Porter, then handed me the phone. "It's the nurses' line," he
"What's the problem?" a voice on the other end asked calmly.
"Our baby has a fever and is listless. He was fine today," I
doctor said he was perfectly healthy at his well-baby appointment this
"Did he get his vaccines?"
"It's probably the shots -- fevers are typical after the DPT."
"But he isn't waking up."
Her voice changed. "Get to the emergency room -- I'll tell them you
Brian pulled Porter's 2-year-old sister, Tyler, out of her bed and
her, still sleeping, into her car seat. The freeway was empty as we
to the hospital, the windows in the car opened for air. Porter lay on
with his eyes closed, and my legs felt hot under his body. We turned
the bar with the sign that read, "THE BEST TIME OF YOUR LIFE."
A nurse met us at the emergency room entrance and carried Porter to an
examining room. Within minutes of arriving, Porter began a 90-minute
mal seizure. Watching helplessly, I was pressed against the wall as a
jammed a breathing tube down my son's throat. Porter, just 4 months
lurched on the table while nurses stuck syringes of Valium into his
After a minute, the doctor turned to me and said, "Don't worry, we'll
it. I'm sure about that. It's just that we may need to sedate him to
point that he'll quit breathing." In that instant, in that one
everything I took for granted vanished.
At first, the doctors thought Porter would be fine. They said it was
reaction -- a rare side effect to the pertussis vaccine, which can
cause seizures in some children and brain injury in others -- but that brain
damage was so rare we shouldn't think much about it. Of course, I
think of anything else but the worst-case scenario. When Porter awoke
piece, he seemed alert, but beyond that we were guessing. The day
seizure the pediatrician asked, "Does he still do the same things he
before the reaction?" My mind went blank as I struggled to recall what
exactly a 4-month-old did.
After 72 hours in the hospital Porter was smiling again, and by the
the day he was allowed to go home. Porter seemed fine, and I told
who asked about him how lucky we were.
And then two weeks later he stopped breathing.
I was home alone getting ready for work and drying my hair as Porter
beside me on a blanket. When I smiled down at him, Porter's eyes were
and his lips were blue. I screamed and put my cheek against his mouth
check if he was breathing. I didn't feel anything. I grabbed the
punched in 911, tapping my foot through two slow rings.
"Emergency, can I help you?"
"My baby stopped breathing."
"Tell me what he looks like."
I screamed, "His face is blue!" as I clutched Porter in my arms.
She said loudly, "You need to stop yelling so I can help you." I
myself to concentrate as she guided me through baby CPR, and I did the
two-fingered presses until I heard the rescue truck pull up outside.
lived a block from the station, so the firefighters came first,
the stairs in blue coveralls and boots. A case like a tackle box
wall beside me as they circled around Porter and then moved me out of
the way. A man dropped to his knees and took over for me until Porter
breathing -- one quick little gasp.
We scrambled into the ambulance and the paramedic tucked a bear onto
stretcher beside Porter, saying, "The church ladies make these." I
the numbers on the oxygen gauge flash every few seconds -- holding my
breath, fixated on the monitor.
Once at the hospital we learned that the original seizure wasn't a
the first in what would become an intractable seizure disorder. This
Porter had stopped breathing, as people sometimes do, in the midst of
intense episode. As they hooked Porter to a breathing monitor we
take home, a doctor in clogs pulled me aside. I recognized him
immediately -- he had treated Porter during his first hospitalization.
"I filed a report with the CDC about Porter's reaction to the
shot. Do you know about the National Vaccine Injury Act?" I shook my
"It's a program set up by Congress to compensate for the medical
children injured by vaccines. I think you might want to look into
that he handed me a phone number and turned down the hall to answer a
I tucked the paper into my pocket, reassuring myself that it wasn't
bad. After all, they said Porter just had epilepsy -- and I knew that
Following the second hospitalization, Porter began taking
cringed at the thought of giving my 5-month-old a barbiturate. The
I had done on it studying for my PhD in experimental psychology
that it could impair a child's intelligence. Porter's neurologist put
fears in perspective when he said, "The New England Journal of
did a big study of the drug and found that it may lower IQ by five
don't think that small a drop is even noticeable." I mixed the
into jam that night and fed them to Porter.
While I understood that the majority of people with a seizure disorder
respond to medication, Porter's seizures continued unabated. By the
his second year he'd been hospitalized 14 times to stop seizures --
which went on for hours. Though Porter received no definitive
during this time, the early language and behavior problems he was experiencing indicated he might have autism -- something we gradually
to believe was true.
After 12 different medications, two more years and no change in the
seizures, I came to stop investing hope in traditional medicine.
broadly on the subject of health, I came across the books of Andrew
decided a natural approach to eating might make a difference. One
stripped the processed food out of the pantry, bought organic, got a
filter and threw out the microwave. We added vitamins to Porter's
diet,scrapped the Froot Loops, stopped eating meat and stocked up on tofu.
The whole family got into the act, and it soon became clear that the
diet was affecting Porter's sister, Tyler -- more than we guessed.
while Tyler was eating tofu pups, our babysitter told me, "The minute
went out this morning Tyler pulled me over to the freezer."
"What did she want?"
"She didn't say anything at first, she just opened the door and
After looking around she said, 'Quick, Mom's gone, can we have some
Despite giving up meat for tofu, the change was worth it. The natural
seemed to be working. For 24 days straight Porter went without a
gave the doctor weekly updates, and he encouraged me, saying, "I'd
if you find something that works for Porter. It's obvious I can't
But just as quickly, the diet stopped working. The first time Porter
seizure after we began the diet, I blamed it on something else (he
or tired), and carried on as if nothing had happened. But then he had
another seizure that night, and it was impossible to deny.
I saw the doctor the next day, and again he raised the medications,
"They can always go higher." Giving Porter an extra dose controlled
seizures for several weeks with one drawback: The medication revved
and his activity level soon eclipsed the original problem.
a good-sized 4-year-old, he was capable of significant destruction.
beforehand there was time to take a breath after a seizure. Now I
the unstructured time of weekends. One particular Saturday was
the way our days were taking shape: By 9 a.m. Porter had microwaved a
and scribbled on the walls. Then I heard clapping and ran into the
to find that he'd stuffed the toilet with toothbrushes and Kleenex. He
giggled and said, "Don't touch knives," as the bowl overflowed.
As I sopped up the water with towels, Porter darted past me and threw
around the living room, yelling, "EAT DOG."
We needed to get out of the house, so I loaded the kids into the car
drive to an indoor park while Brian unclogged the toilet. Upon
piled our coats on a metal bench and lined up for the slide.
At the top of the slide steps, a boy Porter's age asked him, "Do you
go first or should I?" Porter flapped his hands and jumped up and
he turned around and bolted down the steps, knocking over a toddler.
I set her back on her feet and said, "Slow down, Porter."
He looked at me and answered, "Hi, Porter."
"Right -- slow down." Porter climbed on the platform behind him, grabbed the fire pole, and
jumped. He hung there, stuck, unable to figure out how to slide to the
ground, until I lifted him down.
"Don't do that," I told him. A minute later he was dangling on the
again. We repeated this four more times until I was distracted taking
drink of water. I looked back just in time to see a hearty woman in
boots falling on her back with Porter on top of her. The only warning
had was when Porter yelled, "Jump!"
"I am sorry," I said, as I pulled the woman to her feet.
She looked dazed. "He's much faster than he looks."
I grabbed our coats and called Tyler to go.
She walked over slowly. "But we just got here."
"I know, but Porter's getting in trouble."
"We never stay at the park."Come on -- we need to go."
While unlocking the car, I told Porter to stay by my side, but a
later he declared, "Home," and headed off across a snowy field. He
toward a frozen lake and I raced to catch up to him, then led him
the car and buckled him into the booster seat.
As we made our way out of the parking lot, Tyler asked, "On my
I stay at the park for at least 10 minutes?"
Family life wasn't the only area affected by Porter's behavior. When
day-care providers told us that they could no longer watch him due to
hyperactivity, our social worker recommended a specialist, a
professor in my
psychology doctoral program and an expert in managing difficult
arrived at our house after dinner and sat on the floor to observe our
family. Within moments, he laid out his straightforward
unwanted behavior is your best weapon."
Porter threw a block and hit him in the back of the head.
"What about tantrums?" I asked.
"Even in the grocery store?"
"Yes, stay detached -- just pick up any food he throws." I tried to
doing this. "But, if he does cross the border of appropriateness,
need to act."
"You need to save the nuclear weapon for that -- the basket hold."
technique involves pinning your child's arms to his side and carrying
I tried the doctor's advice the very next time we were at the
Zone, when Porter saw a party and ran over to grab a piece of pizza
birthday boy's hands. The psychologist's advice seemed great until I
realized that I'm not good at ignoring screaming. And I'm terrible at
out the stares of other parents -- the ones who never carry their
through the produce aisle in a basket hold. Instead, I scooped up
one arm and one leg, and carried him around the kids in the birthday
and toward the parking lot. Walking past one 5-year-old boy in the
heard him ask, "Can I have an airplane ride when he's done?"
Another seizure, another hospitalization. I knew from our last
that the drugs would make Porter sleep for a day. We watched him
until lunchtime, sitting in his ICU room, Tyler stretched out on the
building a tower out of tongue depressors. When we finally went to the
parents' lounge to eat takeout pizza, Tyler skipped ahead of us
the way, still in her feety pajamas from the night before.
As we finished our meal, Brian sighed and said, "The screen door at
ripped -- animals are going to get into the porch."
"We'll fix it later." I said it too loudly, and the family next to us
stopped chewing and stared.
"When?" he asked. "We never have time to get anything done."
"It's not even that cold yet."
"I've got over 40 finals to correct -- I'm constantly behind."
"I can't handle thinking about anything right now," I snapped.
"It's not as if everything else in our lives stops." The woman next
beckoned Tyler over and gave her a fortune cookie.
I heard her say, "Look out, they're stale," as Tyler pulled up a
"Let's talk about it later, Brian."
"You always get so cool and practical," he said.
"And you always sound depressed."
"I've already missed two weeks at work -- I only have two more sick
"They'll understand," I said.
"It's not that easy -- you always want to make it sound simple."
"We have to get through this, and then we can figure it out."
We both stood and cleared our plates, leaving our extra napkins under
note about prayer services.
Shortly after this, Brian and I nearly split up. But before giving in
tried marriage counseling and made a commitment to work harder. As we
forward to what lay ahead, we decided to have another baby. I'd
to have at least three children, and we believed it would be good for
to have a sibling she could truly talk to.
But there was more to it than that. I secretly wanted a chance to
for what had happened to Porter. I didn't blame myself -- I knew
that I hadn't done anything wrong. But on some level, being unable to
him year after year was equally bad. For this reason, I was
determined to do
everything exactly right for the next baby. It started with my
diet -- when Brian stopped at the grocery store on the way home from
gave him my list: "Spinach, lean meat, fruits, and cheese. NO JUNK
Brian glanced at it and said, "What's this?"
"I'm off sugar. And can you get those eggs from the chickens who
classical music and run free?"
Our focus continued after our baby, Jackson, arrived. We carried him
everywhere, and I nursed him for a full year. The day he turned 5
old, I watched him as he lay across my lap, smiling. It struck me
Jackson had brought something good and light to the family.
But it still didn't make up for what had happened to Porter.
Brian took a sabbatical from his teaching job to be home with the
though it was Porter who received most of the attention that year. His
behavior became increasingly impulsive and required minute-to-minute
supervision. And despite more medications, the seizures continued
Soon after, I learned about a magic bullet -- a way to feed your
kept him seizure-free and off medication. I was introduced to
diet" a month before Porter was 4, when a mother in my seizure
played a clip from "20/20" profiling a doctor who was using high-fat
to control epilepsy. This was an about-face. No more Newman's Own
Organics -- now the focus was on 90 percent saturated fat entrees.
I called our neurologist the next morning, and he agreed that the
worth a try, though he warned us from the start that he didn't have
hopes. But there was one catch to the ketogenic diet: You need to
patient for a few days to kick-start the ketosis -- the state in
body is burning its own fat for fuel. This requires hospitalization
precaution. We checked into the hospital on a Thursday morning and
watching videos on a wheeled-in VCR. Over and over I answered
for food with, "We'll eat in a little while." After 24 hours Porter
docile, rolling over only occasionally to grab my arm and ask quietly,
"Bagel?" By the 48-hour point they began serving 1/3-size meals, and
was ecstatic. When the tray arrived and I pulled the cover off to
four tiny piles, I was startled. There was a teaspoon of applesauce, a
tablespoon of whipping cream, a bite of scrambled egg and a glob of
margarine on a saucer. Porter ate it all in seconds, wiping his mouth
the back of his hand and looking for more. We stayed at the hospital
another two days, eating butter and cream and watching for seizures.
Once we got home the excitement over this new approach began to dim
fed Porter mayonnaise while everyone else ate lasagna and French
was agreeable initially, lying on the living room floor next to a
listening to music with his face in his hands. He held a blanket and
fingertips over the edges, staring at us as he did it, a hundred
We held out on Porter's high-fat diet until the first seizure
days later. When several followed, he went back on multiple
Throughout this time we tried testing -- testing his behavior, his
coordination, his speech, his urine, his enzymes, his liver, his
and his brain as 5-year-old Porter's other difficulties became more
apparent. While other kids his age played T-ball and learned the
and had long since been toilet-trained, Porter was stalled at the
level of a
2-year-old. Most obvious was the strange way he communicated.
When I got Porter ready to leave the house, he would hold a foot out
and say, "Tie your shoe." More irritating was the way he became
phrases -- repeating them over and over like a record skipping.
He'd say, "That's funny. That's funny. That's funny. That's funny."
As I was running one morning with Porter in the baby jogger, he
"Stupid head, stupid head, stupid head," in a monotone voice. I tried
ignore it, jogging faster, hoping the runner's high would kick in.
minutes later he was still at it. "Stupid head," I heard from below
Finally I'd had enough. I stopped the jogger, got down on one knee,
leaned in close to him. "Stop saying that, Porter, it isn't nice."
a pause as I stood back up and started running again.
A minute later I heard below me, "Dummy head."
After years of daily seizures, canceled vacations and midnight trips
hospital, my marriage broke up. Brian moved out, and we began an
of equal-time shared custody of the children.
It was during one of my weeks with the kids that Porter was hit by a
I'd taken them grocery shopping and had just buckled Porter into his
As I turned to load groceries he wriggled out, slipped through my
dashed into the street. I called his name, and it seemed to hang in
and in the next moment I heard brakes squeal and Porter scream.
An old man's voice yelled, "Oh my God!"
I dropped the groceries and ran around the car, asking the man, "Was
hit?" Porter was crumpled on the street. Cars stopped and people
around us as I knelt on the wet pavement holding him in my arms.
A woman bent down and said in my ear, "An ambulance is on its way,
"Mama," Porter whimpered. I took off the helmet he now wore to
head in the event of a seizure. People pulled blankets out of their
Porter clutched his foot and cried. The police arrived first, then the
ambulance. An officer stood over us and jotted down information in a
notebook. He asked, "How did it happen?"
I answered, "He's autistic and hyperactive."
He closed his pad and said, "It was an accident, then."
The initial examination indicated that his foot was broken, but
would be all right.
A month after Porter's accident, we summarized all of his medical
we filed his vaccine injury with the special governmental court in
these cases. Despite the interventions, his seizures were intractable
his other disabilities unchanged. Results from his special education
confirmed what we'd suspected for a long time -- Porter was severely
retarded. The government received our petition and immediately
vaccine injury had caused permanent brain damage. As part of the
the government set up a trust to provide for all of Porter's medical
In support of the case, Porter's doctors wrote letters sharing what
for his future: All three agreed he would never hold a job or live
Here's a part of the story I wish I could leave out: the day I
I could no longer take care of Porter alone. The morning I first
it, I'd called in sick to work because Porter had been up much of the
prowling the house. Shortly before breakfast, he'd had a seizure,
it impossible for him to go to his special education class. By
was back on his feet, and I'd taken Jackson and him to the park before
picking up Tyler at school. After a few minutes in the sand, Porter
bored and climbed the jungle gym. As I lifted Jackson out of the baby
I saw Porter hanging from the top of the slide. His pants had come
unbuttoned and hung around his ankles as he swung there grinning in
helmet. A minute later he had a seizure, falling off the platform and
landing in the sand below. I ran to him and held him on my lap until
shaking stopped, trying to figure out what to do. I attempted to pick
up, but as a large 5-year-old, he was getting more difficult to
was also in no shape to be moved, so we sat under the slide for 45
waiting for him to wake up.
I looked at my watch and realized I was late to get Tyler -- and had
to reach the school and tell them what had happened. Jackson whined
me and pulled on my shirt to be held. I decided we had to go, hoisted
over a shoulder, and balanced Jackson on a hip. With stops and starts
made it to the car, only to realize I'd left my purse with the key in
back at the park.
I flagged a woman over and asked if she would go to the playground
my bag. She stared at us for a moment -- Porter in his diaper passed
my lap, Jackson on the ground with a blanket over his face -- before
and running back to the park. Then I sat on the curb and watched the
families walk to the park in their flip-flops.
A mother turned to her son and said, "Keep up, honey, you always walk
slowly." The boy skipped along, kicking a beach ball ahead of him. I
strained to watch them until they disappeared over the hill -- I
hear him laughing even after he was gone.
A few nights later, I invited our social worker over for dinner to
After an evening with the family, she said, "There is a woman in town
specializes in taking care of autistic children. She's done amazing
with some of the kids and is the best there is. Let me speak with
I didn't know at the time was that this woman, Ramona, had recently
to stop taking new children. Each placement represented a potential
10- to15-year commitment, and she thought it might be a good time to take a
from such care. But our social worker persisted, and Ramona agreed to
Months later, when I asked Ramona what changed her mind about taking
child, she said simply, "I met Porter." On the day of our first visit,
Ramona greeted me at the door of her three-story Victorian, barefoot,
warm smile, holding back the two dogs yapping behind her. She invited
and sat down to talk, not stopping until the sunlight had faded
I visited Ramona again a week later and spent an afternoon with her.
talked, she told me about another child she cared for.
"He was 5 when he moved in here and never spoke," she said. "The
thought he wasn't able to because of abuse he'd suffered. We worked
for quite a while and I was able to get him to open up." Ramona leaned
forward. "What the doctors don't know is how he first started
"How?" I asked.
"I was driving with him and heard a siren behind us, which I pointed
said, 'Oh look -- there's a police car.' He smiled sweetly and turned
look. As the squad car passed us he stuck his head out the window and
yelled, 'Motherf -- ing pigs!' That was my clue that he could talk if
As we spoke, Jacob, who lived with Ramona, walked into the room and
next to her on the couch. "I have had good luck with some of the
kids -- you know I helped Jacob get toilet-trained when he was 11. But it's
not his mother that I can do a lot of it. Ignoring a tantrum doesn't
After Porter and Brian met Ramona, Brian and I agreed that it was
everyone to have Porter move in with her. But I saw that it wasn't
simple: While I knew in my heart that we were doing the right thing,
I had never felt so guilty in my life.
Porter had his first trial overnight three weeks later. Ramona picked
up, and he yelled, "Bye, Mommy," as she led him by the hand to the
I saw his helmet through the back window of the car as she drove off.
I sat on the couch after they left, holding a sweat shirt of his and
not moving until my legs were stiff. When the sun was completely down
I called Ramona.
"How is he doing?" I asked. I know this is hard to hear, Sarah," she said, "but he hasn't asked
at all. It's not like it would be for one of your other kids being
home. You have to believe me when I say that it's good he is
Porter moved in with Ramona soon after that, visiting us on weekends.
The following summer Ramona and I took Porter and Tyler and Jackson
rented cabin. After a day of swimming we put Porter in the tub, and I
the floor next to Ramona as we gave him his bath. I trickled water on
head and washed his hair while Ramona scrubbed his feet one at a time. Porter clapped his hands as we did it and said, "Hi, Mommy."
In unison, we both said hello back.
Sarah Bridges is a psychologist and writer living in Minneapolis
When Connor was 5.5 months old he
became more whiny and didn't seem so interested in his toys anymore - I put
this down to teething. Within a couple of weeks his head kept dropping down
briefly at the same time all his muscles would relax. We took him to the GP
who said it was probably nothing to worry about. Another week of this the
episodes were increasing and he was becoming very upset and did nothing but
make a strange noise almost constantly. We took him to A&E and he was
admitted to the hospital.
He had loads of tests including an EEG. The diagnosis we were given was
Infantile Spasms and having never heard of this before we thought it sounded
mild until the consultant filled us in. It's a rare infant form of epilepsy
which can be caused by many things, including brain damage in-uterou,
tuberous sclerosis, vaccines.....
We were told that Connor would probably never walk or talk and would be
retarded, and then sent home with him and an Anti Epileptic drug called
Sodium Valproate. Connor had a Very Bad reaction to this med, so we went
straight back up the hospital where he was monitored hourly until he started
to 'come back' to us three days later. He was then put on Vigabatrin, which
has been a complete Godsend. The spasms stopped within a couple of weeks
and by September his EEG had normalised. He has been off this med since
December last year and he is pretty much like a normal toddler - Thank
Anyway, if you're not bored of my essay yet and still with me the reason
I've joined this group is that I'm convinced it was his
vaccinations that caused this illness. Funnily enough, one of the first
questions we were asked at the hospital was whether his
immunisations were up to date but we thought nothing of it at the time.
I have done loads of research over the last year and I'm completely
horrified as to what I've found out about vaccines, drug companies etc...
I'm one of the people who had complete trust in the medical profession when
they told me Connor was due his jabs, and to be honest it never even crossed
my mind that anything could happen. After all, no-one told me
of any side effects - can't believe I was so stupid.
Needless to say, Connor will be having NO more vaccines and we've already
declined the Hib booster and MMR with no problems from the GP. I'm very
happy to have found this group, and hope that more and more people can find
out the truth about vaccines so that no more children can be damaged.
Love to all
Mother sues over MMR jab
A Shropshire mother is suing an American drug company for more than £50,000
amid claims that the controversial MMR jab could have led to her son
developing autism. Jayne Koczy, who is landlady of the White Hart pub in
Shifnal, believes the
triple vaccination may be responsible for her nine-year-old son Michael's
learning difficulties. The youngster, who goes to the Bridge Special School
in Brookside, Telford, has severe speech and communication problems and
needs round-the-clock care. Mrs Koczy, 40, said her son had developed
normally until having the mumps, measles and rubella vaccine in 1995 when he
was 13 months old. Shortly afterwards she noticed he was not responding when
his name was called and was not progressing as expected. He was diagnosed as
having severe learning difficulties at two years old. She said not knowing
whether or not the jab had caused the problems had prevented her from having
"I wanted to know, why him? He had two healthy parents, no difficulties in
either family going back for centuries and nothing to suggest he would have
these problems in the first year of his life." Mrs Koczy said she had not
associated her son's learning difficulties with the vaccination until a
friend had asked her about her son's problems before the MMR jab. She said
she had checked her baby book, a record of the child's development, and
found that he had progressed normally until shortly after the injection. She
said more than 900 people were involved in the action being brought by
solicitors Hodge, Jones and Allen against Merck and Co Inc, based in New
"There are other cases where the influence of MMR is far more obvious than
mine. We will be comparatively minor witnesses. I would like to know one way
or another." The Government has always insisted the jab is safe and does not
learning difficulties. It maintains medical research has not provided a
conclusive link between the vaccine and autism and there is no acceptance
among medical authorities that the jab causes the symptoms experienced by
Published December 28, 2003
Teen disabled by vaccine prepares for life on own
A rare reaction to an immunization crippled J.J. Coffelt's muscles, but not
By Kathryn Buckstaff
Copyright 2003 News-Leader
Cheri Coffelt stops stirring the pot of spaghetti sauce and looks over her
shoulder at her 18-year-old daughter.
"I know what you're up to," she tells J.J. The girl with long brown hair has
jiggered the joystick on her wheelchair, and with a quick electric whir
she's nearly in a standing position. Now the cup of Dr Pepper on the lap
tray is within easy reach of her lips. J.J., who has spent most of her
life in wheelchairs, enjoys the feature she's just discovered on her new
model — although it doesn't help her move her few muscles that still work.
Cheri looks over her glasses and chides her daughter: "Use it or lose it."
J.J. is a statistical anomaly, one of 638 kids nationwide who, since 1988,
have been compensated by the federal government for crippling disabilities
suffered after getting immunized against childhood diseases. More than 3.5
million American kids get vaccines each year. The 19 doses recommended
before age 2 have reduced the occurrence of measles, all but eliminated
rubella and the mumps, and nearly eradicated smallpox and polio. But, like
J.J., about 40 children each year suffer a debilitating reaction that makes
them eligible for help from the National Vaccine Injury Compensation
Program. J.J.'s compensation has made it possible for her get her own house,
with two disabled roommates and a full-time caretaker. The senior at Forsyth
High School is about to enter a new chapter in her life. This story begins,
though, when J.J. was a 15-month-old toddler — the moment she received her
shot for measles, mumps and rubella.
Was it the vaccine?
Cheri's memories are vague of the day in May 1986 when she took J.J. — short
for Julie — to get vaccinated. At 35, Cheri was pregnant with her youngest
son, Joel, and juggling day care and her job at White River Valley
Cooperative in Taney County.
But she remembers the exact moment she knew something was wrong. Three days
after the injection, Cheri saw J.J. awkwardly throwing out her left leg as
she toddled around the living room. She thought maybe her healthy, chubby
baby's little foot was turning. She imagined a clunky brace. The next day,
J.J. slid down the stairs of the split-level ranch. Odd, Cheri thought,
because J.J. had been crawling up those stairs for months. Two days after
that, J.J. grabbed toys with her right hand. Her left arm lay inert in her
lap. Eleven days after J.J. received the shot, Cheri took her child back to
the doctor. He said the toddler was fine. Cheri knew he was wrong.
Within three months, J.J. was having trouble swallowing food. She couldn't
hold her head up. Her baby babblings of "ma-ma" and "da-da" disappeared. She
no longer responded to playful tickles.
Cheri took J.J. to a physician in Springfield. He diagnosed cerebral palsy.
Cheri argued, knowing the symptoms were different.
"'It doesn't matter what you call it,'" she recalls the doctor explaining.
"'It matters how you deal with it.'" By the time she was 2, J.J. was
paralyzed except for some ungainly movement of her head, right arm, thumb
and forefinger. Cheri took J.J. to a doctor in Kansas City. He diagnosed
brain damage, but named neither a cause nor a remedy.
Cheri obsessed over anything she might have done to injure her daughter.
They had dogs, so she read about chemicals in flea spray. She remembered
each tumble the toddler took. She also recalled her own slip on the stairs
while holding J.J. in her arms. Nothing connected to the harm her child had
suffered. Only one thing defied elimination as its cause: the
When J.J. was 2, Cheri put her on a bus to Springfield every morning to
attend a special day care at the Developmental Center of the Ozarks. Then
Cheri's three other children had to be trundled off to school or the baby
sitter, and Cheri had to get to work. For 24 years, she's worked at White
River where she's now data programming manager. Cheri earned a bachelor's
degree in social work, and since she was married at 29, her dreams have
revolved around a happy family. In 1990, a caseworker handed Cheri an
article about Wyoming attorney Jack Gage. Now retired, Gage represented
clients applying for money from the National Vaccine Injury Compensation
In the early 1980s, reports of seizures following the diphtheria-pertussis-tetanus
shots led to lawsuits and caused vaccination rates to drop. In 1986 — the
year of J.J.'s last vaccination — Congress created the program to resolve
injury claims and to ensure an adequate supply of vaccine. Funds for the
program come from a 75-cents-per-dose surcharge on each vaccination. Cheri
called the Wyoming attorney. J.J.'s symptoms matched those listed as
possible reactions to measles vaccine. "'I think you have a case,'" Cheri
recalls the lawyer saying. In 1992, 7-year-old J.J. was approved for
lifetime benefits. But the money was not the most important thing. "We
finally had an answer," Cheri says.
Without her mother's tireless efforts in Washington, D.C., including a
two-year stint filled with countless hearings, J.J. would not be in a
position to live on her own. Since 1988, 1,477 vaccine injury claims
have been heard in the U.S. Court of Federal Claims. Of those, 638 have been
judged compensable, with more than $558 million paid out. In 2003, the
average award to 59 petitioners was $1.2 million. Parceled out to J.J.'s
trust fund each month, the money provides for special needs from physical
therapy to braces and wheelchairs through her normal life expectancy. The
plan includes money for institutional care.
Cheri dreaded that prospect until 1998 when her attorney suggested a crazy
idea: Build J.J. her own institution. Like a mother bear, Cheri charged back
onto the paperwork trail armed with architectural plans and cost estimates.
Two years later, she won approval to use some of the federal award to build
J.J.'s house next door to the home where Cheri raised J.J., her sister and
two brothers. Cheri got the 10-acre rural property south of Forsyth in a
divorce when J.J. was 3 and will return to the old house so she can be close
to her daughter.
Shots or not
Cheri gave birth to Joel when J.J. was 2. When he was 1 month old, Cheri let
Joel get his first polio and DPT vaccines. Then she stopped. "It was just
that nagging thing that the shots were the only thing that had happened to
J.," Cheri says. Joel's doctor signed a form exempting him from Missouri's
required vaccinations because of his family history of adverse reactions.
Missouri grants medical and religious exemptions. Texas recently became the
18th state to allow parents to exercise a "conscientious belief exemption."
J.J.'s sister Jessica and her husband Heath Silvey plan children in a few
"I'm pretty worried about it," says Jessica, who is a junior business
education major at Southwest Missouri State University. "I just don't know
whether or not to have them at all or wait until they're older and have
built up an immune system." There is no clear answer to the national debate
over parental rights to decide on vaccinations. Vaccines remain a safe way
to prevent diseases that used to be common childhood killers, says Dr. Ben
Schwartz of the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention in Atlanta.
"Certainly, no vaccine is 100 percent safe, but serious adverse reactions
are very rare, and the benefits far outweigh the risks," Schwartz says. Each
year, about 4 million children are born in the United States and 90 percent
get the recommended series of vaccinations, Schwartz says. There are so few
serious reactions that those numbers aren't tabulated by the CDC, he says.
"When a person looks at it through the lens of what's out there today, they
would not see the magnitude of what would happen without the vaccinations,"
Schwartz says. In countries where children are not vaccinated, diseases like
pertussis and measles still kill children. The diseases are waiting in the
wings, he says. Barbara Loe Fisher has a different view. Her son developed
learning disabilities and attention deficit disorder following a DPT
vaccination in 1980 when he was 2. In 1982, Fisher founded the National
Vaccine Information Center in Vienna, Va., to lobby for parents' right to
choose. In the past decade, people have become more attuned to managing
their own health care. This clashes with a political and financial
infrastructure set up to ensure the control of infectious diseases, Fisher
Parents should become informed about vaccinations and their options, she
says. Over the past 20 years, more vaccines have been given to children at
earlier ages. At the same time, rates have climbed for learning
disabilities, autism and other childhood illnesses. Research is inadequate
for placing blame on vaccines, and the causes likely are a combination of
factors, but "do you think it's a fair scientific question to ask if they're
contributing?" she says.
"The club that is used is: 'You're going to endanger everyone else,'" Fisher
says. "But if I feel my child is at high risk, how can you force me to
sacrifice my child?"
The pricey translator and the $22,000 wheelchair are among the benefits from
the compensation fund and from the medical insurance from Cheri's job. J.J.
got the new wheelchair this summer. Soon afterward, Cheri glanced sideways
during a Sunday Mass. J.J. had lifted herself so that, like everyone else,
she was standing during the hymn.
In J.J.'s senior year, the special services program is designed to get the
students ready for life after school. J.J. scowled at suggestions she might
volunteer at nursing homes. But she has always been happy around children.
J.J. is "a normal teenager," says her special education teacher Dana
Ehrhardt. "A lot of times, people will look at her and all they see are the
devices." Ehrhardt says she'd like more area employers to offer work
to her students.
"They need a chance to look for the things they can do instead of dwell on
what they can't do," she says.
Club director Alan Catron says J.J. has been wonderful for the children and
everyone else who knows her. The kids will never again be afraid of people
who are a little different, he says. J.J. will always be welcome as a
volunteer, and he's looking for ways to offer her a paying job.
At a ceremony last week, J.J. was named the club's Volunteer of the Year.
She beamed only for a moment at the plaque and the bouquet of roses. Then
she swiveled back to watch her 4-year-olds sing a rousing chorus of "Jingle
Contact reporter Kathryn Buckstaff at firstname.lastname@example.org.
John was born in 1992, a suprise,
but deeply wanted child. Born normal, he developed normally and talked
quite well early on, he was considered an early talker, as was my older
son. John was just like his big brother in so many ways. Soon afer he
turned 2 I knew something had gone wrong and on 12-25-94, John had his
last normal day, and spoke to us for the last time. By age 3 he was "a
breathing blob of humanity" nothing about him was child like or in may
ways...human either. He regressed so far that he lost his physical skills
and the hunt was on to uncover what happened to a once normal
child. That hunt ended in 1998 with the news of 'mercury poison' from
Coming back for John has been a 24 hour 7 day a week job, and we
have not won all the way YET. Now 11 he is developmentally delayed, has
speech issues, but is smart and funny and wants to be 17 more that
anything. We are currently homeschooling with strong outside support for
speech, physical therapy, hippotherapy, and a few other odd ball things
that seem to be helping as well. John has been on chelation 4 years
as of this month. So that is us, I have a 18 year old, a weekend husband
(truck driver), and take care of my mom, who has a brain tumor, so my
days are very full. Still this fight for vaccine education is foremost on
my mind and if you see me out...I'll be the lady with the tee-shirt on
about mercury poison, need I say I am not too popular around here! Thanks
again for the welcome and let me know how I can help, Cheryl Bailey/ AKA
another mad mercury mom
My name is Jen and I have 4
wonderful children. My oldest is 6 and is vaccine injured. I didn't know
anything at the time (thought I did, LOL) and never questioned the docs
about whether or not I should vaccinate. I never thought of it. Why would
a doc do something to hurt your child, right? After her DPT, Marissa got
a high fever. We brought it down with tylenol and motrin (I would never
do that now). And she started having seizures. We put her on an
anticonvulsant right away. It seemed to work, and being as ignorant of
the system as I was, I completely believed the doctor when I asked "Is
this from the shots?" and she said "Absolutely not!". So we kept on
vaccinating. 13 days after her MMR at 13 months, we lost the Marissa we
had. She had been a "normal" baby. She pulled up, she rolled and scooted
around, she had seven words (I remember that because I had to answer the
same stupid questions in the hospital so many times). On day 13, she went
into status (seizures that don't stop). We rushed her to ER more times
than I care to remember. She was hospitalized for the majority of the
next three months. "We have no idea what happened" they all said when
every single test came back negative. Her EEG was so flat, the
neurologist told us she would never sit again, never walk, never even
know who we were again. "Could this be from the shots?" I would ask him
later "Quite possibly, but vaccines are important.". I had no response to
such a moronic statement. I don't think he realized what he was saying.
We tried all the drugs. Nothing worked. She was still seizing and her
liver was failing. We had an emergency gastroenterologist appointment-
she might need a new liver, they thought. So I went completely AMA and
despite a neuro literally screaming at me over the phone that I was going
to hurt my child, I stopped her meds. Guess what? Instant reversal of
liver damage, and the seizures lessened significantly. We now work only
with homeopathy and accupuncture, which we started a few months ago. We
stopped vaccines immediately for Marissa. And of course our other three
younger children have not received any. Heck, I can count on one hand the
times all of them have even seen a doctor for anything- I don't take them
when they're sick, and they only go for a well-child once a year or less
because I have to play by the rules somewhat because of Marissa's
disability. Otherwise I wouldn't even have one (a doctor). We are VERY
far out of the mainstream now, and I can credit this awesome teacher I
have in Marissa. I think she chose to sacrifice her "normal" life in
order to learn her own lessons and help me and my family learn ours.
Sorry to go on and on, I'm feeling rather belligerent about the whole
thing right now because Marissa has not been doing well for a couple
months. And I just saw my family, who all continue to vaccinate their
children and inject themselves with whatever crap is in the flu shot,
despite the fact that what can happen is staring them in the face. I
don't get it. I don't get it at all. And they think I'm the weird one.
Mommy to Marissa (6 years, vaccine injured, medical dx cerebral palsy
intractible seizures), Gina (4 years), Jade (2 years), Sage (8 months)
Tuesday, May 4, 2004
Milton boy loses fight against mystery ailment
Many inspired by child who remained joyful
The disease that claimed Stephen Brett at age 13
remained a mystery upon his death Thursday. But perhaps the true mystery
of his life was how a child who could not even move himself nevertheless
moved the heart of a community. The tiny town of Milton, located midway
between Seattle and Tacoma just off Enchanted Parkway, embraced Stephen,
who six years ago went from being a healthy, active second-grader to
using a motorized wheelchair in the space of three months. His decline
continued as an unknown progressive degenerative disorder eroded his
nerves and paralyzed his muscles.
P-I FILE / 2001
Brett, seen receiving physical therapy, charmed with a bright smile
those who met him.
Community members from local schools and businesses
held a parade of fund-raisers, including baseball games and bake sales,
walkathons and car washes, to help pay for some of Stephen's medication
so that his parents, Caryn and Bob Brett, could continue to care for him
at home. Stephen's story was detailed in a Seattle Post-Intelligencer
special report, "A Childhood Stolen," in 2001.
Stephen was also among the first patients to enroll in
a pilot program to provide palliative, or hospicelike, care, for children
with severe, life-limiting illnesses. The pilot program started by
Children's Hospital and Regional Medical Center in Seattle in 1997 has
since been formalized and now helps 160 to 200 children a year. It helped
lead to an Institute of Medicine recommendation in 2001 that all
pediatric facilities adopt palliative care standards.
Palliative care helps smooth the transition between
the hospital and home and provides emotional and physical support, as
well as family respite and pain management for seriously ill children so
they can have the best quality of life possible. Stephen died at home in
his own bed with his parents by his side, five weeks after being
hospitalized for a series of respiratory arrests. "It (palliative care
for children) is a huge movement now across the country," said Dr. Ross
Hays, who directs such care for Children's Hospital.
Stephen's life, however, seldom revolved around
hospitals. He attended Hedden Elementary School and Surprise Lake Middle
School, keeping up with classmates with the help of one-on-one
assistance. Too weak to use even a keyboard-assisted communication
device, he used his eyes and lively smile to communicate answers.
And his presence in the classroom was a lesson in itself.
"He teaches them joy," his fifth-grade teacher, Dan
Cantillana, once said. "This is a child who knew what it was like to run
and play, and there's still joy in his heart." Stephen's one true and
abiding passion was the Mariners. He met catcher Dan Wilson on several
occasions and had a slew of memorabilia donated by team members, family
and friends. One of his prized possessions was a catcher's vest worn by
Wilson and donated by an attorney who was touched by Stephen's story.
The family believes the illness, which has never been
diagnosed, may have been a severe autoimmune reaction to a childhood
vaccination. A claim filed with the federal Vaccine Injury Compensation
Program is pending.
P-I FILE / 2001
says goodbye before Stephen is taken to surgery for a feeding tube at
a Tacoma hospital. He wore sunglasses because of light sensitivity.
To date, his condition has frustrated dozens of
doctors around the country. He went through innumerable medical workups
to rule out dozens of disorders, including a rare form of amyotrophic
lateral sclerosis, often called Lou Gehrig's disease. His decline
reversed temporarily for three months near the beginning of last year
when doctors tried him on a combination of new medications that included
one used for Parkinson's disease.
He went from not being able to say even one word to
being able to speak in 12-word sentences within two weeks, said his
father, Bob Brett. "We were overjoyed." But their hopes crashed when
Stephen developed a life-threatening fever in response to the medication,
which had to be discontinued. Still searching for answers, the family has
permitted an autopsy in the hopes of advancing medical science.
Through it all, Stephen maintained his own sense of
equilibrium, lighting up with his signature grin when visitors came and
playing practical jokes when he could. He delighted in his 16-year-old
brother, Daniel, his golden retriever, K.C., and in making people laugh.
"He was a kid who loved everyone and did his best to find the humor in
life," said Bob Brett. "He always wanted everyone to be happy." A
memorial service will be held at 2:30 p.m. Saturday at Hedden Elementary
School, 11313 Eighth St. E. in Edgewood. The family requests donations in
Stephen's memory to Give Kids the World (www.gktw.org) or Starlight
Children's Foundation (www.starlight-washington.org)
To read "A Childhood Stolen," the Seattle Post-Intelligencer's special
report about Stephen Brett, go to:
I had been a vegetarian for about a
year when I became pregnant with my first child. While I was pregnant I
was very careful about what I ate and was so concerned about the health
of my unborn
child that I never allowed myself to become upset or even to dwell on
negative thoughts. I never even took an aspirin. I quit coloring my hair
and tried to stay away from second-hand smoke. I took vitamins and did
everything I could to be healthy. I was fanatical.
When my water broke and labor did not progress I was put in the hospital
and induced with pitocin
(a possible culprit for autism). Since my daughter was induced she was a
poor nurser and not knowing where to turn for information and assistance
I gave up on breastfeeding after about 4 months and put my baby on soy
formula. Because I wanted my child to be healthy and because vaccination
was something you had to do to keep a child from getting a horrible
childhood disease,I went promptly to the two-month check-up, although
with reservations but not knowing where to go for information on the
possible adverse effects of vaccination (no internet at that time!). I
had read in an old PETA newsletter about a gold medal Olympian and his
fashion model wife who did not vaccinate their child because they
considered it "unhealthy, unnecessary and unethical". What did they know
that I didn't? But where did a parent go for information?
I asked the doctor who held the needle poised at my daughter's leg what
he thought about vaccination. He mentioned a few points but I remember
him saying, "The benefits outweigh the risks." I asked him if he would
vaccinate his own kids and he said, without looking me in the eye, "Yes.
My own children are vaccinated." With that he proceeded to inject my
healthy newborn with 3
vaccines. My poor baby began to cry and I felt terrible that the needle
hurt her, yet I was somewhat relieved that she would now be "safe" from
disease. However, the reservations were still there.
I took her for 2 more appointments and each time I was given the VIS
sheets that downplayed the
risks and dwelt on the benefits. Still with reservations I signed each
consent sheet. I cringed with each set of shots but still had no
information to prove I was doing the wrong thing. I will forever regret
not trusting my mother's intuition.
I had postponed the 4th set of shots because I just didn't feel right
about it but *still* had no concrete information on which to base my
decision. After all, the pediatrician said they were safe and a
pediatrician would never do anything to harm a helpless baby, right?
Because I had postponed the 4th set my daughter was behind on her shots
and, with a disgusted tone to her voice because of my tardiness, the
nurse said we would have to "catch her up." That day my 23 month-old
daughter received 4 shots and a TB test. As she screamed I removed a
stuffed Barney doll from a bag and handed it to her in order to distract
her. She clutched Barney and screamed his name over and over. Was she
hoping Barney would come to life as he did on tv and save her? To this
day I imagine that's what she was thinking and imagine all the fear she
had when Barney could not save her as her mommy was sitting by as each
needle went into her skin. Have I forgiven myself? Sometimes I feel like
I have. Sometimes I feel I don't deserve forgiveness.
I told my husband after that 4th set of shots that I would never have my
daughter vaccinated again. I couldn't prove it was harmful but I refused
to continue unless I got some answers.
During the next preschool year (about 11 months after my daughter's last
set of shots) my daughter's teacher started noticing red flags in her
behavior and asked if I would mind if some specialists came in to observe
her. Still wanting the best for my child I agreed. To cut a long story
short, 3 months later my daughter was diagnosed with sensory integration
dysfunction,what later became part of the autism spectrum disorders
(medical professionals disagree on whether or not it is part of the
spectrum but I believe it is). The two Ph.D.'s who diagnosed my daughter
could not explain what sensory dysfunction was and had no literature on
it so I had to do my own research. I could find nothing on SID; all my
daughter's symptoms turned up in literature on autism.
Now desperate to find information on the adverse effects of vaccinations,
I went as a last resort to a local healthfood store and found a book
called "Vaccines: Are They Really Safe & Effective?" by Neil Miller. I
remember reading it with horror and screaming into my pillow, knowing
what I had let happen to my child.
Because we couldn't afford it we sought no treatment for our daughter.
And probably because we felt the mainstream medical establishment had
done enough already. I kept her on a vegetarian diet and gave her
supplements, especially those that aided brain function. When she was 6
years old I saved my money and took her to a classical homeopath. Three
days after taking her first remedy her appetite soared. Before then, she
ate the same amount (or less) as her two year-old sister.
She is now twelve and has dramatically improved through classical
homeopathy and prayer. I know
she will one day be 100% cured. I've dedicated my life to warning others
about the adverse effects
of vaccination so that no other mother will live with the guilt I've had
to live with and so no other child will be that so-called "one in a
million" who is harmed by vaccination.
Lisa Jillani, director, PAVE
People Advocating Vaccine Education
I have two boys one 7 and the other
4. My 7 year old is PDD-NOS, more like an asperger. He was born
healthy, the doctor couldn't get over no problems considering it was a
long labor. Noah always ran a temp after he was given his shots. In the
hospital, Noah and I ran a temp when he was born, I didn't know that he
was vaccinated anyway. He had few problems accept when given shots he
cried, ran a temp and had a rash. Finally at 8-9 mths of age Noah
started running a high temp with no sore throat or ear infection. His
pedi took a blood sample and freaked out because he had no neutrophils,
nothing to fight bacterial infections. This was the beginning of
our living hell and it has only gotten worse. Noah was tested repeatedly
to figure out what was wrong, all of the specialist told me one you must
vaccinate him it will provide him with his only protection, two the
vaccines had nothing to do with his condition. We did what we were
shamed into doing, at the time it was me the mom against the world, my
husband and I fought about this and he too told me that it would be very
wrong for me to not vaccinate Noah. At 19 months of age Noah had his
first seizure. The shots continued and so did the neutropenia. Upon
Noah's 3rd birthday his brother was born, he was blood tested prior to
any shots and had normal CBC's. Eli was tested each month and given his
normal rounds of shots. At 4 months of age Eli had no neutrophils. We
were told it was genetic and that we must vaccinate. Noah would have a
seizure a year and came down with the rotavirus and was extremely ill.
Finally at 41/2 years Noah was definitely regressing and at 5 was
diagnosed PDD-NOS. Both boys neutropenia resolved when they were
2. Upon Noah's diagnosis Eli and Noah haven't received another shot. Eli
is developing normally since the ceasing of his shots at 2 years of age.
We are now fighting to reverse the damage done to Noah by his shots. His
father and I live with the guilt of hurting our child and are currently
doing everything in our power to help Noah get control of his seizures
and feel well. We are now given a letter for Noah and Eli stating that
we choose not to vaccinate our children and so far we haven't been given
any trouble over it. I do not think that the vaccines are the only
problem. My children couldn't handle them and no one wanted to admit
that for some children they are terribly harmful However I advise anyone
to at the very least wait). Sorry for the long post. I have been in the
past very bitter, angry and it did nothing for my children or my family,
I have put the total ignorance of others and myself behind me and tried
to fix it forward and I have also given any pregnant person or new mother
or father something that I didn't have, an alternative if you choose to
vaccinate your child give them a chance to grow first and notice the
fever, rash, and general uneasiness that a baby may feel from these shots
as a sign to stop the shots immediately.
Thank you for the chance to openly address you all with what I know to be
My name is Donna, I have been
married for 22 years to Jeff. We have two boys...My daredevil, Jeffrey he
just turned 20 years old last week, and my angel Kevin, He he just turned
18 three weeks ago. Kevin was born on Long Island, we moved to North
Carolina right before his 4th birthday.
When Kevin was born, I had natural child birth (no anesthesia, I didn't
want him to have any problems) I had a very fast labor, 2 hours from the
time I arrived at the hospital until he was born, his
apgar score was 9. He was born with a full head of beautiful golden
blonde hair, which is very unusual for newborns.
His first well baby check up. The doctor thought Kevin was blind, Because
Kevin was lying on the table and we were a few feet away, Kevin was
cooing with no one around to stimulate him, The Dr said blind babies will
do this..So I took him to a specialist, Kevin is not blind, I did find
out a few years ago that he does have cortical blindness. I was upset
with this pediatrician for putting me through this, I switched drs. I
landed up at one of the top pediatrician office in suffolk county, This
dr specialized in handicapped children, which I did not know at the
time. He ask me why I am switching drs, so I told him, That other dr
told me Kevin might be blind, and that he did not know what he was
talking about because Kevin is not blind. The first pediatrician is also
one of the top drs in suffolk county.
I started breastfeeding right after Kevin was born, He did fine for the
first 2-3 months, Then he started having trouble sucking and developed
"colic" I was careful with my diet, so he would not get
colic, But he continued to scream all day all night, The dr told me he
just has colic. I had to quit nursing by the time he was 4 months
old...He was having more trouble sucking and the "colic" would not let
up...Of course none of the formulas, soy milk, goats milk, fennel
tea, Nothing worked.. He just continued to scream, his scream sounded
like a wounded cat screaming. By this point he had already received two
sets on vaccinations. He was very floppy and had no motor control, his
pediatrician kept reassuring me that some babies are slower, He WILL
catch up. I have a child that is 23 months older, My older son was a fast
learner, he was walking when he was 10 months old...on his own! Kevin
could not sit alone at his 12 month old check up...The nurse walks in and
says angrily "Has He (the dr) said anything to you yet!" I said no, Then
he walks in and tells me he thinks Kevin might have cp, and wants him to
be seen by a neurologist.
Kevin went through all the testing to have different syndromes ruled
out...Why did this happen to my son I ask, My answer always came
back..."sometimes things just happen"
Kevin was hospitalized with his "first" seizure at age 22 months. Two
months after his 4th dpt vaccine. I say first, because while he was
getting his first EEG, Kevin was being really fussy, He did this often at
home, I was trying to calm him down, The EEG technician looked at me and
said.." you can not help him, hes in the middle of a seizure" So I have
no idea when he actually had his first seizure.
Kevin's final diagnose is:
progressive microcephaly, severe spastic quadriparetic cerebral palsy,
profound mental retardation, lennox gastaut syndrome (severe seizure
disorder) cortical blindness, and is non verbal After having all the
causes and all the syndromes ruled out..I settled for what the drs were
telling me, "things just happen"
Last year, I met a woman who had been poisoned by chemicals in paint, It
got me thinking about "why" with Kevin, And now with the
internet...things are much easier! The only thing that I thought of
was the Rhogam that I had while I was 6 months pregnant...So just for the
heck of it I typed in rhogam and seizures on my search bar. There was
Mercury in the Rhogam..So I search the affects of mercury on a fetus.
Kevin has all the "classic" symptoms of mercury poisoning. I had a rhogam
after my older son was born one while I was pregnant with Kevin another
after giving birth while I was
breastfeeding. He had all his vaccines on time. All of this mercury in
his little body. I am not a fish eater, and had 4 fillings in my mouth. I
was a stay at home mom. A lady from my Lennox gastaut support group had
gone through the vaccine court and won her case, I called her on the
phone, she suggested that I have Kevin's baby hair tested at Great
Smokies Lab, Because he was born with a full head of hair, he had an
early hair cut. (I did not want my baby boy looking like a girl!) His 6
month old baby hair tested for mercury was 13.78. This is very toxic for
an adult. He only weighed 17 lbs.
That's my story...
Angel, developed rather normally as a baby and was even starting to
talk then she had her first DPT shot and that is when the problems
first started at the age of 15 months and by this time she was already
walking she had a very bad reaction to the shot and Mom was told that
she was "allergic" to the Pertussis component of the DPT shot but
nothing really anything to worry about, once again with young first
time parents they thought ok no big deal.
At age 5 Angel started rocking and went totally
nonverbal and withdrawn in her own little world. Well the Doctor said.
Well I am sorry to tell you this but your child is "AUTISTIC" this was
accompanied by many fits and the need to be close to her mother who was
home while dad worked after several doctors and much research Angel
went to a experimental treatment called "auditory training " and it
worked wonders Angel started talking again and the more active she got
the more she became to love gymnastics
now her father never really bought into that Angel
was a "special needs kid" and pretty much refused to help mom with her
rearing. as happens in A LOT of MARRIAGES WITH DISABLED CHILDREN HER
FATHER COULD NOT TAKE ANY MORE as he put it "Embarrassment" and packed
his bags and left
I came into their lives about 10 months after
Angel's father left her.
I noticed that Angel was showing signs of more than
Autism she was hearing voices and talking to outlets and said they
talked back to her too. As Her mother and I grew closer and fell in
love Angel was still able to see her father on a regular basis, no
biggie right? Wrong
After I moved in and Robyn <mom > And I was planning
our wedding Robyn <against her better judgment> allowed Angel to go
with her father to her grandmothers house in a different city and why
she was in his house Angel was both physically and Mentally abused as
her father and his then girlfriend thought Angel was "Just spoiled" and
thought they could beat it out of her! They brought our little Angel
back to us on the 31 of December 2000 and the first warning sign
something was wrong was Angel <normally VERY STANDOFFISH at this time >
ran to me and wrapped her arms around me and would not let go and just
started sobbing and could not stop <After being terrorized like she was
I was amazed she even made it home > Never the less after the final
divorce was signed her father can only see Angel if Robyn or I are with
her period less than a week after this incident I was home with Angel
after she got home from school and she was playing in her room then it
got VERY quiet I got up from my computer and went to investigate and
found Angel on her knees with a screw driver in her hands crying and
about to put the screwdriver in the outlet she said she was bad and
needed to die !
her mother came in just then and we made the very quick decision to get
her some help We took her to Cooks Children's hospital in FT Worth
Texas where they tried to get her stabilized and could not so she was
sent off to North Texas State hospital where after working with her for
several weeks < and mom and I doing research online > Angel was re
diagnosed as being Paranoid Schizophrenic,
o/c and with an IQ of only 79 mildly retarded
Every day we have to give our Angel a reason not to
harm herself and NOT to listen to her voices and to fight like hell to
stay out of the hospital and even some of the meds they want to put her
on now have done damage to her little body < she was on a drug that was
not FDA approved for her illness NUERONTIN that did neurological damage
<<we are trying to get a lawsuit filed against the manufacture>>
Geodone has cased a cardiac problem as she now has a heart mummer she
never had before just to name 2 that have done even more damage to our
Angel is now 14 and is now having to deal with raging hormones and
menstrual cycles and the fact that she almost 6' tall and boys are
noticing her. We live one day at a time always prepared to handle the
worse her illness brings out ,self harm violent outburst EVERY BIT OF
THIS COULD HAVE BEEN PREVENTED BY MORE COMPETENT DOCTORS AT HER BIRTH
AND IF THE DRUG COMPANIES WOULD TAKE THE MERCURY OUT OF THE VACCINES
We also have a 3 year old who had her shots <1st round only without
Pertussis> but will NEVER EVER HAVE ANOTHER with the exception of
Hope this will help you on your website when you get it up and running
please send me the link so I can view your hard work!
One last point is this had I been with my wife at the birth there would
have been some heads rolling then trust me but alas time has ran out on
the statute of limitations even though the poor baby was not fully
diagnosed until her 12 th year but no lawyer wants to touch it
Also If your Child is disabled with Paranoid Schizophrenia make sure
you get them on SSI as it guarantees insurance and meds for your child
plus an income once they reach 18 prior to 18 you get a little bit of
income to help you with transportation etc any questions please write
and I will answer as much as I can or try to get you to someone who can
if anyone needs support groups we are interested in that also
My children are almost 5 and 7. When my first was
born I took her to every doctor visit and beginning at birth had her
shots given to her (Hep B in the hospital). Her 2 month shots (I
believe there were at least 4) did not go well. As soon as she was
injected she began a high pitched horrible cry. This lasted for three
days. She became chronically sickly after that. At 4 months I asked if
it was wise to give her more vaccines, but I didn't really know much so
I listened to the doctors who insisted it was ok. Same reaction as the
first time. This continued on and on until her fifteen months shots
where she received her MMR. She had the same crying etc. Then she
developed a high fever and rash all over. In later years when she was
given shots she would have a personality change and even would
lose hair. At 12 months she was diagnosed with allergies, asthma, and
an immune deficiency. She had recurrent ear infections her entire first
year. My second child was a preemie. He was 6 weeks early. He had his
first shots at 2 months of age. He cried excessively as well. He was
already having issues with reflux and breathing too fast, but none of
that improved at all after his shots. At his 12 month appt. he did not
get his shots because he was too sick. He had a full body rash and
severe eczema and chronic cold. He was also diagnosed with an immune
deficiency. He has asthma, severe life threatening food allergies, had
severe reflux and eosinophilic esophagitis. He had his next set of
shots at 16 months and spent the next 3 months (along with my daughter)
very ill. Eventually he ended up on IVIG for his immune system
disorder, that was given by IV every 3 weeks.
The children's immunologist wanted to give them various vaccines in
order to test their immune response. My oldest has had 4 DtaP's, and 2
DT's. My youngest has had 3 DTaP and one DT . Their last DT shots were
also given with their 3rd dose of pneumovax. This was Oct 2002. They
had terrible reactions. My daughter was lethargic for 3 months, had a
total behavior change and was sick. My son spent 3 weeks barely able to
walk as his left leg would totally give out with no warning. He had a
drastic change in behavior, scooting only on his head to get around and
banging his head
against the walls.
Both of my children have Sensory Integration Dysfunction. Our oldest
has severe anxiety as well. We decided after the shots in 2002 to wise
up and do some research. I feel terrible that I allowed my children to
get so many vaccines. My daughter is up to date except her 2nd MMR and
her last IPV. My son is lacking all MMR's, 2 IPV's, a Hep B, and
varicella. He has severe egg allergy so it's not like the MMR would be
a good idea anyway. We just moved to Iowa and I am having trouble
finding a pediatrician who will sign the medical waiver form . Both
kids had a medical waiver in Kentucky, but only because I told the
pediatrician that Immunology would be giving any vaccines IF they were
Anyway, sorry this is so long. That is the shorter version of our
They are both doing fairly well. It’s been
two years in October since their last vaccines. My 7 year old is
having severe anxiety issues and problems with her Sensory Integration
Dysfunction. She has had chronic constipation since she was an infant
and continues to have issues there. My 5 year old
is doing ok. He is on the hyper side many days, but is making
progress. He ’s somewhat behind in skills, but is catching up. His
autistic type behaviors have mostly disappeared. No more scooting on
his head etc. They both are doing well in terms of their immune system
problems. Funny they both had the exact same lab values and problems,
but they didn’t have a name for the specific disorder. I think it
should be called Post Vaccine Immune Dysfunction Syndrome!
An interesting note about vaccines in myself, I was working in health
care and asked to take the 3 shot series of Hep B. I took these shots
and within 2 months of the 2nd dose came down with a terrible case of
mononucleosis with a terribly swollen liver and spleen. I was then
sick for the next year. Interesting. I just received my medical
records since we recently moved and was shocked to see how closely
those 2 events were timed.
Hello, my name is Jill. Our son Jacob
died on 02/01/00 at the age of 4 months and 8 days old. He was seen at
his pediatricians office for his "well" check up and vaccinations only
days before his death. The Medical Examiner ruled his death as
apparent SIDS, and his death certificate states "Natural". How can a
healthy 4 month old baby die of Natural causes?
After Jacob died, the medical professionals here assured me that there
was no possible way SIDS was related to the vaccinations....they
quickly dismissed all of the questions that I had telling me the
benefits of vaccinations outweighed the risks. They say because
immunizations are given at 2 and 4 months in age that it is just a
coincidence that it is the peak SIDS age....HELLO?!?!
How is it that the government intimidates parents into getting their
children vaccinated, but then turns around and financially compensates
them? Its very sad that our government knows something is bad for us
and perpetuates it.
I wish I knew then what I know now. I did what I felt was right at the
time and that is something that I will always have to live with and
wonder about. Would Jacob be here if I had not immunized him, or
would he have been a vicitm of SIDS anyhow???
As a matter of fact, I finally got up the courage to get his medical
records from the pediatricians office so I could send it to VAERS. I
picked them up today, and although it was extremely difficult I hope in
my heart that somehow it will help someone. From what I can tell he
was given 1)DTap 2)IPV 3)HepB 4)HIB on that day.
When our subsequent baby was born, we struggled with whether or not we
would/should immunize her...of course everyone has an opinion on the
subject. We ended up unbundling her vaccinations and waited til she
was a bit older, but I'm finding out that that doesn't necessarily help
at all. The more I think about it, the more I'm leaning towards
ceasing to vaccinate her altogether (which is why I am here, to learn
and gain knowledge).
My husband wasn't immunized and he is one of the healthiest people I
Thanks for listening,
I am Stephanie, mom to dd age 4.5, ds age 3, ds age 1.5, and #4 edd
Slowly over the course of our first 3 years of parenting, some things
happened that lead me to not trust the medical profession. I got bad
advice about breastfeeding, encouragement to use cereals and unnatural
foods over human milk, I had a bad reaction from a pre-natal vitamin
(hyper, fast heartbeat, uncontrollable crying) and called the OB who
said, 'oh that has copper in it and we're not sure what that does to
people, stop taking it right away'. Also, I'd give my son, child #2,
cold medicine the doctor gave and he'd wail and arch all night. So, I
realized they didn't know it all, and I needed to have more information
before just doing what they said.
Our first child had all of her required vaccinations from her birth in
1999 to age 3. She was breastfed exclusively for 6 months and then
still until 14 months, and was overall pretty healthy. Our 2nd child,
William (Will), was vaccinated through 12 months I believe. He
developed normally, was speaking several words at 9 months as he
should. After he turned 1, he started verbalizing everything into an 'ess
ess' sound. He'd grunt or just say 'ess ess' whenever he wanted
something. We thought it was his way of saying please and he had just
generalized all words into the word please and that's how he got what
he wanted. He developed some digestive problems, just weird poops, bad
smells, more foods coming through, didn't seem serious, but was
obviously not right. At this time, I never considered that
vaccinations were causing any of this, but we were considering not
doing vaccinations any more because I didn't believe the benefits
outweighed the risks. So at his 15 month appointment, I said no more,
and we haven't done any since.
When Will was 2, he was still only saying, ess ess. Before and around
age one, he had a normal baby version of the words, mommy, daddy, fish,
grace, Phyllis, and more . definitely more than just ess ess. His
pediatrician recommended we have him evaluated for speech therapy. He
was 2 months from turning 2, I didn't think it was necessary, thought
he'd talk when he was ready, just figured the loss of language after
age 1 was a normal thing. But we had the evaluation done anyway. He
qualified and had an hour of therapy in our home each week. His
behavior wasn't horrible, but there were signs of not following
directions, throwing things for attention or for no apparent reason,
little focus. To me, these were just toddler behaviors and not strange
for our first little boy even though our first little girl was
easy-going and seemed bright.
The speech pathologist recommended he have his hearing tested. He was
found to have fluid in his ears. The theory was that he had had fluid
in his ears since birth (he had chronic runny nose his first year) and
this caused him to not be able to hear and therefore not learn to
talk. I was really just going through the motions that these doctors
requested, I never said, well why did he talk then, but then stop. The
pediatrician thought this was very strange, he had always been found to
have "gorgeous" ears at every well-check. I was told he could have
antibiotics and/or tubes. I wasn't going to do that to a 2 year old.
The research isn't even promising that they work. So I took him to a
friend who is a chiropractor. He sent us to another chiropractor whose
work coincided with his runny nose clearing up. Then I took him to Fox
Hollow Clinic near Crestwood, Kentucky, which does natural medicine,
etc. An osteopath said he may have some aspergers-like symptoms, but
didn't see any clear signs. Hair analysis showed over the top levels
of lead and arsenic, as well as a zinc deficiency, things that are
often found in autistic children also. He also had other abnormal
metal levels. The doctor prescribed supplements, vitamins, chlorella-a
metal detox liquid, gave dietary recommendations, and we continued
chiropractic care. By the time Will was 2 and a half, he was talking
again, within 2 more months, he was released from speech therapy as 'on
track'. He had large jumps in progress when we started higher doses of
the EFAs (essential fatty acids) and fish oils. I do believe it was
this run of treatment that 'cured' his speech delay.
Looking back, we know that he was almost always sick after a well-child
check. We'd take in a healthy baby, he'd be looked at and given his
shots, we'd go home, and he'd get sick! I was so fed up, because I
thought that he was just picking up germs every time we went in there.
He'd react with fevers, crying, up all night, couldn't relax unless I
was holding him. I would call, and they'd say, did he have his shots?
I'd say yes, they'd say, then he's fine, just give him Tylenol or
Robitussin. This happened several times. I thought he'd react from
the meds, but was it the shots too or only? He didn't always have the
meds and he reacted that way. I remember one awful night when I
literally didn't go to bed all night. He was very uncomfortable and
squirmy in my arms, but was less likely to scream. I'd try to put him
down and he'd squirm and scream, so I'd pick him up and hold him while
he screamed, and sometimes he'd sleep on me. I tried to nurse him all
I could, but often he'd refuse. We made it through the night and he
seemed fine by the next night.
I believe Will was on an early side of the ADD/Autism spectrum. One
more vaccine, and we would have had a lot more to deal with.
Another note: we mentioned to the Osteopathic doctor that we were
quitting vaccines and felt they may be the cause of Will's troubles.
He said, "as a physician in the commonwealth of Kentucky, I have to
tell you that vaccines are the best choice for your child," He went
on, 'with the high fevers and reactions he has had, it seems that he
may not be a candidate, "read between the lines". What is in '..' are
his words paraphrased. Between "quotes" and "read between the lines"
were his actual words.
Will turned 3 in April. His digestion is great. He can tolerate milk
(we don't drink it, but it was something he'd react to after drinking,
and after cutting it from his diet just in time, he can now tolerate it
when he happens upon it at grandmas or something).
A book that started me really noticing that Will's symptoms were all
connected was Karen Seroussi's "unraveling the mysteries of autism and
pdd". I recommend it to all. A friend whose normal daughter stopped
talking and became autistic-like (they don't diagnose at that age here)
at age 2 or 3 after vaccinations told me to read it. I never would
have seen before that ill's symptoms were connected: digestive issues,
speech delay, mother who doesn't hold the titer for rubella (what a
wake-up this was, I was revaccinated after giving birth to our first
child because I showed up non-immune to rubella-but I knew I had had
MMRs throughout my life even as an adult! Who knows, they could have
given me a whole MMR at that time-another thing to consider, I was also
given rhogam during all 3 pregnancies, something else that could have
thimerosal and other bad things that would have been passed to our
children). He also often woke up crying for a period of his
baby/toddler life, also had a large belly-signifying potential gas,
digestion troubles. this is just all I can think of as of now.
Thanks for letting me share.
It was January 15, 1981 and as I
was bundling up our son Bryan to bring to his second “well baby” check
up, I thought of the fun we would have when the weather warmed up and I
could take him and his sister Alyssa for long walks outside. He was
born on September 18, 1980 weighing 8lbs 8oz. What immediately
followed his “well baby” check was far from typical. I certainly
wanted what was best for my child so no questions where asked when it
came to his immunizations. No warning of adverse reactions was given. I
blindly handed my son over as a human sacrifice. Trusting the medical
profession knew what was best for my child.
I had to work for a couple of
hours so I dropped Bryan and Alyssa off at the babysitters house. I
told her I would be gone for two hours. I told Marilyn he would not eat
for me and perhaps she could get him to drink his bottle.
I returned to Marilyn’s house at
around 2:45 and went to the living room to pick up Bryan he appeared to
be sleeping. As I leaned over to pick him up, I felt his limp, lifeless
body in my arms. I screamed a cry that would never be repeated. I
desperately tried calling an ambulance but I fumbled at the phone.
Marilyn’s husband happened to be home, and he drove us to the hospital.
I burst through the front doors of the hospital holding Bryan in my
arms and screaming words I will never remember and feeling a
desperation I will never forget. My recall is that of telling the
emergency room nurse that Bryan had just had his shots, maybe he was
He was pronounced dead at 3;33
p.m. four hours after his vaccines. The doctors’ report said Cause of
death: Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.
My son progressed normally up
until about 10 months. We moved into a rental house while our new house
was being built and it all began. He was constantly congested (so was
my husband) which lead to chronic upper respiratory infections. He was
given repeated doses of antibiotics never off for more than a week or
two all the while being vaccinated. It was a continuous cycle and I
began noticing changes in him. He was playing by himself a lot, stools
were terrible, could sit and watch TV forever, etc. I can't say that I
took him in to receive a particular vaccine and the next day he was
gone. What I do know is that the combination of antibiotics and
vaccinations did something to him. He changed fairly rapidly in that
particular frame of time. I am an educated, proactive mom and at the
time did and tried everything to keep him well and had alot of
disagreements with my doctor. But I can tell you that there was a huge
turning point in my mind when it came to vaccinations. Very new to all
of this I made the HUGE mistake of giving him the flu vaccine. As
sickly as he was I just knew
that without it he would be one of those immunosuppressed children to
die from the flu. I called the pharmaceutical company that dispensed
his flu vaccine and asked them tons of questions. I know
so much more about all of this stuff now than I did then. I found out
that there is so much stuff they do not have to tell me. Anyway, the
day after the flu vaccine we saw severe regression. Not with speech
but with everything else. He was toe-walking, hand-flapping, couldn't
be touched even lightly. The list goes on and on. It was a terrible
experience and luckily he came out of rather quickly with very intense
sensory integration therapy. I knew that these vaccinations must have
had a profound effect on him. I saw the damage done by this one
vaccine so I knew what all of the others must have done to him also.
Honestly, I feel like my education and occupation brainwashed me
against the horrors and damage vaccinations can have. I wish I had
been smarter, but at the time I wasn't. Thankfully, he is doing so
well now that his doctors are already questioning his diagnosis. He is
not even three yet. We have a lot to be thankful for but also a lot yet
to work on. I know that was long but that was just a brief glimpse at
my vaccine history. I hope to learn so much more and educate others on
My son was a sweet, happy, healthy
baby boy who imitated, cooed, and flirted with his mama. Nine days
after his 4 month shots he had 3 grand mal seizures and was never the
same. He stopped imitating, cooing, looking for me, and eye contact. I
asked my husband the day we brought him home from the hospital, “Why
won’t he look at me?”. I then went on-line to research adverse
reactions to vaccines. I was horrified by what I had read because I
knew what I was reading was what happened to my son. All these parents
had the exact same thing happen to them (vaccines+seizures+change in
behavior = autism). I told everyone, including the doctors, what I
thought had happened and they all told me I was crazy and to stay off
of the Internet. Well, low and behold, nobody thinks I’m crazy now
because he is now 18 months and has been evaluated by two separate
autism experts who both believe he is somewhere on the spectrum.
Vaccines do cause autism and anyone who thinks differently is either in
denial, isn’t fully educated, or is trying to cover up this truth. Feel
free to use this story on your web page or share it with other if you
would like. Take care and God bless you and your family.
My daughter was a normal child from
the get go. 3 days after her 9 months vaccines, which were hib, hbv, and
prevnar, she started with her eyes rolling back in her head, I immediately
rushed her to the doctor and was told she had a severe ear infection, and
she was holding her head back to drain the infection from her head,
sometimes kids do that. But she was actually having a seizure right in the
doctors office. She started having what we call startle spells. I took her
to her pediatrician and was actually told she was doing this for
attention, I said what!! After a year of having so many of these spells
and so many goose eggs and cuts on her head from hitting the floor, table,
anything she was around, I finally begged enough and got an EEG for her,
which showed nothing. 2 MRI's and 5 EEG's later nothing. They just
diagnosed her with epilepsy and cerebral palsy, and stuck on her seizure
medication.. All of her spells are always associated with noise, a cough,
a fork hitting the plate, a sneeze, or even your voice. If she is standing
when a noise takes place, it is certain she will fall, She has a lot of
visits to the chiropractor because when she falls she throws her hips out,
neck and back. Then the second awful thing, was another ear infection that
was so bad, I ended up in the ER with her one night, and they gave her an
antibiotic shot, when the nurse gave it to her, I told her she wasn't
holding still, and she said I know she is a wiggle worm and just jabbed
her, which was the starting of something awful. For 3 weeks she laid in
screaming pain day and night. She couldn't crawl, walk or sit. I took her
to a total of 13 doctors in that 3 weeks that told me she was just sore
from the shots, in that 3 weeks she had another total of 2 more antibiotic
shots. I finally got sick of messing with the doc's and took her to a
chiropractor, in which I found out her pelvis had been thrown out with the
first shot, her neck was so severely out of place that she couldn't hold
her head up, eat or even drink without me holding her in a lying down
position. The chiropractor has been my daughters guardian angel. With out
her, my daughters body would have grown together this way, out of place, I
certainly think this is what's wrong with a lot of kids who have physical
problems moving. Two years ago she started having tonic clonic seizures
from hitting her head so much, She was then placed on 8 different seizure
med's which only caused her to lose weight and lose her hair, all of it,
we are talking waist length hair. The last tonic seizure she had was may
22, o3, due to cranial manipulation. She had a seizure and I went straight
to the chiropractor and she did this manipulation on her skull, and that
was the last seizure of that kind she has had. In May of 04, we decided
after the neurologist told us there were no other med's her could give to
her, because nothing was working, he could refer us to another children's
hospital, or do surgery on her, they wanted to intrude on her brain, don't
think so. We found the power of herbs. She had a black like substance in
her ears that looked like car grease, that of course the ear specialist
told us was normal, of course, in just 3 days of being on the herbs the
stuff was completely gone from her ears, 13 months and counting. Her eyes
would dilate abnormally and her walking was almost nothing. Her speech
well, she was talking before all of this happened, then just stopped, and
now it is coming along quit nicely, and her eyes have completely stopped
doing this and she is almost running now, her legs are still hyperflexed,
she doesn't walk like normal children, and probably never will, but she
is learning how to cope with her body being out of wack. Thanks to the
herbs and definitely not the moron doctors. When I first took her the
these herb people, I thought what a bunch of quacks!! But they really did
know what they were doing. No my children don't go the doctor unless they
get hurt, or some kind of emergency arises I can't handle. When my
children would get an ear infection or sinus thing, it would last for
months, and I think it's because of the med's the doc's put them on hurt
them more than helped. When they get sick, I treat them myself. My
children will not ever get another vaccine!! ever!!! I always ask people
would you sit your child down at the table and give them a bowl of
antifreeze to eat? I don't think so. from OHIO
True measure of QB's heart found at
Flutie family faces challenge of autism
By Jackie MacMullan, Globe Staff | July 24, 2005
NATICK -- This time there are no boxes, no moving vans, no harried
coast-to-coast transports of the dogs, the kids, the stuff. Doug Flutie is
home. His new job, backup quarterback for the New
England Patriots, enables his daughter, Alexa, to complete her senior year
of high school alongside her lifelong friends -- not to mention cousins --
from Natick. It allows his son, Dougie, to sleep in the same room all year,
with his toy box and his hockey stick and his big old bear.
Dougie is 13 now. He loves music and the ocean. Sometimes, when the family
is at the beach, he'll bolt toward the water without warning, and Doug will
have to chase him down. Dougie will hear his father coming, his steely legs
frantically pounding the sand in pursuit, and he'll wheel around and smile.
You know what he'd be saying if he could talk: Gotcha, Dad.
He loves it when his mother, Laurie Flutie, plays the ''Hey" song. When he
was 2, before autism overtook him, he would croon right along with her. You
know the tune. It's ''What I Like About You" by the Romantics. When they
sang, ''You really know how to dance," Dougie would bust a move, smiling and
laughing, like always.
Dougie doesn't dance so much anymore. He often sits in his stroller, a
state-of-the-art contraption that helps contain him and provide comfort from
the swirl of life's activity that is, at times, just too overwhelming. He
has a habit of drifting off to his own place, where nobody -- not his
mother, his father, his sister, or a team of top-flight physicians -- can
Autism is heartbreaking that way. One minute, your son is smiling at you,
and the next, he is looking right through you. ''He's always looking away,"
said Doug Flutie, wistfully. ''You wonder what he's thinking." But his
parents believe Dougie is happy. He doesn't know he's autistic, doesn't
notice when others gawk at him when he's shouting, or chewing on a plastic
bottle, or twirling objects again and again and again. Some people stare,
others recoil. His parents have long ago accepted that.
The rest of the world simply does not see the Dougie they see.
''People ask me how he's doing," Doug Flutie said. ''It's not that he's
doing any one specific skill. It's little things. He follows directions
better. He gets in and out of the car by himself. That's a huge improvement.
Before that, it used to be a procedure." Here is one of the most celebrated
athletes in New England sports history, a Heisman Trophy winner who married
his high school sweetheart in a storybook wedding. The Fluties were
millionaires by the time Doug was 25, yet his own son, his namesake, can't
even begin to carry on the legacy. It's likely Dougie will never read or
write. He will never be able to take care of himself. He probably will never
speak. The Random House Dictionary defines autism as a pervasive
developmental disorder characterized by impaired communication, excessive
rigidity, and emotional detachment. Heartbreaking? Of course it is. But
don't you dare feel sorry for the Fluties.
''We don't really like that poor, poor pitiful me thing," Doug explained.
They started the Doug Flutie Jr. Foundation for Autism in 1998, three years
after their son was diagnosed. As they learned more about Dougie's
condition, they recognized the need for heightened awareness, education, and
research. When Laurie purchased a special tricycle for Dougie with wider
handlebars and a bigger seat, the price tag was more than $1,000. His
special stroller cost $2,000. It rankled her. How could average families
The foundation. It supports people who need financial assistance in
caring for their autistic children. It funds research and helps develop new
programs and services. ''I feel like Dougie was meant to do this," Laurie
said. ''Without him, there is no foundation. It wouldn't have happened. It's
in Dougie's name. It's his legacy. It gives us peace."
Still, it's not easy sometimes. Doug and Laurie have nieces and nephews who
are growing and prospering all around them. Bill Flutie's son Brett is the
same age as Dougie and he's an athlete,
just like his older brother Billy, who just committed to Boston College to
play football. The Flutie family is close; Doug's brothers, Bill and Darren,
and sister Denise, all live in town. Laurie's mother is still there. There
are daily reminders of what could have been.
''We were at one of Brett's basketball tournaments recently," said Doug.
''He came out and said, 'I could use one more guy on the court with me. I
need one more guy who thinks like I do.'
''I turned to him and said, 'Brett, you know, that's supposed to be Dougie.'
"Brett blanched. Doug's brother Bill turned away, his eyes moist. But the
quarterback no longer cries for his son.
''They see what Brett is doing, and they want that for us," he said. ''But
we don't miss it as much as they might think, because we never had it. We
love Dougie just the way he is."
When Dougie Flutie was just 2, if he concentrated really hard, he could
practically reach the hoop with a regulation-size ball. He loved to shoot
baskets with his father, and would happily sit with
his little arms and legs curled around Doug watching an entire NBA game.
He was an active, alert, mischievous child.
''When he wanted juice, I'd ask him, 'Now, Dougie, what do you say?' "
Laurie recalled. ''He'd giggle a few times, but wouldn't answer. I'd say
again, 'Dougie, what do you say?' He'd laugh, then he'd shout, 'Please,
beauty mom!' "
When his father went down to the basement to practice his drums, little
Dougie would trail behind, climb into his lap, and bang on the cymbals. They
lived in Calgary at the time, when Flutie was starring in the Canadian
Football League, and their house included a master bedroom with a fireplace
that also connected to the living room. Dougie loved to stick his hand
through the grate from one room o another, shouting with glee to his sister,
''Lexa, grab the hand!"
''He was one of those kids who hated going to bed," Doug said. ''We'd put
him in, and the next thing you know he'd be standing on the balcony. We'd
say, 'Dougie, go to bed,' and he'd say
to us in that sweet little voice, 'Good night!' "The memories are like
precious stones, to be coveted and admired and preserved. Dougie was once
like all of his cousins. He talked and he
sang and he cried and he giggled and he looked right into his parents' eyes
and told them he loved them.
It changed shortly before Dougie turned 3, when Laurie and the kids went
back to Natick to enroll Alexa in school. All of a sudden, the sunny boy was
subdued. He talked less and less. Laurie called the pediatrician. He told
her it was not uncommon for younger siblings to stop talking for periods of
time, because their older brother or sister did the talking for them.
Two months passed. Dougie barely spoke at all now. The only time he managed
to articulate much of anything was to repeat what Laurie said to him. Laurie
went back to the doctor. She mentioned Dougie's symptoms developed
shortly after he had his immunization shots. She was referred to a
neurologist, who recommended the boy be admitted to New England Medical
Dougie underwent a battery of tests. He was scared. He had wires coming out
of his head. They put him in a crib that looked like a cage. He looked away,
and he never looked back. ''I remember being in the doctor's office," Doug
said. ''They told me Dougie wouldn't make eye contact with anyone. But when
I looked at him, I saw the old Dougie."
The doctors surmised that Dougie was developmentally challenged from birth.
Laurie put together a video of her child when he was a completely healthy,
vibrant, communicative 2 1/2-year-old -- ''his highlight film," she joked.
The doctors viewed it, then grew silent. ''I watched and said, 'Oh my God,'
" Doug said. ''I didn't realize how far he'd regressed." The diagnosis --
autism -- was devastating. But, within a week, Doug and Laurie were moving
''We just started focusing on, 'Where do we go, who do we see?' " Doug said.
''I've had to do that a lot in my career. I know how to put last week behind
Questions are raised
Doug Flutie was always the little guy who defied the odds. He was a United
States Football League bonus baby. He was a Canadian Football League legend.
He was a replacement player in New England, a controversial figure in
Buffalo, a sage veteran in San Diego. Along the way, he used his notoriety
to start the Doug Flutie Jr. Celebrity Golf Classic, an all-star basketball
tournament, and a 5K road race, all to benefit the foundation.
''It always amazes me when I work with families like the Fluties, who truly
do not feel sorry for themselves," said Lisa Borges, executive director of
the foundation. ''It would be easy to be bitter, or angry. No one would
blame them. But they don't say, 'Why me?' They say, 'What can I do?' "
According to the Center for Disease Control, 1 in 166 children develop some
form of autism, ranging from mild and somewhat high functioning (like Dan
Marino's son) to severe. The number is staggering, and Bill Flutie does not
understand why there hasn't been a more urgent look at the preservative
containing mercury that is used in immunizations.
''You've got to shake your head at it," Bill said. ''Dougie is a normal
little boy, then after the shots he's not? Autism is reaching epidemic
proportions. I wish someone like Doug, with so much visibility, could
pressure the government to do something.
''I'm afraid to discuss it with Doug. It's so personal. It's a tough
subject. It upsets them, sometimes." Doug and Laurie have struggled with
this issue. They, too, believe the immunizations are the cause of Dougie's
autism, even though no studies have proven a direct link. ''The government
will never admit it, but we've got a big problem," Doug Flutie said. ''They
did a study. Great. Happy for them. But there's no doubt in my mind we need
to get the mercury out of these shots.
''We can't get into the lab ourselves and prove it, so we're trying to raise
funds for research. No matter what they find it's not going to make Dougie
better. But it could help others." They are wrapped up in Dougie; they admit
it. There are excellent facilities that house autistic patients, but the
Fluties have rejected that option. ''Some members of our family have said,
'You know, the sad day will come when you are going to have to put him
someplace,' " Doug said. ''I say no. Screw that. I want him with us. If he's
20, 25, 30, 35, I want him here."
''I will never put him in a home as long as I can possibly help it," Laurie
said emphatically. Dougie remains a challenge. He needs constant attention.
He is apt to suddenly sprint off into a crowd. He rarely cries, so if he's
hurt, or suffering, his family is often unaware. He cannot swim, so he must
be supervised near water at all times. This past summer, Dougie was sitting
in the hot tub when he suddenly popped out, scooted down the slide of the
family pool, and plopped into the water without his life vest on. Alexa
quickly pulled him to the surface; her brother, quite pleased with himself,
merely grinned at her.
Doug worries his son doesn't eat enough. Dougie is thin, and he never
indicates he's hungry, so his father leaves a trail of easily accessible
snacks throughout the house. Laurie worries that Dougie might become sick
and be unable to tell them. Alexa needs glasses; how would Dougie ever let
them know if he did?
''We were home recently and Dougie was crouched down, just staring out the
window," Doug said. ''He had been doing it quite a while, so I said, 'Dougie,
come over here.' He didn't move. That's when we realized his finger was
stuck in the vent. The poor kid couldn't tell us." One night, Laurie tiptoed
up to check on Dougie in his room. He was looking out the window with his
hand sticking through the net of his little plastic basketball hoop. His
finger had become caught and was turning blue. Dougie never made a sound.
The net is no longer in his room.
Realistic about the future
Who knows what Dougie would have been like? Is it a coincidence that the
first thing he reaches for in his toy box is the hockey stick, the
basketball, or the football? Doug tries to play catch with
Dougie sometimes. He'll say, ''Get ready, I'm going to pass you the ball."
His son, his expression blank, will not turn around. His father will throw
the ball anyway. Most times, Dougie will expertly
snatch it without looking.
''There are moments when you get a little bummed out," Laurie admitted.
''You watch Brett playing sports, and you think to yourself, 'These would be
the kids Dougie would be hanging out
with.' There are at least eight kids in the neighborhood Dougie's age who
are running around, doing what boys do. You wish Dougie could be out there
with them. But you can't dwell on it."
They are realistic about their son's future. He may improve in increments,
or this may be as good as it will ever get. ''I believe Dougie can
understand the majority of what we're saying to him," Doug said. ''I just
don't think he's able to respond. ''Jeffrey Lurie, the owner of the
[Philadelphia] Eagles, had a brother who was autistic who didn't speak his
first word until he was 35. He told Jeffrey, 'Don't talk to me like I'm an
When Doug signed with the Patriots, he sat down and explained to his kids
how he had met coach Bill Belichick years ago at rocker Jon Bon Jovi's 30th
birthday party, and how he thought this job with New England was a good fit.
Flutie had seriously considered playing one more year in the CFL with his
brother Darren before the Patriots made their pitch. NFL offers from the
Giants, Seattle, and Tampa Bay were more lucrative, but they couldn't
guarantee he'd be able to
watch his nephew Billy play for Natick High every Friday night. Flutie
reports to Patriots camp today knowing his son is settled. Dougie can hang
out in his ''hot pool" and continue his schooling at a collaborative program
The unknown comes into play years from now, when Doug and Laurie grow older.
Laurie had a nightmare about it two weeks ago, and woke up sobbing, shaking.
''I told Alexa about it," Laurie said. ''She said, 'Mom, stop worrying. I'll
take care of Dougie.' "
''People think he's a burden," Doug said. ''He's not. I love going up to his
room and lying with him on that big old bear he's got on is bed." The Flutie
family went to dinner recently. They were in the middle of a conversation
when Dougie suddenly picked up the rectangular menus and began twirling
them. ''He's got them in both hands, and he's spinning them around, and we
can't believe it," said Doug Flutie, with wonder in his voice. ''So we all
start trying it. But we can't. We can't do it."
The stunned waiter stared at this nearly grown kid in a stroller making
strange guttural noises while spinning these menus like some kind of
juggler. He had recognized Doug Flutie when they came in, and now his facial
expression betrayed his thoughts: how sad. No. It's not sad at all. Look at
them. Do they look unhappy? So Doug Flutie Jr. will never be a quarterback.
So what? His father does not care. Dougie's legacy -- his foundation -- is
so much more meaningful.
We should all be able to see that.
Donations to the Doug Flutie Jr. Foundation for Autism can be sent
to P.O. Box 767, Framingham, MA 01701
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As a parent of an
Autistic child, it is difficult to describe the pain and resentment
that is felt by having a perfect baby and then
having that baby snatched from you at about 16 months old.
The brain damage that my child received should not have happened.
healthcare industry is the best in the World.
There are safeguards and redundancies built into the system. However, in
this case, the system failed and failed badly.
My child and countless others were injected with a substance known as
Thimerosal is an
additive to baby vaccines that contains 49.6% Mercury. This substance was
banned by the pet vaccination industry over ten years ago because of
known health risks. The pharmaceutical industry kept this additive in the
baby vaccines, knowing full well the risks to our children’s health.
According to my child’s
weight and the amount of vaccines he received that contained this
additive, my child and thousands of other children have received over 40
times the legal safety limit for mercury exposure as established by the
Environmental Protection Agency. I speak for literarily thousands of
concerned and angry parents who basically got
burned by a system that has been perverted by Greed, Politics, and
In the last several years, the Food and Drug Administration
( FDA ), the Centers of Disease Control ( CDC
) and the National Institutes of Health ( NIH ) have granted
hundreds of waivers of the conflict of interest rule in favor of
the drug giants and their “paid consultants”. Has the
U.S. health care system been
unduly influenced? Thousands of children have suffered the consequences
of these people’s greed and short sightedness.
My child was born perfectly healthy, full of life. He had the potential
anything in life that he would have chosen to
Because of a short sighted medical system that failed, my child is now a
little boy who is lost in his own tortured
world of mercury induced autism.
This book talks about
the cause and the arrogant atmosphere that abounds in the vaccine
community that has caused this tragedy.
If you look at an autistic child, you will notice fear and profound
sadness on their little
faces. They are imprisoned in a world where
they desperately want to escape, but can’t.
The frustration that these children feel and their cries for help have
been ignored by
the very system that caused this atrocity.
When I look upon other
healthy six year old children who are playing, communicating and living
normal lives, I wonder what might have been with my little boy. I am sure
I am not alone in my thoughts. This is a painful and very tragic
Instead of concern, sympathy and needed help, the Pharmaceutical industry
and the “system” that caused this tragedy has been for the most part
un sympathetic, evasive
and full of legal denials.
This book will anger
many people, which is precisely what it is intended to do.
My desire is to light a fire under the bureaucrats, politicians and the
medical community to get off their asses and do something to help these
children. These children did not deserve what they got.
The parents of these brain damaged children have suffered terrible pain
and financial hardship as a result of the greed and political corruption
from the very segment of our society that was supposed to invoke trust
and medical excellence.
Is this book critical?
You bet it is. I know I speak for thousands of people who,
like myself want answers. The tragic truth is
that every time a question is asked, all that
is given in return is deception, distorted
truths and out right lies from the very people we trusted the most.
Lastly, it is my hope that this book will at least get people asking the
questions of HOW? , WHO? And most importantly, WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO
OF INNOCENT CHILDREN?
Disabled child's family looks for assistance, relief
06:46 PM CDT on Friday, October 29, 2004
By LAURA GRIFFIN / Special contributor to The Dallas Morning News
Editor's note: This story was originally published in The Dallas Morning
News on Aug. 10, 1996.
Most images the Liebos have of who their son once was are disappearing
fast. From exposure to heat, videotapes of Eric as a typical, talkative
4-year-old are now jumpy and full of snow. The color is fading.
But one is left. On it, Eric dances around the living room, plays with
his little brother and catches a ball. As he does, he squeals with glee,
"I'm the winner!"
As they watch the images on the screen, the strain and sadness show on
his parents' faces.
"He was so fun and so smart," says Jim Liebo. "He was my best friend. Now
his brain is destroyed. That's the toughest thing."
Eric, the oldest of three, had no problems until he was a year old. A few
weeks after he was immunized for mumps, measles and rubella, he had his
first in a series of seizures that would end in a stroke, causing severe
brain damage when he was 4 years old.
Now, three years later, after living in a rehabilitation center in
Austin, Eric is back home in Far North Dallas and not only testing the
limits of his family, but also of the few social services the region has
to offer such a child.
"He doesn't have Down syndrome or cerebral palsy or autism; he's `other
impaired,' " said his mother, Tina Liebo, who has searched all summer for
proper day care for her son. "He doesn't fall in their categories.
Everyone says, `We can't help you.' "
During the school year, Eric can attend special classes in public school,
but during the summer there's almost nothing for him.
In fact, statewide, the options are limited for disabled children,
particularly in day care centers or group homes, said Dorothy Loeper,
admissions coordinator for Collin County Mental Health and Mental
"It's really tough for parents like the Liebos," she said. "They have to
scramble to find things, especially day care. It's unbelievable to me
that an area as big as the Dallas-Fort Worth area has so little to
Even though he was born healthy, Eric is now diagnosed as mentally
retarded, which gives the Liebos the opportunity to work through MHMR,
but it still has not been easy.
Since January, Eric has been through two "shared parenting" foster homes
and about 20 nurses or nurse aids. Each time he stayed with a family to
give his own some respite, he was sent home within weeks because the
families could not handle his disruptive behavior.
Because the Liebos are new to traversing the system, it's been a
"They're not seasoned veterans like a lot of parents whose children are
born with difficulties," Ms. Loeper said. "Those parents become warriors;
they know how to work the system. Eric was normal for four years. They're
really rookies in the system and it's frustrating.
"For them, it's been like grieving a death and the birth of a kid with
disabilities at the same time," she said.
While they struggle to learn how to deal with Eric's problems, the Liebos
are also trying to plan for his future and make a difference for other
mentally disabled children.
"It seems nobody cares about these kids," said Mr. Liebo, who has been
trying to develop a public-private partnership plan to build a facility
that would include services for the disabled. "So many of these children
are wasted because there's not enough funding. I want to be the next
Jerry Lewis for these kids."
At first glance, Eric looks like any other 7-year-old. He has a mop of
sandy curls and big blue eyes. He smiles easily and often, even showing
strangers his gap-toothed grin.
But within minutes, the differences become clear.
He never speaks, but only moans or grunts.
From the time he wakes up at about 6 a.m. until he goes to sleep as late
as midnight, he is almost constantly on the move, ripping paper and plant
leaves into tiny bits and chewing anything he finds.
He is fed strapped into a high chair. He is not toilet trained and wears
He roams from room to room and slams into his brother and sister -
4-year-old Zak and 2-year-old Alexis - who are often shaken by his
"Physically, he's 7, but mentally, he's about 6 months old," Mr. Liebo
said. "Zak wants him to play with him. We tell him that Eric has a
boo-boo on his brain, and he can't do those things. Zak can't understand
why we can't make the boo-boo better.
"Alexis is afraid of him."
Memories of their son
Eric will sit for about 15 minutes if Barney, Sesame Street or Beauty &
The Beast are on TV. Those shows mesmerize him. But videos of himself
upset and agitate him.
If his picture is on the screen, he moans and hits the VCR buttons to
turn it off.
"He doesn't like looking in the mirror either," Mrs. Liebo said.
But when the Liebos look at Eric, they still see traces of the boy in the
video. The boy whose finger-paint handprints hang on the wall. The boy
who used to make strangers laugh with his jokes and his witty comments.
Eric was the boy teachers once called bright and described as "always
excited about his accomplishments. Eric loves all the children. He greets
his friends as they come in."
He used to love to color, paint, cut and paste and work puzzles. He sat
raptured at story time.
"He was definitely a delightful child. There was something very special
about him. He could walk into a room and light it up in a minute," said
Amanda Holsapple, assistant director of child care services at the Jewish
Community Center. "To see him in this condition is very painful."
The JCC also tried to find services for him. But because of his condition
and the one-on-one attention he needs, it has been difficult, Ms.
Holsapple said. It is for that reason that he has been unable to attend
the JCC's after-school program as well, she said.
"We really don't have the capability to deal with the difficulties of
someone like Eric," she said. "He needs highly trained people."
The Liebos tried to put Eric in a YMCA program this summer, but he was
kicked out after one day.
"He tore everyone's artwork into little pieces," Mr. Liebo said. "They
asked that he not come back."
The only program they managed to get Eric into was a summer camp for
disabled children. There he was able to tear paper to his heart's
content, and his parents were given a break for five days.
Dealing with Eric and his problems has taken an emotional and financial
toll on the Liebos.
When Eric first came home from Austin, the Liebos could not keep up with
him and their two younger children in their two bedroom apartment. So Zak
and Alexis stayed with Mrs. Liebo's parents at night.
"I just physically couldn't handle it all," Mrs. Liebo said. "But it was
breaking my heart."
Then for a while, only Alexis slept at her grandparents. When she was
with the Liebos, she was very clingy with Mrs. Liebo and cried when she
left each night.
"I feel guilty about all of them, especially Alexis because she's so
young," Mrs. Liebo said. "I already felt guilty because I'm a working
mother, but now I have so much more. I think maybe I'm not giving him
enough attention or I'm spending too much time with him and not enough
with them. I love them all, but I don't want my other children to feel
like they don't have their mother because of Eric."
They've set up a payment system for the $60,000 that insurance didn't
cover for Eric's medical bills. And they pay $900 a month insurance just
to keep him covered along with the rest of the family, Mr. Liebo said.
This summer, they've been paying $14 an hour for a nurse to stay with him
during the day. But nurses don't stay long.
"First they make excuses, like they've got car trouble," Mr. Liebo said.
"But you know when they don't answer their pages, that they're not coming
The day Eric had his stroke, he had gone to day camp, then came home, ate
dinner, took a bath and started getting ready for bed. He had a seizure
and his parents rushed him to the hospital.
"This seizure was much longer, and it seemed to take forever for them to
start working on Eric in the emergency room," Mr. Liebo said. "It was
hell. We thought it was going to be just another bad evening, never that
this would happen."
Since that night, their marriage has been tested.
Eric was in a coma for a month, then he was in rehab in Dallas and then
"We're in counseling to help us deal with it all," Mr. Liebo said. "But
we made it through the worst, we'll make it through this."
In addition, they've filed a claim against the U.S. Department of Health
and Human Services - which provides doctors with immunizations - relating
to the immunization Eric received at his pediatrician's office when he
was a year old.
"He deserves to have his life back, but since that's not going to happen,
he deserves to have the best life he can," Mr. Liebo said. "We can't
afford the best places in the country, but maybe we can some how give
that to him."
Though extremely rare, the federal government does receive 10,000 to
12,000 reports a year of people with some type of adverse reaction to
various immunizations, according to the National Vaccine Information
Center in Virginia. So far, the government settled on about 1,000 claims
under the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program, said center
director and co-founder Kathi Williams.
Because Eric's first seizure occurred a few days after the allotted time
frame for automatic compensation, and the government disputes the claim,
they must find a doctor to review his 4,000 pages of medical records and
testify that there is no other reasonable cause for his seizures, Brian
Arnold, the family's lawyer, said.
"The record is so voluminous, a doctor's going to have to spend hours
plowing through it," Mr. Arnold said. "The Liebos can't afford that, so
it's taking a long time, and that's frustrating."
Even if they were to win, he said, it could take years before they are
"I have another case where a little girl is brain damaged, and the
government accepted it two years ago," he said. "We're still waiting.
These cases are tough, I can't even look at the pictures of them as they
were before. Poor Eric. He is a cute little kid, and he'll never grow up
to be an adult. His body will, but his brain will never be that age."
Meanwhile, as far as Eric is concerned, the Liebos still have something
to hope for. Because they've moved from Collin to Dallas counties, they
had to transfer Eric to Dallas County schools and programs. Recently,
they were accepted into a Dallas County MHMR program and assigned another
"shared parenting" support foster home.
The purpose of the program, which grew from a need for community-based
services after some state schools were closed, is to gradually move
children back into their parents' lives, instead of just dropping them
into the family setting without support.
A little over a week ago, the Liebos, exhausted, relieved and sad, drove
Eric from their Far North Dallas apartment to the Rowlett foster home,
where he will stay during the week. Though the Liebos can visit any time
and he'll come home on weekends, it was still bittersweet.
"I'll really miss having him around," Mr. Liebo said.
Eventually, if all goes well with Eric and the support family, the Liebos
will bring him back when they get a home of their own and get used to
doing the work it takes.
At best it's a temporary fix. When he does get back home, there will
still be the burden of finding after-school care and day care in the
summers. And they fear that in a couple of weeks, they'll be asked to
pick him up, and they'll be back to square one.
"We've been through this before," Mr. Liebo said.
Joking aside, accident couldn't have come at a worse time
06:48 PM CDT on Friday, October 29, 2004
By LAURA GRIFFIN / Special Contributor to The Dallas Morning News
PLANO – For more than a decade, Jim Liebo fought for the well-being of
his son Eric, who at age 4 suffered a stroke that caused brain damage.
But now Jim is fighting for himself.
This summer, the Plano father of three stumbled in his bedroom and
injured his spinal cord, leaving him paralyzed from the neck down.
Now both Jim and Eric, who is still unable to speak, require full-time
Jim, 43, speaks with the same determination and hope about his future as
he did when planning for his son.
Eric, now 15, still has the mental capacity of a toddler and can follow
only the simplest of commands.
"I talked to a guy with the same [spinal cord] injury, and he's been in
the chair for three years – he just gave up," Jim says. "He said, 'Man,
you're so positive.' But you have to be. When you hit rock bottom, you
can't go any lower than that.
"You might as well look up."
But the reality is that it can be overwhelming. And in the quiet of the
night, Jim cries.
"That's when it hits me," he says.
Sometimes, says his wife, Tina, "I can't even think about it." The only
way to deal with the family's heartache, she says, is to take each day as
it comes – minute by minute.
She still has to work at her parents' clothing boutique, keep track of
her children's school and sports activities, and keep the household
"I'm trying to get back to some sense of normal," she says. "You don't
know how much you depend on someone until you can't do it anymore. Jim
always took really good care of me, and now I have to take care of him.
"But there are times when I think there's no way I can do this. If you
told me before that this is what we'd have to go through, I'd say, 'I
can't do that. No way.' It was the same with Eric. But you just deal with
During the day, the Liebos use humor to deal with it all.
"We joke that if we didn't have bad luck, we'd have no luck at all. They
say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger," Jim says. "Well, we ought
to be two of the strongest people on Earth by now."
The Liebos' community of friends is "pretty shook up" by what's happened,
says family friend Mike Stefani, who coached children's hockey with Jim.
"You think how easily something like that can happen to anyone," Mr.
Stefani says. "In the blink of an eye, your whole life can change."
A precocious son
In 1996, the Liebos were the subject of a story in The Dallas Morning
News after a stroke left their precocious son mentally retarded.
At the time, Eric's condition tested the limits of his family and of
social services in North Texas. Though the federal government disputed
the idea, the Liebos were convinced Eric's stroke was the result of
seizures brought on by an immunization for mumps, measles and rubella.
Injuries from immunizations are rare, but the government receives about
12,000 reports a year of people with some type of adverse reaction to
They applied for compensation under a federal program for vaccine
injuries, but their claim was denied because Eric's seizures began a few
days after the time frame allowed by the government. Additionally, no
evidence linked the stroke to the vaccine. Jim vigorously appealed,
hiring lawyers and medical experts – but his appeal, too, was rejected.
No matter how it happened, nothing could change the fact that their
eldest son would never grow up the way they imagined.
After the story appeared, the Liebos received help from a doctor who
brought Eric's volatile behavior under control with therapy and
medication. They also found a "shared parenting" foster home that allows
Eric to be with his family on weekends, while providing them respite
during the week.
Eric is small for his age and has a hard time focusing. In a noisy place,
such as a hockey arena, he is apt to occasionally scream for no reason.
But his behavior has improved from the days when he did nothing but
scream, moan or cry and obsessively shred all paper in the house,
He still needs help eating and never relearned how to use the toilet.
Though they eventually got used to life with the changed Eric, the Liebos
say they never completely got over the grief of losing the brilliant,
talkative little boy they once knew.
THE LIEBO FOUNDATION
The Liebos have set up the Liebo Foundation (www.liebofoundation.org) and
are planning charity events such as a golf tournament and a 5K fun run
that will help not only their family, but others with spinal-cord
Because of Eric's disabilities, the Liebos have experience in partnering
with charities and plan now to do the same with national groups dedicated
to spinal-cord injury research such as the Christopher Reeve Paralysis
Foundation and the National Spinal Cord Injury Association.
"Christopher Reeve was doing so much. I was trying to get in touch with
his organization when he died," Jim says. "Since this happened to me,
I've thought a lot about him. So it was really depressing when he died."
"I miss his voice and the things that would come out of his mouth," Tina
says. "He had the cutest personality. This thing with Jim has made those
Even from his wheelchair, Jim looks at Eric and mourns the milestones
"You think about it when you see other kids his age," he says. "He'd be
learning to drive now. He'd be starting to date. I wonder what our
relationship would be like. When he was little, he was my best friend."
Making a difference
After Eric's stroke, Jim started, and eventually lost, a high-tech
consulting business that earmarked a percentage of its proceeds to the
National Stroke Association and brain injury organizations.
Although it was too late to help Eric, the Liebos wanted to make a
difference for other children. And meanwhile, the Liebos did their best
to make sure their other children, Zak, now 12, and Lexi, 10, led normal
Jim coached their soccer and hockey teams. He also coached coaches,
played hockey and managed other teams as well, making him a beloved
figure in the world of kids' sports in Plano and Frisco.
Then came July 9.
Earlier this year, Jim started having fainting spells attributed by his
doctors to high blood pressure. One night, on his way to bed, he started
to faint. He stumbled, hitting the bedroom dresser and landing on the
"I heard my neck snap," Jim says. "And I couldn't feel anything in my
body. Tina woke up, and I told her to call paramedics."
An ambulance took Jim to Centennial Medical Center in Frisco. The rest of
the family followed by car. When they got there, they learned that Jim's
injuries were so severe that a helicopter would have to fly him to Baylor
University Medical Center in Dallas.
"It was terrifying," says Tina. "But never in my wildest dreams did I
think it was going to be so catastrophic."
In the helicopter, Jim thought he was dying.
"I could see the stars, and I thought I was going to heaven," he says.
At Baylor, doctors told Tina that Jim's fall was a "life-changing
accident" and it was unlikely her husband would ever walk again.
Still, they held out a sliver of hope. If her husband had surgery to
repair his spinal cord, which was partially severed, he might have a
chance at some mobility. But the operation came with risks.
"I thought, 'This can't be happening,' " Tina says. "Jim was always my
rock, and here he was in ICU, and I had to make decisions for him without
After the surgery and a week in the hospital, Jim moved to Baylor
Institute for Rehabilitation. People there knew him because Eric had
spent several weeks at the institute after his stroke. When Tina took
Eric to see his father, he threw a tantrum and didn't want to go inside.
"It was like he remembered it and thought he was going back," Jim says.
After six weeks of therapy, Jim moved to a nursing home in Plano, where
he spent five weeks.
Through physical therapy, Jim regained some of the movement in his arms,
allowing him to feed himself – even though he can only hold a fork
precariously with his thumb and forefinger. One recent morning at the
nursing home, Jim walked about 150 feet down a hallway and climbed three
steps using rails, relying on a walker and his therapist. It was hard:
With each step, he grimaced and groaned with effort and pain.
"That was scary," he said, as he came down the last step.
The fact that Jim is able to walk at all is "a miracle," says Margie
Snell, a therapist who worked with him at the nursing home.
"His spinal cord injury is not complete, which means a portion of it was
severed, not the entire thing," she says. "So a few messages are still
The nursing home discharged Jim at the end of September because his
health insurance included no more inpatient care.
Elation, for a while
Jim had feelings of both fear and elation about going home. He couldn't
wait to spend more time with his family. But none of them knew how to
take care of him, and their home had no ramps or wider doorways and
showers, or lower countertops and tables – things that make it easier to
get around in a wheelchair.
On his second night at home, Jim fell and lay on the floor for an hour
before his wife heard him calling. Tina couldn't lift her husband, so
although it was 2:30 a.m., they called a friend and asked him to come
pick Jim up off the floor.
"Now I wear a cellphone on my belt all the time," Jim says. "I'm really
afraid of falling and being on the floor all day. I tried to get to my
knees when I fell, but I kept falling flat. It was like trying to pick up
Ms. Snell says Jim needs to have at least an hour a day of both physical
and occupational therapy in order to progress. The Liebos' insurance will
pay for only 20 days, which began in early October, Jim says.
"Any time lost," Ms. Snell says, "you can never get back."
With two days of therapy a week, he'll be finished in early December.
After that, he says, he'll be on his own. He's looking to raise money to
pay for it. He's looking for ways to work so he might be able to afford
As the bills pile up, Jim becomes more stressed out about not working.
"We're going to have to have more income," he says. "We can't live for
long on what Tina makes. I really believe I can walk again, but I'm
afraid that I'm going to have to make a choice between working to support
my family and walking again."
Slowly, Jim is regaining some of his mobility. When he tries to walk, his
right leg shakes and bounces until he puts enough weight on it to settle
That can be difficult: Not only does he experience pain, his legs don't
receive the messages his brain sends him about what to do.
"Just lifting myself up is like an out-of-body experience," he says.
"It's hard to explain. My brain is saying one thing, and my body's not
responding." It has given him a better understanding of what Eric's
gone through. "I've always felt Eric's inside there, understanding more
than it seems, but unable to respond. He's kind of trapped inside his
head," Jim says. "Now I'm trapped inside my body."
But, he says, he knows that someday he'll walk again. Eric's condition
and now his own have taught him that, if nothing else, he's a fighter.
"What else can I do?" he says. "I can't give up. I know it's in me."
Laura Griffin is a Dallas freelance writer.
This is long but explains how are
children received 33 viruses
(includes the three in ones) by the time they are four years old.
I attended the CDC meeting on the 27th of October in Atlanta,
Georgia. . rs. This committee makes the recommendations to the CDC
NIP for vaccines and then the CDC adoptsadops their recommendations
and then all the professional associates like the AAP, AAFP, etc
adopt their recommendations then individual states make it law.
Also, one of the members held the patent on a rotavirus vaccine and
sat on the committee and voted to make it mandatory. Fishy?
Anyway, it would be great if parents would share their stories with
this committee. Right now, all that seems to be there was the
vaccine makers and other doctors. Our children's voices need to be
I was able to see the presentation on the Meningococcal Conjugate
Vaccine in the afternoon. I have to say it was sickening. They
want start the vaccine at age 11 year so that they will catch
everyone before they go to college. Not because 11 year olds need
it. Also, no study to show ll years olds are ok with this vaccine.
They want to tie it to their driver's permits to make sure no one
gets around it. Anyway, they had a few mothers speak at the public
comment to say that they lost their children in college because they
did not have this meningococal vaccine. It was so staged. They did
not call me for public comment, so I went up to the mike and told
them they did not call my name. Well, Mr Levin (Chairman) was not
happy with me but asked me to sit down and I could speak after the
next presentation. When I finally had my turn, I started with my
story about my aunt, who died when I was a teenager from stepping on
a rust nail. She had missed her tennus shot. She died waiting for
a liver transplant. I wanted them to know that where I was at
before my son's vaccine problem.
I told them my story as below:
I have a 4 year old son who was reading and writing before he
turned 4 years old on April 11. He was diagnosed with an allergy to milk
protein in March 2004. He was active for his age so I put him on a gfcf
diet. He was doing great. On April 28, 2004 the doctor informed me that
he should have received an MMR at at 12 - 15 months of age. Some how
they missed this shot. He was given
MMR, Polio, Hep B and DTAP on April 28, 2004. The first day he fell down
a couple times. By the fourth day his leg swelled up and he told me did
not feel well. He had a seizure. The doctor told me he was fine.
He started with whining and crying at silly things that never bothered
him before the shot. By the 2nd week he was hiding behind furniture and
growling at me. It was not all day, but a slow process. He would not
let me rub his back or feet like I did before the vaccines. He would
scream at me don't touch me. I noticed he was funny about going to the
bathroom. He would get feces on the toilet seat and leave it there. He
had never done this before the shot. The third week he was biting me and
hitting me and making funny faces and laughing for no reason. He became
very aggressive at times. He started to bang his head against the walk
and walk in circles. To the point I had to hold him to keep him from
hurting me or himself. All he could do was watch tv. His facial
expression was very strange. He was withdrawn. His speech regressed. My doctor sent us to several specialists who thought I was crazy. They
all said vaccines do not cause behavior problems. My husband searched
the web and found some info on the MMR and mercury. I called my doctor
and asked him and he said the shot did not contain mercury. I asked him
to mail me the info on the shots. The Hep B showed it contained (.5
mercury) in the info sheet that comes with the shot. I called my doctor
and he said the bottle said it was free of mercury. In my search and by
the grace of God I found the Autism Research Institute.
My son was treated by a DAN Doctor on May 27, 2004. He was able to
read and write his name within one week of treatment. They found his
measles titer test to be 5.97. A high titer test is 1.34. The doctor
also ran lab work and found serious bacteria infection in his gut lining
and treated it. I found out the DTaP is grown on casein (milk
protein) which my doctor was not aware of it. I talked to the vaccine
maker and they confirmed that anyone who has a milk allergy should not
Their insert does not clearly state this and the doctors have no idea.
The vaccine maker said it is the doctor's responsibility to read the
insert and ask questions. Also, confirmed with vaccine maker that there
has never been any test done on MMR and DTaP given together. They are
not sure what reaction could happen combine these together. They pushed
the responsibility off on the doctors. My son is doing much better but
we have a lot of healing work. Now, he asks me to rub his feet and back
everyday. I know in my heart if he would have not received treatment,
he would have been a mess for the rest of his live. I am not a parent
who hates vaccines. I believed the day I took my child in to receive his
vaccines that I was doing what a mother should do for her child. I
believe vaccines serve a very important purpose. I now believe they have
not been done responsible and doctors are giving to many doses of
vaccines at one time. I am not sure if this saves insurance companies
money or what the purpose is but there is no limit on how many vaccines
to give on one day. Besides the fact we are vaccinating for illness that
are not life threaten. My son had received a total of 33 vaccines in all
by the time he turned four. I received only 12.
I also asked if they were doing any research to prescreen children before
vaccines, like IgA blood work? Well, you could have heard a pin drop.
No one said a word. Mr. Levin said I had asked a question that is to
hard to answer at the moment and if I would sit down he would talk with
me after the meeting. I said I really do not know what was difficult
about my question and asked it again. You could tell he was not happy.
I sat down and waited until after the meeting. We talked after the
meeting. He was rude and tried to bully me as other doctors have treated
me in the past. He tried to skirt around the facts and tell me that my
son could have been sick with the measles even before the vaccines. His
remark was, "Well, we will never know". I stood my ground and asked who
he was and how he qualified to be on the board. I was polite but firm.
I kept going back to my facts (I had all of my labs with me and letters
from DAN doctor). He finally said he was not going to argue with me. I
said my son's titer test was sky high and he ask me what a titer test
was; they had just talked about titer test in the meningococcal
presentation and he is a professor of Pediatrics and Medicine for the
University of Colorado School Medicine. I explained I was not arguing
with him but I had facts. Also, we got into a discussion about the DTaP
being grown on casein. He tried to tell me that just because it is grown
on casein that casein is not part of the vaccine. Ugh! So I said if
grease the bottom of a pan with olive oil when you bake a cake then there
is olive oil in the cake. I then told him that the vaccine maker
confirmed that anyone who has an allergy to casein should not have this
vaccine. Well, he did not know what to say. I also showed him the 8 ½
by 11 insert of the vaccine I had the vaccine company mail me. I
explained it is not clear about the casein issue and the insert needs to
be changed. He then tried to throw it off to the FDA. He said the FDA
enforces the inserts. UGH! I have his email and he wants me to email
him next week and he will email the FDA Robert Chen's email address. I
explained to him that the vaccine makers are passing the buck onto the
doctors and the CDC when I ask questions. He was not happy with this
The following is their schedule for next year:
February 10-11, 2005
June 29, 30, 2005
October 26-27, 2005
I was also surprised that the gov makes .75 cents off of each flu shot
that is given out. Wow, big money. They make 2.75 off of each three in
one. I worked in state government for seven years before I decided to
stay home with my children. It has been awhile but I know this ball game
well. It is sick to thing this is how my children received so many
Please email of list if you need anymore info. Thanks.
Lynn, IgA def, G-Alpha Def,
Nathan, 2, Celiac,
Madison, 4, autism,
Steven, 15, Bipolar,
COVER- Generation Hg? Is Autism puzzle solved?
Published April 7, 2005, in issue 0414 of the Hook
BY COY BAREFOOT and ALISON BELL COY@READTHEHOOK.COM
PHOTOS BY JEN FARIELLO JEN@READTHEHOOK.COM
She was a beautiful baby with her mother's eyes. Daddy was there with the
video camera when she took her first steps. She loved to play tickle
monster. She was about 18 months old when she stopped smiling and stopped
talking. She didn't want to play anymore. She stopped looking at people.
She started waking up in the middle of the night and screaming for hours.
The pediatrician told the parents they were worrying for no reason. He
said every child is different. He said, "Let's wait and see." By the time
she was two, she had chronic diarrhea and drooled uncontrollably. She
walked on her toes, flapped her hands, and spent much of her time staring
into the middle distance. The distraught parents rushed her from one
doctor to another, begging for an explanation. An answer finally came:
Your child has autism. It's a genetic brain disorder. We don't know what
causes it, and there is no cure. Forty hours a week of therapy might make
her behavior more acceptable, but it's not going to "cure" her. You need
to start looking at institutions now because the good ones have long
waiting lists. The doctor sent the parents home with a video, and they
sobbed as they watched children like their own daughter rocking, flapping
their hands, and screaming. The narrator said, "We all have great dreams
for our children. With the diagnosis of autism, the dream dies."
Thousands of Virginia families and millions worldwide are living through
similar versions of the autism nightmare. Lanier Rossignol, a
Charlottesville mother of two young boys diagnosed with autism, recalls a
similar experience with her first son. "By the time he was 10 months
old," says Rossignol, "he never looked at me, never responded to his
name, and he was obsessed with spinning objects. I knew something was
wrong, but no one believed me. Everyone said, 'He's fine, you're just
imagining things.'" Seven months later, her son was diagnosed with
autism. Rossignol describes how her second boy "totally regressed" when
he was six months old. "He stopped responding to his name," she says. "He
started hand-flapping." Twenty years ago, autism affected fewer than one
in 2,000 children; now the Centers for Disease Control estimates it's one
in every 166. But just as the numbers of cases are growing, so is
skepticism that it's a genetic disorder.
Alice felt dreadfully puzzled. The Hatter's remark seemed to have no sort
of meaning in it, and yet it was certainly English. 'I don't quite
understand you,' she said, as politely as she could. from Alice's
Adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll "Mad as a hatter"-- the phrase
originated not in Lewis Carroll's story, but in a psychiatric illness
common among 19th-century hat makers that became known as Hatter's
Disease. Physicians were baffled throughout the first half of the 20th
century when they were confronted with an epidemic of sick babies
suffering from skin rashes, poor circulation, and respiratory distress.
Thousands of babies died. The illness became known as Pink Disease
because the fingertips, toes, and nose turn pink.
In the mid-1950s, in a fishing village on Minamata Bay, Japan, cats
started shaking and inexplicably jumping into the bay. Then the villagers
got terribly sick. Some died. Babies were born with mental retardation,
uncontrolled tremors, and permanent palsy. Before mercury dumped by a
nearby factory was pegged as the culprit, doctors dubbed it Minamata
Disease. Hatter's, Pink, Minamata, Barometer Maker's Disease-- no matter
what doctors labeled the disorders, each was later conclusively found to
be mercury poisoning.
"There are doctors out there telling parents they need to accept this,
that there's nothing they can do. Do not listen to whoever tells you
that! They are talking out of ignorance."-- Amanda Slim, a
Charlottesville-area mother of a six-year-old child diagnosed with autism
Slim is among the growing numbers of people who believe that mercury,
well known as among the most neurotoxic substances on the planet, is the
culprit in autism. To chemists, Mercury is "Hg," the only metal that is
liquid at room temperature. That seemingly playful property earned it the
moniker "quicksilver" from ancient Greeks. But inside the body, its
effects are insidious. Hundreds of times more toxic than lead, mercury
wrecks the immune system and can serve as the spark that leads to a
blazing spectrum of physical and psychiatric symptoms-- some of which
take months to manifest.
"If what I write in the book is all true, we have just experienced one of
the largest medical catastrophes of our time, putting a generation of
American children at terrible risk with possibly devastating results"
says David Kirby, author of Evidence of Harm, Mercury in Vaccines and the
Autism Epidemic: A Medical Controversy, released in March by St. Martin's
Press. (Kirby, a health/science contributor to the New York Times, will
be speaking in Charlottesville later this month.)
Kirby's not alone in asking whether autism is a misdiagnosis for mercury
poisoning. An increasing number of families, physicians, scientists, and
some in Congress point to a growing body of evidence linking mercury
toxicity with otherwise unexplained disorders like autism, Asperger's
Syndrome, ADD, ADHD, and a host of escalating illnesses that afflict
today's children in great numbers. "Autism, Asperger's, PDD, ADD, ADHD,
all of that stuff I think it's all the same thing," says Nell Goddin, a
Charlottesville mother of a child diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome.
"Until we get to a point where the labels are something other than
subjective behavioral descriptions, that isn't science. That's just
spinning your wheels."
The fact is that unprecedented concentrations of mercury were injected
into children via vaccines beginning in the late 1980s. And the symptoms
of mercury toxicity and autism are nearly identical.
Intriguingly, according to Kirby's book, autism rates began falling in
California in 2004 after the removal of mercury compounds from vaccines.
And many parents of children already suffering with autism are
celebrating the fact that a growing number of children diagnosed early
are making progress undreamed of a decade ago through "heavy metal
chelation," a therapy that binds a sulphur compound with heavy metals
such as mercury to flush them from the body. While chelation can be
dangerous, many parents swear by it and are telling the world that the
mysterious puzzle of autism has been solved.
Yet there are powerful forces who aren't about to swallow that pill. The
American Academy of Pediatrics, the CDC, the Institutes of Medicine, the
entire pharmaceutical industry, its lobbyists, and influential allies in
Washington-- virtually the entire medical establishment-- stand united in
opposition to the theory that mercury toxicity has something to do with
"I believe that my grandson became autistic at least in part because he
received vaccinations. He received nine in one day, and six of those
contained mercury. He acted like any other normal child. Yet within one
week he was running around flapping his arms, walking on his toes,
banging his head against the wall, and he could not speak clearly
anymore." Congressman Dan Burton, 2001
Mercury has been in vaccines since the 1930s in the form of a
preservative called Thimerosal, which is 49.6 percent ethylmercury. In
the early 1990s Thimerosal was banned from animal vaccines because it was
too toxic. In 1998, it was removed from over-the-counter products because
of safety concerns.
"Current scientific evidence does not support the theory that vaccines
have caused autism," the American Academy of Pediatrics announced in
And yet that same year, the U.S. House Subcommittee on Human Rights and
Wellness wrote, "Thimerosal used as a preservative in vaccines is likely
related to the autism epidemic. This epidemic in all probability may have
been prevented or curtailed had the FDA not been asleep at the switch
regarding injected Thimerosal and the sharp rise of infant exposure to
this known neurotoxin."
Thimerosol is still legal for and widely used in vaccines and flu shots.
But it is hardly the only way for mercury to get into human bodies. It's
in our teeth. A so-called "silver" filling is at least 50 percent
mercury, purportedly enough to pollute a 10-acre lake. Some studies
suggest mercury vapor enters the bloodstream every time we chew or grind
It's in the air. The EPA estimates that the nation's 1,100 coal-burning
power plants spew 50 tons of mercury each year. It collects in the water,
builds up in fish (as it did in Minamata, Japan), and becomes more
concentrated as it moves up the food supply. It's in breast milk.
According to the CDC, one in 12 childbearing women "already has unsafe
blood levels of mercury," enough to cause neurological damage in her
unborn children. When her six-month-old began exhibiting many of the
autistic symptoms that his older brother had, Rossignol had her breast
milk tested. She discovered that her baby was getting 10 times the EPA
daily limit of mercury.
Generation Mercury was born in 1988, the year Dustin Hoffman's Rain Man
made autism a household world (even though the character Hoffman played
also had Savant Syndrome, a rare and separate disorder). That was also
the year that, beginning with the Hib vaccine, several new shots were
added to the vaccine schedule. Over the next few years, the number of
vaccinations recommended for children under the age of two went from 8 to
20. The amount of ethylmercury injected into the bloodstreams of babies
and toddlers jumped 246 percent. Within the first six months of life, a
baby received 187.5 micrograms of ethylmercury, far beyond EPA safety
limits. And infants don't produce the bile necessary to excrete mercury
from their bodies.
It was not until 1999 that the American Academy of Pediatrics, the CDC,
the FDA, and the National Institutes of Health issued a joint statement
"urging" vaccine manufacturers to remove Thimerosal. Despite an agreement
to phase Thimerosal out of vaccines for children, existing stocks of
Thimerosal-laced vaccines could still remain on shelves. Thimerosal is
still present in most flu shots. It is used in the manufacturing process
of a variety of pharmaceutical products. And vaccines currently being
shipped overseas have high concentrations of Thimerosal.
Receiving the Hib vaccine with Thimerosal on the first day of birth is
the equivalent of a 200-pound adult male consuming 1,400 cans of tuna in
a single day. The analogy is not exactly fair unless the adult male stops
producing enough bile to excrete the mercury. Generationrescue.org
Dr. Neal Halsey was in charge of the vaccine program at the American
Academy of Pediatrics from1995 to 1999. When asked about the mercury that
babies received under his watch, he told a reporter, "My first reaction
was simply disbelief... what I believed, and what everybody else
believed, was that [mercury] was truly a trace, a biologically
insignificant amount. My honest belief is that if the labels had had the
mercury content in micrograms, this would have been uncovered years ago.
But the fact is, no one did the calculation."
Someone evidently did. A 1991 Merck memo obtained by the LA Times warned
that six-month-old children would get a mercury dose up to 87 times
higher than the maximum daily consumption of mercury from fish. But
whoever wrote it-- and whoever read it-- kept quiet. Over the decade that
followed, the rate of autism shot up 1000 percent nationwide.
"The injection of Thimerosal into expectant mothers and newborn infants
represents without a doubt a severe, major toxic exposure and is most
likely causal in autism spectrum disorders."Boyd Haley, Professor and
Chair, Department of Chemistry, University of Kentucky, 2002 Dr. Susan
Anderson is an Associate Professor of Pediatrics at the University of
Virginia and director of the autism program at the Kluge Children's
Rehabilitation Center. Does she believe autism is a misdiagnosis for
mercury poisoning? "I think not," she says. "If it was, then we would be
seeing a lot more of it than we do. I mean, everybody got the
immunizations." Like the majority of her colleagues, Anderson believes
that autism is a genetic condition that causes a disorder in brain
neurochemistry and not a manifestation of heavy metal toxicity-- and that
it has nothing to do with vaccines. As Anderson puts it, "Tying [the
increase in autism] to the change in the vaccine schedule is wrong."
Dr. Anderson, like most pediatricians, does not see an epidemic of
autism. Genetic epidemics are, after all, a scientific impossibility.
While she agrees that the numbers of children diagnosed with autism,
Asperger's, and pervasive developmental disorder (PDD), have climbed (an
increase of 726 percent in Virginia between 1990 and 2003), she
attributes most of that to better diagnostic tools.
Dr. Mary Megson disagrees. A Richmond-based developmental pediatrician,
Megson specializes in biomedical approaches to the treatment of autism.
"Are we just better at diagnosing [autism]?" Megson asks. "Well, you
don't miss a child who's been talking and then becomes nonverbal, flaps,
paces, and doesn't look you in the eye."
For most pediatricians, the fact that autism shares over 100 symptoms and
characteristics with mercury poisoning [see sidebar], the fact that its
incidence has increased among American children as the mercury load in
vaccines has gone up, and the fact that autism was not diagnosed in the
U.S. until after mercury was added to vaccines in the 1930s, are all
unfortunate coincidences. They form a regrettable pattern that has led
many desperate parents and some in the medical community to draw
hyperbolic conclusions that can't be substantiated with, in Anderson's
words, "convincing, evidence-based research."
Dr. Elizabeth Mumper is an Associate Professor of Pediatrics and Family
Medicine at the University of Virginia and president of Advocates for
Children, a pediatric clinic in Lynchburg. Mumper believes the evidence
supports a connection between mercury and autism. "I have seen a
bibliography of well over a thousand articles looking at Thimerosal and
showing the various ways in which it's harmful," she says. "The evidence
is there-- good, reliable scientific evidence. Getting physicians to look
at it is another story."
Mumper regrets that few of her colleagues share her belief in the
connection between autism and mercury exposure. "I've made very little
inroads with my mainstream colleagues because I have not been very
successful at getting them to come to meetings," says Mumper, who is
speaking at one such meeting April 30. [See sidebar] Another local
physician familiar with autism who asked not to be identified in this
article says, "The research is there. But [physicians] won't take the
time to look at it. These kids have been poisoned. I think pediatricians
have been in denial for a long time. And they're in denial because they
are too horrified at the possibility.
"We're looking at a generation of babies who've been poisoned due to
negligence and incompetence. I can't be more clear about this: there is
no hope for a child with autism today in mainstream medicine. Twenty
years from now, the fact that we even debated [the autism/mercury link]
will be ludicrous."
Results of one powerful study were published last month. Led by Raymond
F. Palmer of the University of Texas Health Science Center in San
Antonio, the study, forthcoming in the quarterly Health and Place, found
an association between rates of autism and mercury pollution. Every 1000
pounds of environmentally released mercury corresponded to a 61 percent
increase in the rate of autism, the study showed. While the CDC, the FDA,
and the American Academy of Pediatrics concede that babies and children
vaccinated in the late 1980s and throughout the '90s were exposed to
cumulative mercury levels far beyond what is considered safe, they still
maintain that a connection between concentrations of mercury in vaccines
and the epidemic rates of autism among America's youngest generation
cannot be proved. In other words, according to this logic, there's
no proof excessive mercury exposure can cause the symptoms of mercury
The authors live in Albemarle County. They have a three-year-old child
diagnosed with autism who has made dramatic improvements following
chelation and biomedical treatments. Bell is an assistant professor of
anthropology at Washington and Lee University. Barefoot's books include
The Corner: A History of Student Life at the University of Virginia and
Thomas Jefferson on Leadership.
SIDEBAR- Autism Awareness Month noted locally
April 14-15, Thursday and Friday, Cavalier Inn
"Behavioral Approaches to the Education of Children with Autism,"
conference sponsored by the Virginia Institute of Autism. 923-8252
April 19, Tuesday, New Dominion Bookshop, 5:30pm
New York Times Science/Health contributor David Kirby discusses his new
book, Evidence of Harm: Mercury in Vaccines and the Autism Epidemic: A
Medical Controversy. evidenceofharm.com
April 30, Saturday, Omni Hotel, 8:30am-4:45pm
"Recent Advances in the Biology of Autism," conference sponsored by the
Virginia chapter of the National Autism Association. Speakers include
Drs. Andrew Wakefield, Jeffrey Bradstreet, Sandra Jill James, and
Elizabeth Mumper. 977-4198 naa-va.org
SIDEBAR- Evidence or coincidence?
Some of the over 100 symptoms and characteristics shared by both mercury
poisoning and Autism Spectrum Disorder
Lack of eye contact
Delayed language use
Loss of speech
Anxiety and Irrational fears
Hypersensitivity to light, noise, touch
Uncoordination, poor motor skills
ADD and ADHD traits
Source: "Autism: A Novel Form of Mercury Poisoning," Journal of Medical
Hypotheses, April 2001
SIDEBAR- Mercurial data
Thimerosal is 49.6 percent ethylmercury. Ethylmercury is many times more
toxic than the organic mercury that permeates our environment. Thimerosal
was added to vaccines as a preservative beginning in the early 1930s and
has been in use ever since.
Autism was first diagnosed in America around 1940.
In the 1990s, the number of vaccines mandated for American children under
the age of two went from 8 to 20. The amount of ethylmercury received by
children jumped 246 percent. Since that time, the incidence rate of
autism has shot up approximately 1000 percent nationwide. A child is
diagnosed with autism every 20 minutes. Rates have also skyrocketed for
ADD, ADHD, speech delays, childhood diabetes, eczema, asthma, and
allergies. According to the CDC, 1 in 6 children now has some type of
developmental or behavioral disorder.
Lanier Rossignol with her sons, 4-year-old Isaiah and almost-2 year old
Joshua (both diagnosed with autism)
The 1972 Life magazine publication of this photograph of a mother bathing
her severely mercury-disabled teenage daughter woke up the world to what
happened in Minamata, Japan.
W. EUGENE SMITH (1918-1978)
Nell Goddin with family: Nellie Baumer (age 4), Julian Baumer (age 6),
and Chris Baumer
David Kirby, longtime health/science contributor to the New York Times,
speaks in Charlottesville April 19.
Kathy Young, a resident of Albemarle County and president of the Virginia
chapter of the National Autism Association, has a seven-year-old daughter
diagnosed with autism. "When Anna was about 18-months old we began
worrying about her speech delay. She was sick a lot too with ear
infections. She had no eye contact. The doctors kept telling us the same
thing: wait and see, wait and see. Two years later Anna was diagnosed
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became pregnant in September 2003, after being told by a fertility
specialist that it would be against all odds and only with the use of
fertility drugs. I became pregnant on one tube with NO fertility drugs
with our beautiful twins. We were excited to say the least and extremely
surprised. During the pregnancy we opted out of all of the new
testing...CVS, Amnio, genetic testing, etc. as we do not believe in
abortion. We felt that the worse thing that could happen was Down Syndrome
and we would graciously handle this if it were to happen...[God wanted our
boys here and I knew this more than anyone]
But it didn't. You see, we had 2 perfectly healthy baby boys. Identical
twins at that. [I had to have Terbutaline via IV during the latter part of
my pregnancy due to contractions, had gestational diabetes which I
controlled through diet, Shingles which I was told was due to the stress
of a multiple pregnancy and edema and borderline pre-eclampsia at the
On May 13, 2004, our twins, Steven Jr. and Samuel were born. Everything
was normal. [They were born via an emergency c-section due to my quick
labor. My water broke at home and I was 4 centimeters when we arrived and
didn't feel any contractions.] I received an MMR shot 5 days post partum
as they told me that I didn't have a titer to one of them. Being a new mom
of twins, I asked if this would affect them via breast milk and was told
"No." My breast milk disappeared 3 days later. [Within 24 hours of
receiving the MMR shot I had bumps on the back of my throat, my lips
swelled, I had difficulty breathing and felt horrible, the doctor told me
to take Benadryl as it was some sort of allergic reaction that he blamed
on Organic bananas. I am not allergic to ANY bananas.]
We were told that they had an allergy to milk based formula so we started
the formula roller coaster. Going from one to the next. They began
vomiting on Soy based formula and reflux. Prevacid caused both infants
severe diarrhea and neither were fond of infant Zantac so we decided "no
meds." We were told to add cereal. At one point, Sam was extremely bloated
due to the cereal and Stevie has problems with constipation. At this time,
we had to see a pediatric GI.
Stevie and Sammy received all of their vaccinations on schedule. [with
the exception of the Hep B which they did not receive until March and
April 2005] Our boys were developing somewhat slowly and we were told that
it was normal for twins. They had continuous breathing issues and ongoing
upper respiratory infections and slept upright in their infant carseats
for the first 8 months. They also had continuous ear infections and were
on a continuous round of antibiotics. We asked about tubes and were told
that the ear infections weren't bad enough.
Last year, 2004, the flu scare was horrible and the previous pediatrician
made sure that Stevie and Sammy received their flu vaccines, 27 days apart
to be exact. On top of it, as I looked back through their records, they
received between 5-6 vaccines at one time and a couple of times they were
on antibiotics for ear infections. In fact, Sam was on 4 different
antibiotics for the same ear infection and when we questioned the
pediatrician, he stated that it was normal/common for some children. At
some point in late November, the pediatrician referred us to Infants and
Toddlers to have them evaluated for developmental delays.
On December 25, 2004, Sam began what I called "flailing" and Stevie
started some odd behaviors as well...studying objects closely, loosing eye
contact and what language he had started he had lost. Stevie also stopped
eating baby food. Sam seemed more agitated. Both were exhibiting behaviors
that I was not familiar with nor could I put my finger on it. Neither
enjoyed being held. Nothing seemed to comfort them. They were beginning to
go into their own little worlds. It was gradual and we didn't even begin
putting the pieces together until...
April 28, 2005, my good friend Marion called me from PA. [Marion and Bill
have no children. Marion is a retired English Professor but originally was
interested in becoming a teacher for autistic children.] Marion had asked
me about tuna fish during the pregnancy, Imus In the Morning and David
Kirby's "Evidence of Harm?" I thought she was little bizarre at first. We
then talked about Thimerosal, vaccines and autism. She had listened to our
conversations about the twins and their development. She had suggested
autism. I got on the internet immediately and began to do some research. I
was sick to my stomach and could not believe all of the information that I
found. [By the way, with many thanks to our friend Marion, the boys did
NOT received their MMR vaccines.]
After our conversation on April 28, I called the
pediatrician and asked him about Thimerosal containing vaccines and he
assured me that they had been off the market since 1999. He also had a
very defensive tone and was unhappy with my line of questioning to say the
least. He went on to say that NONE of their vaccines contained Thimerosal.
On May 10, my girlfriend accompanied the twins and I to their doctor's
appointment. Sam was flailing (AKA:self-stimming) and when she had
questioned him, he replied "That's just self-stimulation and is normal in
some kids." She was irate to say the least and when she asked why, he
replied, "They have Severe Global Developmental Delay." He NEVER once told
my husband or I that before now. My husband and I went back May 13, 2004
for a developmental check/physical (for an upcoming MRI) and to discuss
why we were not vaccinating. We questioned the pediatrician again
regarding Thimerosal containing vaccines, I brought up mercury in the flu
vaccines and he agreed that the 2 shots that they had received 27 days
apart did indeed contain Thimerosal.
On August 10, 2005, we took the boys to see a
neuropsychiatrist and she gave them the dx of autism spectrum disorder.
Our boys and my other 2 children will NEVER receive another vaccine until
the vaccines are proven SAFE. We believe beyond a "shadow of a doubt" that
the flu vaccines triggered our boys autism/mercury poisoning. Everyday, I
can not believe all of the info regarding how unsafe vaccines truly are.
It makes me sick that our government is using our children as guinea pigs
and there is nothing we can do. It is disheartening to say the least. I
look at my boys and feel so guilty as I had NO idea that vaccines would
have ever caused them harm.
Now, we are hopping from pediatrician to DAN doc to
pediatric gastroenterologist, pediatric neurologist, neuropthamologist,
neuropsychiatrist, nutritionist, massage therapist, etc. etc. No matter
how discouraging there seems to be a glimmer of hope. They receive
services from Infants and Toddlers such as Physical Therapy, Occupational
Therapy and Special Education but it just not enough. I now make my own
baby food and they are GFCF and we are doing biomedical but it is just not
enough. Sam has started banging his head on the floor, though it is mild,
I am sure it is a prelude to what's to come. Stevie tries to be a drill
and rolls in a drill position on the floor. I think, "Will one bang his
head and the other spin in circles at some point?"
Everyday, I feel so consumed by information flying across the internet
and feel so bad for all of the parents who haven't got a clue. You see, I
was one of those parents at one time not long ago. I hate the government
for using our children for greed and power. I hate that they have such a
grip on the media that the truth is yet to be told. I hate that this has
happened to my children and the many others and yet many more to come.
Just what kind of government do we have? When will this nightmare end?
What will it take? Who decides? Why?
daughter Ashley [born 7-20-91 and received loads of mercury tainted
vaccines] has the following dx of PDD-NOS, ADHD, Severe Reading Disorder,
Writing Disorder and Mathematics Disorder, a Mixed Expressive and
Receptive Speech and Language Disorder, a Moderate to Severe Sensor-neural
hearing loss in her left ear and is Borderline to Low Average Cognitive
Ashley was always extremely small for her age and wore her clothes for 3
years in a row. Ashley had severe GI issues, at one time not to long ago.
She was in the ER at 2 different times at age 5 for GI issues, within one
year of each other. As she got older, it was so bad and so intense that
she didn't want to leave the house. She has been seen by two different
Pediatric GI doctors and at one time was prescribed Zantac and Hyoscyamine,
which did nothing. By the way, Ashley was on Concerta for ADHD and Zoloft
for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (she was picking or self mutilating
herself-forehead, arms and legs to the point where it looked like
cigarette burns). In a study using mice, after long term use, the mice
began self mutilation due to the Concerta.
On May 9 2005, she had a physical and due to my concerns and request, the
pediatrician closely observed Ashley and ordered blood work. Ashley's
weight this day was 78 pounds (she had only gained 2 pounds since her last
physical in July 2004.) After the physical, the ped ordered blood work.
Ashley's C-Reactive Protein was >5.2 [the pediatrician was extremely
concerned and called for an emergency visit to the pediatric GI.] Right
away, I started Ashley on the GFCF diet plus a combination of vitamins and
supplements. [Ithink that Ashley would have taken hundreds of vitamins and
supplements at one time just to feel better.]
On May 25, 2005, Ashley was seen for an emergency appointment by the
pediatric GI. He asked Ashley many questions regarding what her symptoms
were and how bad? Ashley told the doctor that the 2 previous medications
did not work for her (re: Zantac and Hyoscyamine.) We then told the doctor
about the GFCF diet plus the additional supplements and vitamins. Ashley
explained to him that she was feeling ALOT better since the diet and
supplements. The doctor said to continue what we were doing as it was
obviously working. I requested testing for Celiacs Disease but he said due
to the GFCF diet the test results would NOT be accurate. On July 11, 2005,
the blood work was redrawn. Her C-Reactive Protein is now <1 and that is
some progress. YEAH!!!! Ashley is able to go places without running to the
bathroom or rolling on the floor in extreme pain. As of October 13, 2005,
Ashley weighs 93 pounds. Back in May 2005, Ashley was in a size 10/12 slim
girls. Ashley turned 14 years old in July 2005. As of today, Ashley is in
a size 16 juniors shirts and sizes 16 slim and 0-1 in juniors jeans.
does not look sickly anymore and she no longer has dark circles under her
eyes. She still has problems sleeping but her overall health now is great!
Ashley continues to be medication-FREE and is doing wonderful in school
this year. Ashley is a social butterfly this year, has great eye-contact
and has begun to use sarcasm. She watches her diet and knows what makes
her sick. Once in a great while, I let Ashley cheat. Ashley is now ready
for chelation and that is a whole other story.
Michelle from Maryland
Moderator and co-owner to ASD_Kids@yahoogroups.com
old baby girl died back on March 9, 2006. On March 7, she received 4
vaccinations (DTP, Polio, HIB & Pneumococcal) an hour after the inoculations she
had diarrhea up to the back of her neck and ran a low grade fever. The autopsy
results of course said SIDS, I am riddled with the guilt of not educating myself
prior to standing over her and allowing my pediatrician to administer what I now
call "the vaccination cocktail of death".
I continue to pour over the information you've provided and am saddened at the
government's willingness to push these vaccinations knowing the risks- I am
baffled that pediatricians continue to push these vaccinations 4 at a time!
Recently the hospital that I gave birth at has started educating women on the
risks of SIDS, I want to SCREAM at them- If you're going to educate them on
SIDS, why not educate them on the risks of vaccinating?
I've attached a picture of our baby angel, A CRIME WAS COMMITTED HERE...MY
DAUGHTER PAID WITH HER LIFE!
DARING SIMON MAKES NO BONES ABOUT X-RAY FACTOR
Published on Friday, October 21st 2005
By SOPHIE DOUGHTY
A BOY from Heddon is living with a rare condition that stops him from feeling
any pain. In his short life, Simon Grant, (13), has suffered numerous broken
bones, but felt nothing but mild discomfort. His condition has made him a
fearless thrill-seeker, competing in all kinds of dangerous sports. Yet, doctors
fear the biggest risk to his health could be radiation, as Simon has had over
Simon was a normal healthy baby until he received his inoculations when he was
eight weeks old. He now suffers from a catalogue of conditions, including mild
autism, a poor immune system, low muscle tone and a severe sensory dysfunction
which means he feels no pain. Simon was one of the very first babies to be
vaccinated after the Hib injection was brought forward, and given at two months.
His appointment was at 9am on the first Monday that the vaccine was given
alongside other routine jabs. While no link has ever been proven between his
illnesses and the injections, his mother Jan noticed her baby change that very
night. "As a mother you just know," she said. "But I'm not bitter; those
injections are given for the right reasons."
Jan's time and energy is now devoted to making Simon's life as happy and normal
as possible, but this is no easy task. While most young boys come home with the
odd scratch or bruise, Simon has been known to break bones while out playing.
But unless somebody has seen him fall, his parents have no idea that he is
injured. "We never quite know where he is," said Jan. "He is always climbing
trees, and jumping out of them. "He comes in with massive scratches and bruises
but does not remember how he did them."
And here lies Simon's problem. Because he does not associate injury with pain,
he continues to take bigger and bigger risks. Jan recalls one time when her son
came in with a broken jaw. She had no idea that he had such a serious injury
until he said: "Can I have soup for my tea because my teeth don't fit?" An
astounded doctor later told Jan he had seen rugby players with similar injuries
crying like babies. Jan recalls one occasion when her son climbed to the top of
a 40ft tree and she shouted at him to come down. And come down he did, leaping
from the tree and landing in front of a group of very bemused ramblers.
Then there was the time at nursery when Simon was recovering from one of his
many broken arms – Jan received a panic-stricken phone call from staff saying he
had removed his cast while their backs were turned. While Simon's antics can
often raise a laugh, his condition is really no joke. Although he has been
allowed to attend the mainstream high school in Ponteland he has two carers
watching him every minute of the day, to ensure he does not hurt himself or
His poor immune system means he also suffers from pneumonia regularly. However,
Simon is anything but a sickly child. He loves all countryside sports, including
horse riding, motor bike trials, Cumberland wrestling, rugby and shooting. And
the Grants' farmhouse is filled with the rosettes and trophies he and his older
brother, Christopher, have won. Anyone who has seen him riding one of his ponies
around a cross-country course, or astride a motor cycle, careering up a bank,
would have no clue to the ailments he suffers.
Instead of stifling his spirit, his illnesses have only made him stronger. And
the youngster has grown into a happy, outgoing child, with boundless energy and
a real love of the outdoors.
Although Simon never gets scared, his mum does. Jan often finds herself hiding
her eyes and crossing her fingers during some of his daredevil antics. For her
Simon's lifestyle can be both terrifying and exhausting, but she has no
intention of wrapping him up in cotton wool. "People think I must be crackers,"
she said. "I do worry about him, but I can either let him live his life
and do what makes him happy, or let him become a couch potato. "The things
he does are what makes him so strong."
Seven years ago, my son was diagnosed with autism.
Can I tell you how it feels, can I relive those earlier years when hell ran
through my blood?
Sometimes yes. Sometimes no.
Today I choose not to talk about it so much. Not sure why. Maybe it is too
painful. Maybe it is because I am healing.
My very first reaction to the diagnosis was great sadness. I wasn’t in denial or
even shocked. I highly suspected it, but I wanted to be wrong. I wanted someone
to say, he’s fine but even when those words come from a close friend I didn’t
When the words “autistic” finally came from a board of “professionals”, it hit
me really hard.
However, I immediately got busy. I began reading everything I could get my hands
on about autism. I had just gotten my first computer and I was .com crazy.
Believe it or not there wasn’t a whole lot of information on autism 7 years ago.
Today the internet is inundated with information, resources and strategies.
In fact it can be quite confusing.
One of the very first things I found on the internet that intrigued me was an
article about Lyn Redwood.
Lyn was a nurse practitioner whose son was diagnosed with pervasive
developmental disorder in 1999.
Ms Redwood recognized her son was expressing characteristics similar to mercury
poisoning. While trying to figure out where he may have been exposed to mercury
she came across an unknown ingredient used as a preservative in many childhood
vaccines, thimerosal. She was shocked to learn thimerosal is actually a mercury
derivative. After calculating the level of mercury her son received from
multiple vaccines, Lyn discovered his exposure levels were 125 times more than
the EPA Federal Safety guidelines.
(Lyn Redwood has since founded SAFE Minds and has played a very instrumental
role in exposing some truths)
Unlike many parents, who first resist this notion, I knew right away with all my
heart and soul, it was vaccines that threw my normal baby into autism. He wasn’t
BORN with autism.
I do not believe vaccines are the only reason our children are so sick. I can
name many things that chip away at our youth’s immune system, starting in the
womb. However, vaccines are the big bang. They are a direct hit, the straw that
breaks the camel’s back.
The symptoms of mercury poisoning and the symptoms my son was expressing were
all too similar.
My son was a typical toddler, walking and talking on time, meeting all his
He was a social, fun and very interactive little boy.
Autism did not show it’’s ugly head till after a visit to the pediatrician’s
office. I took him in because we were concerned about his congestion and fever.
While we were at the doctors I learned he was behind on his recommended vaccine
schedule. They injected my already sick child with 6 vaccines and it was then
our world began to change. On that day, my son received 38% more mercury than
the EPA allows for an average size man. My baby was only 30 lbs.
Thimerosal was causing alarms to go off to a small group of professionals but
not too many people were really listening. The thought was, how could our
government allow this to happen? Isn’t the FDA in charge of regulating
medicines and vaccines? And how about the CDC, the Center for Disease Control?
They certainly must have the expertise and integrity to protect the American
(Yeah right, do the words DES, Vioxx or Agent Orange ring a bell? )
After continuous digging I began to hear about the MMR vaccine and it’s possible
link to autism as well.
It seems people in England were claiming their children became autistic after
their MMR shot. (The MMR is a multi dose vaccine that contains the live measles,
mumps and rubella viruses. It does not contain thimerosal ) .
Doctor Andrew Wakefield, a gastro-intestinalogist from The Royal Free Hospital
in London was one of the few listening. He believed the parents and began doing
scopes on a small group of children. What he found was vaccine strain measles in
the guts of these kids.
Wakefield never said the MMR vaccine causes autism. What he wanted was a further
investigation into the possible link.
The hospital refused and Dr Wakefield was eventually dismissed from his
Wow, I thought, this is just too much. There has got to be more to this.
Why is a once highly respected doctor now being ignored by his colleagues?
At the time, I joined efforts with The Autism Autoimmunity Project. They were
the first non profit autism group to bring vaccines to the limelight. They
hosted an event with Dr Wakefield and Dr. Jeff Bradstreet of Florida.
There were over 600 parents in attendance and sitting amongst the crowd…..ONE
The medical field simply was not interested.
It was at that point on, I decided to do what ever I could to learn more about
autism and do something about it. My doctor certainly wasn’t trying to figure it
I dug deeper. It was then when I discovered things like HOT LOTS, vaccines that
are taken off the market due to high rates of negative reactions and/or death. I
investigated further into vaccine ingredients to learn vaccines can contain
aluminum, MSG and formaldehyde. I researched the process and cultivation of
vaccines to find they use products such as green monkey kidney cells and chick
embryos. Some vaccines include fetal bovine serum and human fetal tissue. How
come this was never revealed to me at the pediatrician’s office? I certainly
would have thought twice about injecting these byproducts into my baby.
I researched even further into the BUSINESS of vaccine making and how the
pharmaceutical companies were lying in bed with many of our government officials
responsible for mandating vaccines. This surely was a conflict of interest, I
I was so eager and full of fire to tell everyone what I had discovered.
Wait till people hear this, I thought. There will be an uprising. There will be
The people will scream in the streets, the parents will demand retribution. The
doctors will cry “Mutiny”
There was no coup d’ etat, however. There was no reformation but there were
We were met with much resistance. Most parents thought it was an insane theory
and pediatricians simply refused to listen.
The handful of medical professionals and researchers exploring the vaccine link
were fired, denied grants, threatened, ridiculed or put under criminal
It became risky business to stick up for the families proclaiming their children
were perfectly normal until a routine vaccination was administered.
The small, group of convinced parents were also facing turmoil. Besides losing a
child to autism, we were facing an angry mob of nay-sayers.
I had been thrown out of doctors offices, hung up on and even kicked out of an
autism support group!
Imagine that! So much for support, huh?
Doing my homework and bringing it to the attention of others caused a lot of
animosity towards me. After all the doctors were telling the parents they had
no idea what caused autism and their was nothing they could do about it., Then a
tall, wiry, fired up, redhead comes along telling them it is the vaccines and
YES there are treatments that can help.
“Get this lunatic out of here”, they whispered among themselves.
“Ok, Ok”, I thought,” These moms don’t know me” I said to myself. “Of course
they are going to trust their doctors over me. I scare them, I question them, I
rattle their faith. But my family and friends; they love me, they know I am
intelligent, they will understand and embrace my discoveries”.
Well, so I thought.
My friends stopped calling, my siblings made fun of me, avoiding my phone calls,
emails and invitations.
My parents shook their heads and dismissed my convictions. My only allies were
strangers I met on line in yahoo groups.
While the rest of the world slept, we mothers, fathers, and grandparents were up
all night, seeking answers and offering hope.
And then…….. the homeopaths, chiropractors, naturopaths and yes even some
medical doctors began to pay attention.
There are just too many of us now. Our children who were once 1 in 10,000 became
1 in 166.
Healing takes time and ours has begun.
People are waking up. Autism is receiving more and more media coverage. As
Congressman and Senators experience autism within their own families, they are
now taking a more serious and perhaps unbiased approach to seeking truth and
justice. The medical profession is experiencing a growth in alternative and/ or
holistic treatments. Parents are questioning vaccination, once considered a
As far as me and my family?
Well my son, has made miraculous strides. He was once non verbal, had no eye
contact, or social interaction. He walked on his toes, flapped his hands, and
often ran back and forth screeching.
He had night sweats, night terrors and panic attacks. He covered his ears and
screamed at the sight and sound of a fly. He had unusual fears yet was
unconcerned about climbing high places or just wandering off. I can’t tell you
how many times we lost him. Those heart pounding, breath taking moments where
you freeze in time, not knowing where to look first; the bottom of the pool or
the 4 lane highway?
Those days are gone.
My other children and I spend more time together. No more therapy visits 5 times
a week. Mommy is no longer lost in autism books, articles and websites. I am no
longer missing at meetings, lectures or conventions. Instead I am tucking them
in and reading them stories.
Relationships are beginning to repair. New friends are being made.
My marriage is healing. (80% of marriages with special needs children ends in a
divorce) We are finding more time to enjoy each other, respect each other’s
roles and have reason to rejoice. The financial problems of having a sick child
still linger above our heads, but we are now treading water instead of
So why am I now spending the majority of my evening at the computer typing,
while my husband and kids whimper around me wanting to know what I am doing?
Because, this week marks a monumental time for us.
On Monday, June 11th, The US Court of Federal Claims started proceedings into
the first vaccine/autism case. Michele Cedillo, a 12 year old girl will go down
in history as the first autistic child whose parents stood up against the
Secretary of Health and Human Services claiming vaccines are the cause of her
Since 1999, more than 4,800 families have filed claims with the government
alleging their child’s autism was caused by a vaccine. Thimerosal, the mercury
preservative and the MMR vaccine will be viewed intensely
The autism world, the anti vaccine groups, vaccine manufacturers, pharmaceutical
companies, and the US government will all be watching closely.
I have received numerous phone calls and emails on this issue. I have even been
asked if I knew about it. Of course I knew about it but it is something I have
a hard time discussing. I have remained quiet till now.
I had to do it in a personal way. I could not simply send out an email about
this trial, when it meant so much to me.
If you are interested, here is a link in which you can get daily access and
transcripts of the hearing.
Have I been listening? Well, NO!!!
Quite frankly there is nothing that can be said that I have not already heard.
I lost days, nights and years researching the facts. I paid the gut wrenching
price of swallowing the truth. I have already vomited from the lies and tactics
the vaccine pushers use.
I have already been engulfed in rage because of the unjust behavior of some
I have already cried a river of tears on account of the unfair, inhumane ways
our kids and their families have been treated.
I have already heard the wretched pleas for deliverance and I have already seen
the faces of ignorance and complacency.
I have had to take everything I once had faith in and twist it inside out and
I have had to look dead straight into a mirror of human shame.
Perhaps the truth will finally be revealed or perhaps we will be told to go back
to the sand pits and bury our heads, for the government has spoken.
I won’t be listening however, I am too busy healing and praying for the
November 11, 2007
Reference "Advancing the Issue: Vaccines," Oct. 18: Our daughter Anna Cogliandro,
now age 20, is in a wheelchair due to her MMR vaccine at age 15 months. I
applaud mothers who use their own common sense in protecting their children from
vaccine-related damage, no matter what exemption is necessary.
In Virginia the issue of religious exemption was taken to the state Supreme
Court by a Virginia Beach resident, Waleen James. She chose natural health care
for her grandson and fought it in court. The court ruled that if it was a strong
personal belief that vaccinations could do harm to the child then it could be
considered a religious belief and a parent did not have to belong to an
organized church that does not practice medical intervention to submit the
Don't fall for the medical rhetoric. A loving, caring, well-informed parent
makes the wisest choices for their children. Find out what's in the vaccines and
how they work, independent of those who are selling them. Ask for the insert
information that lists warnings and possible reactions before you make that
decision. I wish I had.
Take it from someone who's been through a parent's worst nightmare. If a child
suffers injury, the parent and family will be the ones responsible for the care
of that child, not the medical professionals or drug manufacturers.
Sanny and Colette Cogliandro
Copyright © 2007, Newport News, Va., Daily Press
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